WIL WHEATON dot NET: 1.5

give 'em hell Wil. We love ya.

Oh my Gooood!
WIIIIL!
You're back!
You're still here!
I was planning on being slightly depressed for a little while, but you're still with us!
Go you!
Okay, now that I got my ya-yas out, I can go read what you posted.
*sniff*
I'm glad you didn't abandon us

Give them hell Wil. You do exactly what you want to do. Write the book how you want it written, its your book not theirs. And don't let the few "A" holes in this world get you down. And its not a bad thing to get emotional, that is what you have us for. Don't let the government scare you.We have given you support for a long time, and we will continue. Good luck on the book, and don't sweat it.

Is wanting peace considered unAmerican? Is refusing to charge blindly into war, leading to loss of life on both sides, unAmerican?

Is it unAmerican to want peace and cherish life?

Then fucking sign me up for unAmericanism, buddy.

Given the quality of what you write on here, Wil, I can also safely say that I don't doubt for a minute that your book is going to be well worth reading. Even when you're putting out something really brief on the site here, it's well worth reading. And I read shit all day that's NOT well worth reading. I spend half of my days editing bad writing, for god's sake.

As for the rich assholes, I can't believe you resisted the urge to tell them to fuck off, given how little understanding they displayed. That's almost inhuman restraint.

Big hugs to ya Wil. I've been feeling like I'm riding in a car with no brakes. It's a creepy feeling, but I guess that's what being an American today is all about. One day the history professors will reflect back on this "time of uncertainty". Hang tight.

As I remember, a group of 7 supreme court judges elected this guy into power.. Not you or me.. To hell with the Electorial College, it's out of date.. Toss it.. Get rid of it.. Let the popular vote rule the day..

Hey Wil,
Hang in there -- hopefully the book stuff will work itself out. I find when I get stuck like that writing, that doing a bit of core-dumping on paper often helps clear the cobwebs and then I can get back to it with a clearer picture of where I want to go with something.

On the war front, there's a peace march on Sunday I'm considering going into. In fact, I'm trying to decide whether or not to bring the baby along with me, or leave him at home if things go awry.

I feel like I have to do -something- because otherwise my voice isn't being heard.

We LOVE you Will. You are our light in the darkness. The book is your "baby" do only what you think is justified to its contents. I agree with you about this Iraq mess, it feels like a never ending nightmare. Please don't give up your journal entries, we need you now more then ever. Don't listen to other people, listen to your heart. Love and Peace...to you and everyone....

Will,

Right on about your comments on this crazy war talk. It is good to know that I am not the only one growing weary of how most Americans seem to be taking this war as something that is simply a done deal. It is time that each of us gets involved, make your voice heard, write your representatives, protest, and for Christ sakes use your brain.

I feel sorry for the woman you found at the local home store, buying duct tape and plastic sheeting. It is ludricrous to believe that would help in the case that there is an attack. Sure, get some food and water together - it doubles as an earthquake or general natural disaster kit. Duct tape isn't going to help though.

Glad to see the entry! And good luck with the book. I am in the midst of a deadline writing a book about bird watching in Washington state and I hear you about the self doubts...

Wil,
Wasn't expecting another post today. Wow sounds like a pretty rough couple of days. I am not one of those that think that you are "Anti-American" for being anti-war. But since you brought it up I WILL ask you a question. At what point do YOU think it would be right to use military force in Iraq? Or is that a nope-never-not an option?

Keep up the good work!

Wil Just relax you are one hell of a writer and your book will appeal to a wider audience than just the Star Trek crowd. But you already have the Star Trek audience in the bag. Just look how many books Shatner has put out... ok Bad example. Hey look a Bruce Campbell putting out a book was one of the best things he has done. Now if you wold only write some a novel about the adventures of Wesley Crusher.

Actually Bin Laden hates Saddam and would like to see him replaced with an Islamic government. Saddam is a socialist secular goverment. Bin Laden would like to see Saddam replaced with a similar government of Iran... who hates Saddam

I get the 'my book is crap' blues every other week. The best thing to do is ignore it and keep going. From what I've seen you post here I think you're good at what you do, and I know I'm not alone in the universe. Just concentrate on writing the book YOU want to read. The rest will follow. :)

Wil,
Glad you're back. Just want to let you know that other people are scared about the possibility of war too. I caught myself thinking about what the most secure room in my house was.

I hear ya on the war thing. I listen to the news every day and think, how the hell did we get here? why isn't anybody SAYING something? Then I realize that we are, but nobody's listening. Except each other, I guess.

WIL - I was so sorry to read your experiences recently with hateful people. It is demoralizing and saps your energy. I read your blog regularly because I get a lot form your take on life and general good vibe. Why people check their humanity at the internet connection is beyond me. The anonymity of tapping random thoughts on a key board is also the very act of disconnecting the internal monologue editor that allows all of us to coexist in the real world face to face, or else we'd annihilate each other. This is my point essentially, that to be truly effective, I and you must not check our humanity at the keyboard. I guess that's why I enjoy your blog. You DON'T check your humanity. Unfortunately, it means that you leave yourself open to attack; of being hurt. Being vulnerable and open is the cost of being true to yourself. So, fuck the assholes that hurt you. Stay true.

Have a fantastic day. And, I been a fan of yours since "Stand By Me." So, of course, I've also followed your travels on TNG from the beginning.

Later,
Kev

Regarding the trolls:
I wonder how many people fail to note the difference between the actor and the character. Don't like the character - no problem, just don't take it out on the actor.

When my father was an actor, he once did a 3-year roll for a soap opera. His character was a real SOB. He used to get hate mail for what his character had done! (addressed to him, not his character...) makes you wonder...

Anyway, Wil, you seem to have taken the brunt of the punishment for Star Trek writers doing things the fans don't like. They *ought* to be bitching to the script writers if they don't like it... Sheesh!

Where can we get a synopsis of your up and coming book? Are you into any of the on-line writers groups? They can be VERY helpful. I doubt I'd be published if not for that sort of assistance from folks that want to write for a living.

Hang in there, finish the book, never go back to Waffle House.

Frank

Wil, you are the reason I started blogging, and it has been a fantastic release for me; theraputic, really. But I just got my first hate mail, and it hurt a lot. The 'net seems like a hostile place where people can take pot shots without repercussion, but those people aren't worth your thoughts and energy.

Did you see on Fark.com that a young Farkker was killed in a car accident last week? The outpouring of genuine sympathy for the family was unprecedented, and it reknewed my faith that even on irreverent sites like that, most people on the 'net do have consciences. Take enjoyment in the Delete button. You can erase what those a--holes say with a click of your pinky finger. That is all the effort they deserve.

Maybe you should just kill yourself.
66.136.11.114

Wil
I am going to buy 3 frickin copies of the book! I am glad that you've cleared the air over what was said before. I hope that you read what I submitted in the comment box. I wish to say more but right now my plate is full. I will prolly in the near future be getting my Gallbladder removed and I might be gettting a job, and a bunch of other thingy ma bobs. (Hee hee I almost put Boobs instead of Bobs):D

Glad to see that you are still posting. It is normal to be nervous about a project. No matter what it is. Be confident. Im really looking forward to reading your book.

You know, I was one of those naive americans that thought nothing could ever touch us. I was wrong and my eyes opened up to what can really happen. Recently, sometimes I wished I lived somewhere else but when it comes down to safety there is no such thing. I have lived in new york my entire life and never was I afraid until now. Soon I am going to purchase tape, plastic and tons of water. Just in case I am packing a bag.

I really should stop freaking out about this but I can't help it.

Sorry that my post is depressing.

Okay, I will stop now.

Wil,

Hang in there bud. I've know how you feel. It's like every interaction you have during the day has it's sole purpose to simple make you more miserable than you are. Usually I would sit alone in my room for an hour and crank up some hard core rock music. For some odd reason it didn't make me feel any better. You know what does though? The mere thought that your beliefs and values are true and just, and you're living life the best you damn well can. Knowing that you're stronger than all of the BS you have to deal with in your life should eventually lead you to realize that: "You know... I can deal with this, and when all is said and done, I really am one lucky guy, and DAMN ain't it great to be alive!"

Keep it real man...

Peace

- Eddy

Emotional is sometimes the way we get rid of this stuff, dude, so post away. I know that as a public figure, you have some responsibilities to be true to an image or ideal, or that you feel the pressure far more than what most people do simply because what you do could end up on the evening news, but you are still a dude. A man with a family, with worries as to what kind of world your kids are going to grow up in.....as a father, I can sure as hell relate. Life can sure as hell get hectic without having to add that whole, public image thing to it. For you, I don't think it's so much the fact that you have to be someone you're not, or be something everyone expects you to be.....fuck them. But in order to keep your kids safe, and your family happy, you do have to keep idiots from invading your space with cameras, with notepads, or video cameras trying to see if they can get Wesley Crusher doing something naughty.......much of the public has shown big companies that they are interested in hearing about the shattered lives of stars, or former child stars.......it borders on idiocy.

I don't think too many monkeys really thought this was going to get so serious to the point that WWDN was going to be abandoned, or that you'd lose your way......all artists go through doubts.....hell, a week ago, I wasn't even sure I should post up pics of my painting to share with anyone simply because I thought a zillion things were wrong with it......it's always like that. Always. You never really want to let your creation go, but at the same time, you want to share it, which is the reason for creating it in the first place for many.

Take care wil, and be well. You're a good man. And, you're human as well.......personally, I think you restrained yourself quite incredibly, and you shouldn't apologize. Keeping all that shit inside is what causes the explosions in our lives.......this site is yours, and if you can't rant or complain on it, what business do any of us have doing it? *smile*

Wheaton - I know I don't know you, and you don't know me.. Please forgive the following, as I have no right to pass any type of judgement:

I've read your Blog for a while now, and it sounds a lot like your writing has returned you to the place that made you so unhappy as an actor.

We understand that you want to do the best you can as an author, but you might do well to remember, that is all you can do. As with anything else, some will like your work, and some won't.

Or, if you'd prefer something a little more personal in nature - fuck 'em if they can't take a joke.

Wil,

Just happened by and saw your new post. Glad to see it. As an aspiring writer. I know how it feels to question about your writing. The only real advice I can tell you is to keep writing from your heart. You speak honestly...its something rare these days. I would have missed your postings. I don't always agree with your point of view but I can never say you're just spewing out rhetoric.

I once had a prof. once give me some insightful advice when I was getting torn apart by decisions and life in general. When I replied "I don't F-ing know!"

He said "Jared...Sometimes its good not to know."

It still makes me feel a little better today.

Take care.

How strange. I too have been feeling extremely melancholy and anxious about my life recently. I turned 30 on Monday, and I have to say that turning 30 in LA sucks. Realizing that people who you thought were your friends are saying things for the benefit of everyone else around them, or having friends who make sure that you don’t look as good as them, so that they’ll stand out more – it was so painful. I cried and cried on my birthday, because I felt so isolated. But (and this is where WWDN comes in), I recently discovered your site which is so refreshing. Not only are you witty, you are reminding me of the world at large and to be politically aware – an important duty I am often too chicken to take care of. So while you may be feeling down, you are cheering me up and keeping me grounded. I have absolute faith that your book will be just as amazing. Thank you!
Cynthia

You're doing fine. Melt downs are permitted to everyone, even you!

FYI the cartoon link goes to a photo...

Wil, this is my first time posting here, but I've been reading your site for a long time. I have to say I'm sorry you've been going through such annoying crap recently, but try not to stress about it so much.

And I totally agree with you about Bush and his administration. I spend most of my time totally enraged and blathering incoherantly to anyone who'll listen. And a lot of people who won't. I'm a lot more scared that he's turning this country into a totalitarian police state than I am about terrorism or Saddam Hussein. Reading your rants makes me feel like I'm not just crazy. I should start a website like this one. Haha.

Incidentally, when I was a kid I looked just like you and got called "Wesley" a lot. I don't hold it against you. I'm glad to see you're cool in real life.

Graham

FINALLY! Someone who says EXACTLY what I've been thinking for months!!! I just read today that North Korea may have a missile capable of reaching the continental US, but I'm sure Bush will just want to continue diplomacy with their megalomaniacal leader. Meanwhile, on the other side of the world, another megalomaniacal dictator who has never had the opportunity to directly threaten the US, waits for Bush to bomb him to f**king oblivion.
Why? Well because according to Dubya, "this guy tried to kill my Dad". Is this what the f**king prestige of the Presidency of the most powerful nation on Earth has come to? Being able to bomb the s**t out of Hitler wannabes who threaten our DAD?!? I thought Dubya promised to bring respect and decency back to a scandalized Oval Office, but all he's done so far is shoot his stupid mouth off, and flex his military muscles like a schoolyard bully on steroids!!!
Whew, sorry about the rant. Everyone's been on edge over this whole thing for one reason or another.
Wil, you do what you need to do. My hat is off to you for posting to your site as regularly as you do. Just remember, it is YOUR SITE, and you post to it when you want to, not when somebody else whines at you to.
Obviously, your book has to be your number one priority, and your family a close second (or vice versa). I'll check in every few days to see if you've posted any updates, as I'm sure you're other truly loyal fans will. When the smoke clears, you'll have only the lost the interest of the people that really didn't care about you anyway.

Sending mojo your way, and praying for peace...

*Major Mojo* Wil. Sounds like you've got a lot on your chest right now; try not to add too much to it by beating yourself up. Tall order, I know, and all you can do is try. I'm sending positive wishes to you.

*hugs* We really do love you and your site. Please don't scare us like that again. As for being emotional, feel free to join us in the H&N depression thread. Even if it isn't depression, over-emotionality and crying is welcome there.

Just remember, you have a lot of fans out here!

Book - I know I'm buying one. So um, one sale guarenteed! It's a start?

RFA - Unfortunately, they don't have to be rich to be assholes. Breathing seems to be the biggest quality shared by assholes.

War, Fearing Terror and Partiotism - I got called unpatriotic the other day by someone for daring to say I don't agree with the war. Bush is playing the most dangerous head game there is. He's feeding people fear to get the response he wants. And telling others that whom ever doesn't agree is 'UnAmerican'. And I don't see a solution in the next two years. What's more frightening is the fact there's a strong belief right now that he would be elected for a second term.

If you haven't see it already, see 'Bowling for Columbine'. It starts looking at guns and violence in American and ends up investigating the 'Feeding Fear' mentality of the media in America.

One of the greatest traditions in America is the freedom to not agree with the government. It's the most American thing there is. It was around before apple pie.

You don't have to be rich to be a fucking asshole. I have run into a lot of them.

You should be upset about the war. Its a shame we have to deal with countries and militant groups that would rather kill us than educate and feed their own people.

Don't piss and moan about the terror alerts. Do you actually think they are fear mongers who love to scare us to death? If that were the case some other administration would have gotten the idea to do it long before President Bush. They are simply reacting to the demand of the American people to be better informed.

What if they found the guy in the raft with a bomb or harmful materials? What would you be posting right now? Hindsight is a beautiful thing.

Your critical thinking is more like where is all the Anti Bush thinking. Just because 70% of the nation supports him and his efforts doesn't mean they don't know what they are supporting. 70% is a lot of people wil, a lot of those people know more about geo politics than you and I combined.

Osama supposedly said that his people should support Iraq. To me, that says they are teaming up. I am waiting for confirmation that it is his voice though.

Timing...what can I say about that? From your posts you are naturally pessimistic and untrusting...esp when it comes to this administration.

I don't see the massive public resistance. Also, remember, this is not a democracy its a representative republic. People marching in the streets dont determine when we go to war, thats what our elected leaders are paid a lot of money to do.

The rest of the world????? You mean France, Germany, Russia, and China. Need I say more about this motley crew of nations?

Wil, I don't think you're anti american. Keep up the dissent, if you coulnd't say what you want to say....my entry would be blank as well.

If the gas comes and it seeps into your house and not the old ladys, won't you feel really dumb?

For Gods sake....don't ever post when you are upset. Thoughts can be retooled or forgotten. Words either written or spoken are forever.

-
James

"You are joining us live from Trafalgar Square as the UKs largest street party in history continues in celebration of the unexpected but much hoped for return of Wil Wheaton."

"So far 7 million people have turned out to share the joy and mutual love of a man who has been an undying inspiration to so many for so long."

"As tributes continue to pour in from Her Maj, The Prime Minister and his esteemed holiness Lord EnglishBen and his crazy Mad Dogs, a nation celebrates and continues to wait in growing, but non pressuring, anticipation for a book expected to sell more copies than the bible within it first week."

"And so as you leave us over out nations capital i leave you with the celebratory chants of the loving masses:

"Long live Wil Wheaton! Long live WWDN!"

Aww shiate...

No, your not anti-american for your thinking...your TOTALLY american for it. I think the same way. Bush doesn't need to be in the White House, and I have no f*cking clue why he still is.

*grumble lowly about the current goverment situation*

About the book...don't let anyone push you around your book Wil. It's your's, thus you should write it how YOU want. Sure, they may suggest stuff, but if you don't like how it goes, you don't need to put it in.

We'll love it no matter what! ;)

*lotsa book mojo and lotsa good emotion mojo*

We love ya Wil!

You Rawk Wil--just remeber for every a-hole there are a bunch of people who know you have done some amazing things for us that nobody ever said you had to. WWDN is my home.

Hey, Wil... I am feeling (sort of) like you, buddie. But I want to say to all of you people: DO NOT BE SCARED!!!
This is something the administration should have addressed in the first place. Really! Instead they just keep issuing these stupid terror alerts and frightening us all up.
Like, we're back in the '60s and we have to rehearse the stupid atomic bomb thing.

If we're scared, then they win. Because that is what terrorism means: to cause terror. And we need to understand that if we procrastinate, they're controlling our acts...

DO NOT BE SCARED, because there's simply not a reason to. They're the mad ones, they are the ones who should be. Not us. We caused them no harm (despite what they say).

And instead, the gorv. keeps giving us the other message, fuck them!!!

About your book, your job will have a reward. That for sure...

216.41.46.10

Doubt is the greatest enemy of all. Don't doubt yourself, Wil! Those feets of yours are on more solid ground than you realize! :)

And there's been news on the phantom Zodiac raft. Turns out someone called in and said he was the guy on the raft and was navigating it home to Oakland when he had to answer the call of nature, so he pulled over to the bridge to stay out of the 'traffic lanes' while he relieved himself.

Why is it I'm suddenly seeing a sea-going version of the scene from Carwash with someone running around yealling 'Piss-bottle bomber!'?

146.94.36.161

Thank you for noting the Patriot Act II. WTF, over.
I tell people and the usual response I get is 'what's a patriot act?'. Ugh.

You aren't the only one worried about and disgusted with the warmongering administration. I'm glad I'm not alone.

best of luck

i'm a big casualty of posting when emotional...but i also feel that's when i'm most honest. whether people like it or not, you ARE allowed to express yourself. i don't really feel that just because you're a "public figure" per se that you should feel the need to censor any emotion. if you feel like telling someone to "eff off", then by all means, do it if necessary.

i hope you realize that a small group of negative people will never ever outweigh the large group of positive people who come here and read what you have to say. i know deep down you realize that but i can see where the frustration lies.

step back, take a break, focus on YOU....but just do it for thr right reasons. i know that *i* am always amazed by your words and the way you capture life. i hope that will continue.

:)

I know what you mean about Posting While Emotional (PWE).

I have had a journal at Open Diary for several years now, and have PWE'd several times vowing to leave and never come back.

Once I cooled off, I realized what a ditz I was being and apologized to the point of deleting the pissy entry that I posted out of embarrassment.

Hang in there dude, and good luck on the book thing.

I am so sorry that so much crap is going on. Stay strong man! If people like the book... great. If they don't so what they don't have any taste. From the excerpts you released I love your work. In all seriousness, You're a good guy. Stay strong. Don't be afraid to share whatever is on your mind. It is important to get things off your chest. If anyone else has a problem with your honesty or irritation with the way things are going....or they can't understand they everyone needs to vent every once and a whole... Fuck them. Much love man..latter

Wil,

It is a scary feeling reading new news updates about terror threats. Even second hand news, like the co-wrker saying, "hey, did you hear that they have a new weapon that will..." . All this will do is scare us and stress us out. If we freak out , they win. If we get all stressed out and snap at people, they win.
I just look at these crazy people in the same light as the play-ground bully, or the Blog Trolls or Rich Fucking Assholes TM. They have to terrorize and put others down on order to make themselves feel better. It is sad and sick.

I

will

not

let

them

win.

Neither should you.

Now about your book, I will be happy even if is just a big copy and paste from your site. I can't wait.

to answer your question, it is not unamerican to see your country as it truly is and what to make it better, even if that includes pointing out the faults that it has. how can you fix a failing foundation if you won't admit that there are cracks.

as for bush/war/obl-saddam everyday i wonder if the rest of america is buying this thing hook line and sinker, and everyday i believe just a little bit more that they are. i mean really, bush is taking a speech where obl states his solidarity with iraq(a muslim country that the us is about to attack) to prove his long term association/support of saddam. that would be like if i said i would defend a racists right to free speech, and then i could be considered a racist.

don't give in to the asstrolls, but feel free to take all the time off you need in order to have fun with wwdn again. we'll still be here when you come back.

216.41.46.10

one more thing, but this is to Rob:

duct tape fixes everything!

Good, Wil! LET US talk about the ridiculous terror alerts (including CNN emblazoning their video screen with a badge screaming ORANG ALERT). LET US talk about how we are seemingly ignoring Korea while pursuing a war in Iraq. LET US talk about how how the media has become little more than stenographers for the latest bullshit terror alert, and propaganda. Let us talk about how we are totally ignoring Osama Bin Laden and Al Queda, yet we seem willing to invoke them and point to mythical evidence that he's buddies with Saddam. Let's talk about how the entire Bush administration pronounces Saddam as if it were "Sodom"-- is this to invoke "Christians" into making the connection with the ancient city of evil? And speaking of "Christians," I've been hearing more of them talking about they support a war in Iraq because it's part of "God's Plan" for Israel and the second coming of Jesus Christ.

Let's also talk about how these terror alerts always seem to be conveniently timed for the Bushies. They have them just before elections. This one comes as they are trying to market and sell a war to the US.

And definitely, let's talk about the Patriot Act II which would allow secret arrests, and the stripping of American Citizens of their citizenship and the forceable deportation of the same. Let's talk about how congress, after granting the Justice Dept. unprecedented powers has been evaded by John Ashcroft when asked how those powers have been used.

This is your website. You can spend time talking about people who said mean things about you and those who you love, or you can spend it talking about things that matter to you.

This is actually only the second time that I have ever commented. Mainly because I know that you receive so many from people that you have no idea who they are. I was already a Star Trek fan, thanks to my Dad. So when Next Gen came out I was thrilled, I stayed up late to catch the first episode. I was thrilled that you were on the show, "out in space" was someone my own age, dealing with the same geeky issues I was dealing with everyday. I loved that. I became a fan then, and was so sad when you left the show. I must admit that you drifted out of my mind till I had a friend mentioned that you had this weblog, I had the same reaction all over again, except this time you got a fan for “being you”, rather than "living in space." You've continued and succeeded and just haven't stopped, even though it's been hard. That is respectable in any person, and even more so for someone that has had to deal with the pressures of living in the public eye. The real point that I wanted to make is that you have my respect,. Don't let anything stop you, or your faith in yourself and abilities. It's understandable that it will effect you, just please don't let it stop you.

Hey Wil

I jusr deleted this whole big ramble as I tend to waffle on... I just want to say that I thought you were a great actor (even if Wesley was a wet blanket and look perpetually worried...oooh the angst! and its so long that since I saw Stand by me that I cannot remember much) and since I started reading your weblog I really respect your skill at standing out and writing excellent intelligent and witty comments.

I really look forward to reading your book and also buying my sister a copy as she had a massive crush on you during TNG years (no pun intended)

Keep up the great writing...screw the people who don't like what you do and just write for yourself..as thats what the people who visit here come for.

Oh and by the way...I heard about this website on British TV...

Damnit I have to say this.... I am a stinky European...a Brit... and I truly wonder if the American people know what is thought about them worldwide...they are not thanked for their efforts in sending out food and medical supplies to third world countries...no they are regarded everywhere as arrogant and the bully boys of the playground...Americans are even very disliked in their Allied countries such as Britain. I myself date an American and plan on moving to Charleston S.C very soon... because of this link with America my work colleagues and certain aquaintances call me the worst things and argue with me over what America is doing...

It worries me that the Americans will only make themselves even more unpopular with this war... and its not even their views that are being represented... Vice president *cough* prime minister Tony Blair is in danger of losing his position because of parlimentary backbenchers in revolt as well as the general population calling for at least a 2nd UN resolution before we consider risking our troops lives...

I am with you on this one... I am worried...not enough to go out and buy supplies or anything because quite frankly what will be will be... and living in the largest naval dock city in the UK I am sure I am screwed once they bomb the rusting nuclear subs not two miles from here...

come to think of it...why the hell am I still living here...

damnit I rambled...

Suzanne

February sucks--it's just a freakin' fact. Anyhow, sending mojo in your direction, and best wishes and all that... Here's hoping the people with good wishes outnumber the jerks by at least 10 to 1 around here--so far in this thread, it seems like that's so...

Hang in there, Wil. :-) "That which does not kill me makes me stronger."

I'm right there with you... this war isn't about terrorism, it's about popularity contests, trying to live up to daddy, and about global-scale pissing contests. It's turning into a "who's afraid of the big bad wolf" situation... because we have all the power and now we're waving it around and saying "better watch out, or we'll squash you?"

THAT is unamerican. Wanting to get past the propaganda and finding the truth is not.

Will,
Do post when you are emotional. That is the beauty of the immediacy of the format. This is Will Wheaton, warts and all. I like it. It humanizes.
Take care.
E

Good to see another update from you Wil.

It's only natural to be worried about your book. All I can say is that if the quality of writing matches what I have seen in your blog so far, it will be a very enjoyable read. I'm looking forward to it.

First of all, your Mom's right. It is ok to be scared about publishing your book. I can't really imagine not being scared were I in your place. It takes guts to put it out there, and know that people may love it, or they may hate it. You've got the guts for that.

Secondly, fuck the Rich Fucking Assholes. Waste of perfectly good carbon.

Thirdly, I'm scared about the country I live in, too. Doesn't bear much resemblance to what I was taught in Civics class, that's for damn sure. I personally think it's damned unamerican NOT to be questioning it. I'm marching in New York this weekend for exactly that reason.

Hey Wil,

I'm glad you haven't shut down the site; I don't check in every day and I rarely have time to go through all of the comments, so I was surprised to see these latest two posts. Even on my own, very humble and modestly-trafficked blog I occasionally get trolls and nasty comments. Mostly from warmongering Republican lemmings (although if they were simply political disagreements, I'd be happy to host a debate; it's when they get virulent that they go over the line). When that happens, I just think that giving them any kind of response merely encourages them to continue in their flaming, so I remove their posts and ignore them as best I can. Naturally, with your higher profile, I'm sure you must get a zillion more of these notes than I do, but I bet that proportionately they're not that much more frequent. Most of your readers here come back because we relate to what you write and want to read more; we're good people.

As for your book troubles, I encourage you to simply go with your own voice. When you talk of rewriting to please other folks, that sets off a "red alert" klaxon. We, your audience, do not want to read what other folks think in your book, we want to read Wil Wheaton in Wil Wheaton's book. (“I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.” -- Bill Cosby)

Hang tough, my good man. You have more riches in your life (Anne, kids, mucho talent, a posse, brains and sensitivity) than those Rich Fucking Assholes can ever dream of.

I'm as "unamerican" as you are, and damnit, we need more of us.

The author is always his own harshest critic...don't drive yourself insane. I'm sure it's a wonderful book if it's half as good as your posts here - you know how to tell a story.

The scary thing is, I've seen polls showing massive support for what this man is doing to OUR COUNTRY. Grrr.. I don't know if I should post wne I'm emotional either.

Wil,

Your mom is right about uncharted territory. But, now that you're in it -- learn from the experience and do the book the way you want it to be. Of course pay attention to the constructive criticism that you think will HELP the book BE what you want it to be. That may be hard to see -- but if a gut check on a given piece of criticism doesn't feel right, then don't go with it.

This is normal, Wil -- writers face this. It's when you get criticised six ways from Sunday that the heebie-jeebies set in.

You'll get there and it'll be fine. And once it IS published, take the critical reviews with a grain of salt. Okay? Promise me?

All right, then.

Oh, and about RFAs: people like that are their own worst punishment. Wouldn't you hate to be them? When they're old and gray and THEIR kids can't stand THEM, Nolan and Ryan will still be lovin' you and Anne. You've got THAT part of your life very, very right!

Wil...

The modern writers of our time have thrown up thier hands in despair and said,"There is no answer to man's dilemma."

Hemingway said once "I live in a vaccum that is as lonely as a radio tube when the batteries are dead,and there is no current to plug into."

Eugene O'Neill in "Long Day's Journey Into Night" reflects the typical,philosophical attitude of our day.He says,"Life's only meaning is death."

Both these men have gone on.There IS more to life than death or radio tubes that need to be pluged in.I am a Born Again Christian and do not always feel comfortable here, but I do enjoy reading your post and cheering for[you] the underdog to win.Jesus taught us the dignity and importance of being a person.Love God,and Love your neighbour as yourself[even if they dont love you].Love never fails,Love conquers ALL.Wil,when you allow others [rich F/A or Troll's]to make you become angry,hateful or resentful,you fail.You wil be the one who suffers for it not them.Bless and curse not.You have already experienced this when you dealt politely with the lady screaming at you for being late,"She hadn't prepared for me to be genuinely contrite.So she just said,"Well,then I guess we're done."A soft answer turns away wrath".Im not trying to preach here,Im just trying to say "Dont allow negative people to corrupt your good nature"

I have more to say but I cant type to save me life and my grammar stinks.I hope I have given you a little encouragement at the least.

Thanks for speaking out on the silliness of the Bush war plan. Our writing and talking about the alternatives is the beginning of change for the better.

Remember that the Vietnam War protests didn't get started in mass numbers till 67, when the war had been in full swing for two years. This time it hasn't even started and people are demonstrating in the hundreds of thousands. If the trend keeps up, "this aggression won't stand."

Wil, only a few things I can think to say...

I've lived with the RFA's. My folks lived in a similar neighborhood. The neighbors hated my '71 Cutlass Supreme, my loud music, the fact that I didn't play golf. To hell with them. You're Wil, and that's good enough for me.

I posted something just like this on my blog earlier today. As a nation, how far are we from the Howard Hughes, Kleenex boxes on the feet, jars of urine hoarding way of life?

I guess to top it off:

FIGHT THE POWER!

scared=consume
consume=money
money=power
so
scared people keep idiots in power
http://www.adbusters.org

Some people are assholes Wil. Don't let them get you down. I hear you on the war thing. It seems like the whole world's gone to hell these days. I find it best not to worry, you will go crazy if you do. I understand that you have to take some time to yourself, everyone does every now and then just don't stay gone too long you will be missed. Any ideas on the publication date for your book? Take Care.

As a writer myself, I know how hard it can be when you're out there, putting yourself on paper and wondering, "Is it good?"

Finish it. Then let people read and comment. Do it all for you. It seems you're learning that.

And don't forget: national protests all over on the 15th of this month. Go to notinourname.net to find the one nearest you.

peace in our time.

L.

http://www.cafeshops.com/cp/prod.aspx?p=warposter.4247790&zoom=yes#zoom

The way you feel is completly understandable. I might not have too many responsibilities at this point in my life, but I do feel overwhelmed at times, and that frustration usually comes out on the people I talk to... My friends.

Note to self: Apologize to friend.

Not like you need anyone in this life to tell you this, because I know that you already have this ingrained deeply within your rational mind, but assholes are just that: assholes. Rich, poor, brave or cowardly, petty people abound. It's when we acknowledge them that we give them power. I know, it sounds a bit self-improvement-infomercialish, but it does contain at least a grain of truth. It's all in the perspective...or the wrists, one of the two. Regardless, I know how things we would normally scoff at and ignore can puree our innards when we are at low points. Somewhere down the line you might find a way to turn their petty rantings and grade-school antics into comic gold...or platinum. I hear that platinum is like gold, only better.

As for the book, good, bad or indifferent, there are hordes of people waiting to buy it and it isn't even finished yet. Yeah, I know, but let me finish here. It's a life's work, yeah? Something you are doing for YOU, right? Aside from formatting, grammer and spelling, make it the way YOU want it and the rest of us will enjoy reading it. If you enjoy it, they will come. If you don't like what's been happening to YOUR writing, stand firm and make a smaller publishing at first. Dude, you can do this, I swear. Chin up, keyboard out and make this the way YOU want it.

As for war, I dread the fact that there are so many people swayed by Bush and his propaganda machine. It's disheartening to note that the media, once bent on delivering the TRUTH, is now nothing more than a vehicle for Bush's OWN terror campaign. Anyone speaking contrary to the current party line is now dubbed anti-american. I'm just anti-psychocrat. I don't want a leader that will push for violence above reason and investigation.

Kevin

Dude, stop playing with this silly web site and work on the book. Please.

A good friend in Seattle had the life dream of writing and publishing her own book. She finally did it (published) last fall. And she is still having doubts: getting the books into stores, getting in on book readings, reviews. And still she wonders if the book was any good even though complete strangers are writing to say how they enjoyed the book. http://boonedog.com/annabelle.shtml

So, git off yer butt (pretty please) and write what you want to write in that book. Not what you think I want to read. I'll read it anyway, because it's the window through which I will see the real you. Where there's a Wil, there's a way, eh?

Hey, are you gonna be at OSCON in Portland this July? If so, we need to get you in touch with Nat (you being a celebrity and all) so he can make proper arrangments.

The first post nailed it - but I will elaborate-

Just like "Just Jack" from Will and Grace:

LOOOOVE HIIM!

Re: Wil.

Keep the faith. You are not alone. And the real pisser is that you are right.

Even though you said you were going to take a break from the log, I was doing my daily check of your site out of habit and here you are. I'm sorry things in your life have seemed overwhelming lately. I ususally don't see the bad stuff here in the comments section, you do a good job in getting rid of the junk, but every now and then I see the absolute garbage some folks write. I thank you for all your efforts.

The news has been giving me a level of unfocussed anxiety lately. I know it's irresponsible, but sometimes I've been turning the channel when the news starts its Iraq segments (complete with its own theme music). I figure if it's bad enough, it will be breaking news and not in the update segment.

You've done a very brave thing in writing your book. It's not a work of fiction. It's a book about Wil. That's a very scary thing. Your mom is right, it's ok to be afraid. You are showing us your soul and are wondering if we will approve. Don't wonder. What's important is if you approve.

And these "Terror alerts?" Does anyone believe them?

Yeah, but only because I'm mighty pissed off that I clash with today's alert status. Whoever thought that orange was appropriate for an alert color was seriously disturbed. I would suggest a nice mauve, or perhaps a lilac...

--QAJ

Good mojo coming to you and your family from my mojo bag! :) And always remember: Opinions are like assholes... everyone has at least one. Some stood in the Asshole line too many times. You can't please everybody, so don't kill yourself trying. Self-destruction is not worth it. Go with your instincts and everything will be fine. Hang in there!!!

It's good to see your back! I don't post often but I do read.

First of all, I have to say write the book for *you* not for anyone else. As long as you are happy with it screw everybody else. These days the book reviews and sales are more about marketing than content anyway.

As for the war, I can't agree with you more. Today I had someone tell me "I heard that Korea has at least one missle that can reach the west coast of the US". OMG! Where do they get these things?

It's bad enough that The Shrub is more interested in finishing up what daddy couldn't and the middle east oil than he is in the problems and issues right here in the US. The last thing we need is the media and his rhetoric panicing little old ladies and having them run down to the local OSH to buy out all the plastic and duct tape (which is apparently out of stock at most of the OSH stores up here in the SF Bay Area).

Anyway, stick with it Wil, we're all in it together and we're going to support you in whatever you do.

Wil,

I identify. I'm currently in the middle of writing my doctoral dissertation. When I say the middle, I mean towards the end, and when I say currently, I mean I haven't written a word since January 21st. I'm paralyzed by doubt about what I've done so far. I kind of want to abandon it and go be a programmer again (you have no idea how I've idealized my former job!) But my broad overarching feeling is being totally overwhelmed. (Am I smart enough to do this? How can I possibly get this done?)

Regarding the geopolitical "situation": again, I identify. I share the same opinions as you regarding Bush, the war and the American media. I feel this sense of helpless panic and nagging uncertainty. And a whole lotta anger, although surprisingly little directed towards Saddam and absolutely zero to Iraqis in general. I allocate mostly to Bush and to the media's unevenhandedness.

Anyway, I find it reassuring to read your posts and to recognize that there's someone who thinks the way I do and feels the way I do. Perhaps that might also be reassuring to you.

Cynthia

Wil, I bet your book is really good! I can't wait for it! I am glad that you are still going to post because this is one thing that I look forward to every day. I love reading anything and everything you have to say. And you are so right about this whole war thing. I am scared about war and all the terrist attacks. I pray that we won't go to war but it seems there is no stopping Bush. I think our world is falling apart. Another reason why I love reading everything you write is because you are always right! Take care.

Wil--

I've never posted here before, although I've been reading WWDN for awhile now. I can relate to what you're saying about your writing, and I echo what others have said--sometimes constructive criticism can be difficult to deal with but then lead to better writing. Sometimes criticism is more destructive, even if that's not what's intended. Take in what people have said, as mindfully as you can, and then follow your heart.

As far as the situation in this country goes, I don't know what to say beyond sharing the Second of the Five Mindfulness Trainings of Thich Nhat Hanh's Order of Innerbeing with you:

Aware of the suffering caused by exploitation, social injustice, stealing, and oppression, I am committed to cultivating loving kindness and learning ways to work for the well-being of people, animals, plants, and minerals. I am committed to practicing generosity by sharing my time, energy, and material resources with those who are in real need. I am determined not to steal and not to possess anything that should belong to others. I will respect the property of others, but I will prevent others from profiting from human suffering or the suffering of other species on Earth.

It seems to me that you are doing your best to be mindful and do what you can. You are definitely aware of the suffering so prevalent in our world, and you're doing what you can to prevent more of it. You're a good person.

Wil,

As to your doubts about the book, all I can say is "welcome ro the world of being a writer." You should read some of my own recent rants about similar issues. I also think that we're all feeling highly stressed because of the current war, and it's making us all a little nuts.

Just remember that it's those who waste time spewing crap who are the truly pitiful ones. Don't let them get to you.

I grew up as a cold war kid. My father was career Army and he taught me a healthy cynicism when thinking about our government.

Personally, I think the Bush agenda is to stall and build up terror here and go to fight right before elections. Make him look like a hero and also make a case for continuity. I lived in Texas under the Bush admin. Let's just say I certainly did not help not vote him into office.

As for writing, when you are dealing with your first few projects being published, it is very hard to deal with. It get's easier. Hang in there.

Trolls and other pernicious vermin, not worth my time.

Wil,

Relax.

Enjoy Life.

The book is yours. Write for yourself.

A quote from one of my favorite non-Wil Wheaton movies...

Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it.

Enjoy STORMWATCH on Channel 2!

Be seeing you...

I have seen quite a few anti-war protests around here...but I am in the LA burbs. If the underground garage in my apartment building is any indication (it's about a foot deep down there), you might want to look into plastic sheeting and duct tape, too. To keep out the rain, that is.

You know, some days it just gets to be too god damn much and you explode.....pretty human to me..

Continue with your vision for your book and screw what others say...

I checked out your killog....man, you have been overstressed!!!!!

I live in Santa Cruz and didn't hear a thing about the problem in San Francisco and we have "if it bleeds it leads" journalism here as well.

What is fucked up is that it is clear to many of us that Bush is obsessed with muscling Sadaam no matter what anyone says (even Gen. Swartzkoff thinks its stupid). He'll destroy people, jeopoardize relations with allies, fuck the economy up, no matter what, to get "somebody". The whole country gets to help Bush SAVE FACE for his Daddy.

The hypocrisy is shown by the complete disregard for the whacko in North Korea who has a least one nuke and an untested ICBM that can make it to the West Coast. Why aren't we a little more serious about him? Bush doesn't understand what a powder keg Asia is becoming because of his Iraqi obsession.

The sad thing for me is the woman buying the plastic and duct tape. It reminds me of the duck and cover drills I did during the early 60's. When a nuke goes off, we're supposed to duck and cover to save ourselves. So, I guess if there is a major biological attack, the plastic is supposed to save us (and we'll all die quietly suffocating in our homes)..

What really bothers me about this whole "war" business is that people are turning out in record numbers to protest. More protestors than during the Vietnam era! However, the government, who supposedly represents the people, isn't taking notice and putting the brakes on the war machine. What ever happened to "government for the people"? Is anyone in Congress listening? And, why should they? Who will hold them accountable?

I have to admit that I'm scared to death of a terrorist attack. (I live in NJ near NY and was treated to the horrendous smell coming from the wreckage on 9/11 when the wind shifted.) I actually have had nightmares about a terrorist attack for th last few nights and am thinking of buying duct tape, plastic sheets and water. Paranoid? Probably. I just can't seem to help it. :-(

Sorry about the fucking assholes. I hate being treated badly as if I'm not a real person with real feelings too. I swear, sometimes I can just hate people. Luckily the feelings go away and I just hate the fucking assholes who treated me badly only. :-)

One of these F.A. in my life is not rich, but a co-worker. I'm a teacher, she's a teacher and she's a miserable human being! Wil, we need a way to mentally combat this. Maybe we'll figure it out one day. If the dirty bombs don't kill us all first. ;-)

Jared's not dead either.

Wil,

Your mom's right.
It *is* ok to be afraid.
But feelings are not always facts. All those doubts and fears? Don't let them define you or your actions.

Do *NOT* rewrite your book to make others happy. Don't do that to yourself or to your work.

Criticism is good.
Feedback is wonderful.
Take it, weigh it, consider it - but don't lose sight that this is YOUR book, YOUR vision of it is what matters the most.

Everyone has an opinion. (Heh - witness the blogtrolls.)
Not every opinion is worth keeping. (Again - witness the blogtrolls.)

I'm sorry you're seeing the sucky side of people of late - but there's a *lot* of light out there, too. Try not to lose sight of that. Ok?

And yes - yes YES - questioning this war is American; and YES, people are speaking up; and YES, it matters. It does. It has to.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
It matters.

Best to you and yours. *hug*

Oh, and if your book is anything like your personal posts in this blog, it will be a wonderful read. I think you might one day laugh at the worries you had. :-)

Dear Wil: Hi, it's the recovering trekker here again, posting comments, which is something I honestly don't do very often. I don't have the luxury of time to say much here, but I would like to challenge all the readers to ask themselves if it's possible to see the so-called "destructive trolls" in a different light. Back in ancient times prior to the written word, I imagine that the average human didn't bother with much communication; if we didn't like somebody, we clubbed 'em. I like to think that perhaps the time someone spends on posting disagreeable comments and the like is time that the same individual didn't spend on more destructive acts -- like going out to purchase a gun and shooting people? I'll try to get into more depth on this if/when I have time...in the meantime, looks like you've got some support out there...eh? Bye for now

Dubya is a Rich Asshole.

Your book will rock. It's not even debatable.

Live on, man, live on.

We're ALL going down hard, human peoples.

But I got an Xbox. And it will suck my dick.

See you there!

Hi Wil, not to bring you down, but...

When I woke up this morning and briefly caught the mention of the need to make disater preparedness kits, and how we should have duct tape and tarps or plastic sheeting in them, it tickled a memory at the back of my mind.

Plastic sheeting and duct tape will not keep you safe from chemical or biological attack. For that you need chemical warfare gear, fresh filters, atrapine to counteract nerve gas, and enough warning to put it all on. You also