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Just after 9 Wednesday morning, we said goodbye to Felix The Bear. He left us peacefully and quietly, surrounded by his staff who love him.

It's been a really sad and difficult few days for me and my family. I keep looking for The Bear in the usual places (not because I think he's still alive, but out of habit) and when he's not there, the tears come. I discovered yesterday that I have this totally illogical construct in my mind where I somehow hoped that we could trade the sick, sad, dying Felix for the healthy, tough, stumpy little Bear we used to know . . . but he's never coming back, and he really is gone. This reality keeps hitting me with varying severity and no warning. I'm kind of a wreck right now. I really, really miss him.

I've got some Onion, Dungeon and ACME work to do and I'm not feeling particularly creative or inspired right now . . . so I need to put what little energy I have into fulfilling those commitments. I don't think I'll be posting here much for the next few days.

Comments

Made me cry again... much love to you guys. We'll never forget The Bear.

Wil and Family,
I know you are devastated but always remember that you gave Felix the best life a cat can have. You'll never forget him and you'll always love him. I send my most heartfelt sympathy.

Hang in there, Wil (and family). The pain and loss will never completely go away, but over time you'll remember mostly the good stuff, and it will become manageable.

And keep plugging away at those articles and such. Work can sometimes be a good distraction in times like this.

I find this sadder than any human death. I can't imagine what it'd be like when my little baby dies. My heart and tears are with you. I know it's of little consolation, but he'll live always in your hearts and souls.

Peace

Wil,

Sometimes work is the best distraction.

I'm very sorry for the loss of your Bear.

I'm so sorry, Wil. Those hollow words aren't nearly enough...mainly because there ARE no words enough right now. But please know my family and I are mourning with you all today.

Rest in Peace, Felix.

Don't be too sad, Wil. Felix is calm and at peace. You have all those great memories. Hell, you wouldn't be sad if he hadn't been such a great companion. You know as well as anyone that when you were sad, he'd come to be there comforting you, just as I'm sure his spirit is there with you now. He doesn't want you to cry. Just remember him with love forever and you'll honor the friend you family had the pleasure of being the employees of. (grin)

I know this probably does not help but you did the only thing you could do...and it happened to be the right thing too. I'm so sorry Wil. That was a tough one.

Wil, I'm really sorry to hear the news about Felix. I know you and your wife did all you could to keep him well. He left grateful for that, I'm sure.

Luis

Wil, the saga of Felix has reminded me so much of my little Herbert. We found him on the streets, took him in, shaved off his dreads and got him used to home life. He was old when we got him, and only lived six months before he got kidney failure and we had to put him to sleep. He was our crank crochety old man, and we loved him. My heart goes out to you, Anne and the kids in your loss.

Wil, please accept my heartfelt condolences, for you and your family. Find strength in each other and comfort in your fond memories of the time you had with Felix.

We will be here when you are ready to blog again, and we are all sending you positive energy while you are taking care of your other responsibilities.

Peace to you and yours.

Sorry to hear about you cat. Hug the others.

Madie

My most heartfelt sympathy to you and your family.

=^..^=

Wil, I'm not a religious guy, but when I've had to let a pet go I've always found a level of peace in the belief that wherever the everafter might be, they're there and free from all the pain and suffering that brought them down — but never the love. The love they get to keep so I hope Felix had a big suitcase to hold it all.

Bless you and your family, Wil.

Wil I am so sorry for your loss. Just know that we all love and care for you so take your time. Concentrate on the family and your other work, we will be here when you get back.

Dear Wil and Family,

Wil, take some time off blogging and get your mind at eas. I know it hurts. If it is any comfort, i am hurting with you (as a cat owner) and cryed as most of all us here.
Only thing i can and wil do is pray for you. I know The Bear is in good hands. I have a good friend in louisiana called Freeman. I know he is joining me in prayers even though you are not a religious person.
Wil, you have some share off friends here.
Here is one from the other side off the Atlantic (The Netherlands)
Be good my friend.....

They -do- leave a hole when they leave. Grieve now, it will make the joy of a new kitten that much greater. The Light only balances the Dark. Let it be dark, dawn will come.

Dear Wil, Anne, Nolan and Ryan,

Please accept my sympathies. Having lost several beloved pets over the years, to accidents and disease, I know what you're going through and my thoughts are with you.

We'll be here for you when you come back. Take care.

Wil, I'm so sorry for your loss. Hug each member of your family and let their warmth comfort you. Look into their eyes and let their love energize you. Please take care of yourself.

Wil....

I can remember reading somewhere that Heaven has a special place for our beloved animals when they are ready to go home. Felix passed from this life, knowing that you and Anne loved him and stayed with him until it was time for him to leave. By now, he has found his own safe place and keeping his eye on you. I can't begin to tell you how my heart hurts for you and your family, especially Anne. As someone who had to take my kitty, Smokey, to be put to sleep the day after Christmas 1994, I can tell you that there will come a day when you will think of something funny or particularly cute Felix did, and you'll find yourself smiling or even laughing at the memory. Give yourself time...you watch...you wait...you'll see.

Wendy and Jean-Luc =^..^=

Wil....

I can remember reading somewhere that Heaven has a special place for our beloved animals when they are ready to go home. Felix passed from this life, knowing that you and Anne loved him and stayed with him until it was time for him to leave. By now, he has found his own safe place and keeping his eye on you. I can't begin to tell you how my heart hurts for you and your family, especially Anne. As someone who had to take my kitty, Smokey, to be put to sleep the day after Christmas 1994, I can tell you that there will come a day when you will think of something funny or particularly cute Felix did, and you'll find yourself smiling or even laughing at the memory. Give yourself time...you watch...you wait...you'll see.

Wendy and Jean-Luc =^..^=

Wil....

I can remember reading somewhere that Heaven has a special place for our beloved animals when they are ready to go home. Felix passed from this life, knowing that you and Anne loved him and stayed with him until it was time for him to leave. By now, he has found his own safe place and keeping his eye on you. I can't begin to tell you how my heart hurts for you and your family, especially Anne. As someone who had to take my kitty, Smokey, to be put to sleep the day after Christmas 1994, I can tell you that there will come a day when you will think of something funny or particularly cute Felix did, and you'll find yourself smiling or even laughing at the memory. Give yourself time...you watch...you wait...you'll see.

Wendy and Jean-Luc =^..^=

*offers you a non-obtrusive hug*

*offers you a non-obtrusive hug*

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Sorry for your loss, I've been there, the loss of a loved pet can be as hideous as the loss of a human. Hang in there.

I'm sorry for your loss. Iknow how hard it is to lose a pet, it's more like losing a member of the family.

I've been thinking about you and your family. I know how hard it is to have to go through that. After my Algernon was put to sleep, I did the same thing you are... Just looking around, expecting him to be at the foot of my bed, or sleeping by the back door. Its hard when you realize he won't be there anymore. I know its a cliche, and I'm sure you've heard it a million times, but at least Felix isn't suffering now. He loves you for everything you did to try and make him better, and finally for setting him free (Woo... there's that lump in my throat). Keep your chin up. Take all the time you need. We'll be here when you get back. *huge hugs*

*hugs and tears for you and you family*

*hugs and tears for you and your family*

We've got a kitty of our own who's advancing in age, but thankfully, he's still quite well. Obviously, our thoughts are with you, Wil, during your time of grieving.

Wil, I kept missing my parents' dog for months after he passed away. I sometimes even have dreams where I'm taking him hiking back when he was in his prime and able to run circles around me. So I can imagine how hard it is for you right now. I just try and remember that he's not suffering or in pain anymore, and to keep my mind on the good times we had. That doesn't make it easy, but it helps a little.

I'm so sorry Wil. It's so difficult. I did the same thing as you with Sunny. Even a month later, I keep expecting to see him and I'm almost suprised when he's not there. It's hard to not see him racing around the house - and sleeping without him purring in my ear has been difficult too. There's nothing anyone can say to make it better really, but time will help ease the pain a little bit. At least Felix isn't hurting now - and I have to believe that there's a place in the afterlife for our beloved pets. You guys really went above and beyond to keep him healthy and with a good quality of life for as long as you could. And that's more than a lot people bother to do for their pets.

Unfortunatly grief is a lot like surfing. It comes in waves and you just have to ride each one out. It does get easier. Take all the time away from us you need. We will still be here when you come back.

My thoughts are with your beloved Bear, Wil. I went through very much the same thing with one of our cats, Havoc, she being the brother to Chaos (significant if you know George R.R. Martin's Tough Voyaging). She was around 12 years old by that time, and had become only a shadow of what she once was. But the look in her eyes said it all to me too. It's been easier since her brother lives on - he's healthy as a horse - and my wife brought her cat, Ned into our home less than a year after Havoc's passing. Ned is like a brother to Chaos, so that helps him out as well. Time heals all - hang in there!

I'm sorry Wil. Hugs to you all.

Our IG Tazi died last June. I still half-expect to see him some of the time. Back then, those moments were sad and tear-inducing. Now it is a gift to feel him where he isn't, knowing that his spirit still visits. My thoughts are with you all.

Sorry, man.

We know exactly how you feel, Wil....and we're so very sorry for your loss.

Our Precious Boots McGee passed just last Monday of the exact same ailment...liver & kidney failure.
I cry every time I get up in the middle of the night to go pee....'cause my little "Escort Buddy" is not there to see me back to bed...snuggle me with his soft gray head on my pillow and kiss/lick my lips goodnight!!
I feel like I'll never get over his loss....he was a very special cat....he me gave a "high five" paw every time I asked him to....he waved hello & goodbye, gave out kisses if he felt like it, and often took showers with my husband!
He was my best friend.
We hope you and your family will be able to cope with the tremendous loss of your friend.

Christy & Joe Mathers
Phoenix, AZ

Wil and family,

So sorry about Felix. You're in our thoughts. Take the time you need to recover; we'll be here when you get back.

~chris and the Radcliff family

Wil and family,

I understand your pain. Just mourn the loss in whatever way seems right for you. It takes as much time as it takes...no set "appropriate" limit or way to grieve. Your tribute to Felix inspired me to write one for my furry little ones in my mini-blog. Thanks for that. I am indebted.

Wil, you're not obligated to tell us WHY you're not posting. Just do what you need to do for you, because after all, this whole site is about YOU and for YOU.

So go be you.

Wil,
I'm sorry for your loss. You'll be in our thoughts... We are all here for you.

Wil and Family,

I am so sorry for your loss. But take comfort in knowing that "time heals all wounds" and that Felix will always be a part of you.

Will i know what it is like. However if i could suggest a pet to somewhat fill the gaps left by the loss, a ferrett. And know not all of them stink, i have one named Loki and i truely wouldnt be as happy as i am today with out him adding to my life. There are many misconceptions about ferretts no not all them bite. Like any animal they will mimic there masters and grow from there, if they are caged up all the time shown no love and only taken out as a means to entertain guest. Then sure they will be mean bastards, however if you set down the rules on what they can and cant do early with out constant changing of the mind (so not to confuse them). they are great pets. Basically a mixture between a cat and a dog. Loki really doesnt mind any other animal as long as they stay away from his food and water dish. They love venturing outside and unlike most ferrets that steal shiny stuff, mine has a nack for plastic (ie plastic bags of all shapes and sizes and any backpack.)We constantly play tag, i will buck up to him and he will hop back then run under something leaving only his head (and sometimes his tail, so intise you only to snag you when you try to grab it.) then i will run off and he will catch me and then run off. He was raised around cats so he acts like one sometimes. And if they are descented they do not stink, they will if you dont bath them regularly, but isnt that how dogs are too. well hope you can fill they void, even if you dont get another animal.

Will i know what it is like. However if i could suggest a pet to somewhat fill the gaps left by the loss, a ferrett. And know not all of them stink, i have one named Loki and i truely wouldnt be as happy as i am today with out him adding to my life. There are many misconceptions about ferretts no not all them bite. Like any animal they will mimic there masters and grow from there, if they are caged up all the time shown no love and only taken out as a means to entertain guest. Then sure they will be mean bastards, however if you set down the rules on what they can and cant do early with out constant changing of the mind (so not to confuse them). they are great pets. Basically a mixture between a cat and a dog. Loki really doesnt mind any other animal as long as they stay away from his food and water dish. They love venturing outside and unlike most ferrets that steal shiny stuff, mine has a nack for plastic (ie plastic bags of all shapes and sizes and any backpack.)We constantly play tag, i will buck up to him and he will hop back then run under something leaving only his head (and sometimes his tail, so intise you only to snag you when you try to grab it.) then i will run off and he will catch me and then run off. He was raised around cats so he acts like one sometimes. And if they are descented they do not stink, they will if you dont bath them regularly, but isnt that how dogs are too. well hope you can fill they void, even if you dont get another animal.

sorry the pcu was having problems

My deapest sympathy to you and yours.

I'm sending positive mojo your way.

Take as much time as you need - you know we'll all be here when you get back! =)

When I was six and my sister one, our family got a dog. A lovely, friendly, playful golden retriever named Tanja.

When you see her as a puppy you never really think about her having to leave some day far too soon. It is as they say, parents should never have to bury their children, and Tanja was a daughter and a sister to me.

All the way through ground school (classes K through 9 here in Denmark) and part of high school (classes 10 through 13) she was there every day when I returned from school, happy to see me, ready to play or, on the days when I was sad or tired, content to be a pillow on which I rested my head.

When she had lived her allotted ten or eleven years, she got cancer in the digestive system and even though an operation helped somewhat, in the end it became clear that this was the end. We never really talked about it, but after she had been standing in her basket for several days, clearly in pain, gasping for air, my father and I took her on that final drive to the vet, hoping for a miracle, knowing that miracle was unlikely to come.

And thus, Tanja ended her life on a steel table, surrounded by her formal master and the boy who loved her and managed to get through the pains of a geek's ground school education with her by his side.

About 16 years have passed - I do no longer remember the exact dates - and I never cried for my loss. I guess I managed to put it away in the "That's just how things go"-box deep inside me. But your loss and your honest description of your sorrow in losing a loved pet, inspired me to write the above. The box opened, and the tears just won't stop coming.

They are sad tears, mourning the loss of my first true love, but they are also happy tears, remembering all the happy, sad, beautiful and ugly things I lived throught with her by my side.

Thank you, Wil, for sharing your life and thus enabling me to deal with things I thought dealt with long ago.

My deep condolences to you and your family in this hard time.

Wil,

I am sorry for your loss, it is hell losing a family member. When we get a pet, I do not think we really realize how much of an impact, or how attached we become to them. Next to children, they are one of gods finest creations! You and your family will be in my heartfelt thoughts. Rest a while Wil, gather your strength, and start anew. We are a very patient posse. Much love to you and yous Wil.


Artemis

P.S.

You Wil, are like The Bear, you have made such an impact on us, that we are loyal, loving, and attached to you. You give us saddness, and joy, and stories from the heart, for that I thank you. You are the readers BEAR! Thank you Wil!

Bear,


From this life to the next, may your soul be at rest. We love, and miss you big guy!


Artemis

For some reason I thought the phrase "Surrounded by his staff" was hilarous. I laughed.

Trade-in? Reminds me a fantastic Orson Scott Card short story called "Fat Farm" from Maps in the Mirror, a collection of his short stories. By far one of my favorite short stories ever (my favorite: Beggars in Spain, google it). I think you'd really like it.

I'm so very sorry for your loss, Wil. Felix was lucky to have such a wonderful staff during his time here on Earth. I'll be thinking of you and your family.

Hi Wil,
I'm so sorry about your Bear. His tail was so cute! I had a very fat Himalayan kitty with a bobtail-like deformity. Chowzer would flick her little puffy tail almost constantly. It was crazy cute. I bet they'll be friends in the kitty afterlife!
Azure

Wil,

You should take all the time you need to process your grief. It takes time to get past the hurt and loss. Your story of Felix has made me think of my only lost soul, Julien. Now when I look back, there's less sadness of his loss and more smiles at the joy he brought me. It does get better but we never forget. I hope the sadness lessens with the passing days. I will be thinking of you and your family.

Sandra

I am sorry, Wil, for what you have been through with Felix. When I lost Athena I felt much the same as you do now.

I can tell you, though, that it does get a little easier as time goes by, and that in a way, you do end up exchanging the old, frail image of your companion for the younger, more vibrant cat you once knew. I lost an older cat many years ago, and though it tore me up at the time, I now look back on all the memories of her, and she is forever young, and happy.

I fully believe we will end up with all those we loved while we lived here. Logic tells you otherwise, but in your heart you know it to be true. You will see your Bear again, and he will be healthy and alive again. I am sure of it.

VoxyLady, this is probably what you read, from http://rainbowsbridge.com/ :

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together.... 

Author unknown...

Wil and family: Nothing I can say right now will make what you are going any easier. Time heals all wounds. You'll be in my prayers.

Ana Marylee

Wil;
And especially to Anne, my deep condolences on the loss of your Bear. Last Tues. I had to free my kitty Ellie from her cancer ravaged body. She was my friend of 16 years, and it's inconceivable that she is no longer here. I understand the feeling of expecting to see her in all the usual places..Her pal Abbey is now sleeping in the bed I bought for her in her last month; I'm not sure she has really caught on yet to what has happened.
Ellie was lucky, healthy all her life right to the end, but the illness came swift and savagely. She began to lose weight, and Ellie loved to eat. Finally, I had to hand feed her baby food for the last month and administer water with an eyedropper. She rarely left the bed I bought her, and I kept her with me as much as possible. She fell to 5 lbs and could barely walk but she would still purr when I fed her and stroked her. Finally though, it was time to let her escape the frail, devasted body and go to her rest. I believe she is now at peace, and back to her robust, healthy self that was my friend for so long.I hope that maybe she'll meet Felix and they can share a nap together in the sun after a big meal.
My thoughts are with you and your family and may you all find peace in your happy memories and knowing you were a great family for him.

Take your time, put your energies into your family and other obligations; grieve; cry; scream. But remember that talking about it can help, and we are all here to listen. My sympathies to you and your family.

Ack. This whole thing stinks.

Take 5, man... You know us: We'll be here when you get back.

--AJ

Wil, Anne, and boys,

Sorry for your loss.

I'm no more original, so what they all said goes for me too.

Pain is another sign of growth.

Wil,

Do what needs doing. We will be here whenever you are ready to be here too. I wish you and your family peace.

The thought that springs into my head is of Felix, sitting in a chair to keep it warm for the Pope who will be joining him shortly.

They are much alike in their way, they have given their love to their new families and brought joy to them, and when they are gone a lot of people will be sad, but also relieved; the pain is over.

I'm no catholic; I haven't spoken to God since 2001. But tonight I sat at home after work and the gym, watching the news and seeing the impact a man of peace has made to so many people in the world. I also thought about Felix, and his world, known collectively as the Wheaton Family.

Nightnight Felix; angels are not for eating though! =^.^=

~*Hugs*~

MAybe this is a bizarre mental connection, but since one of my favorite comedians (and in my opinion, one of the best of all time), Mitch Hedberg just died, it kind of brings a smile to my face thinking that Felix is hanging out with Mitch, listening to him fire off his skewed observations. I can just see them both arriving at whatever world awaits. Mitch looks over and says "Hey, a cat. Alright!"

No matter what, I'm sure The Bear is Stumpin' around a new playground checking out the new sensations, and sending back his kitty energy postcards from his new locale.

. . . reading about him makes me wish I could have seen him stumpin around, could have been on his rotation, too . . . but I am genuinely glad to have read about him, and to know that his fuzzy, confident self did walk this earth for a while . . . my heart goes out to you and Anne and the kids . . .

Im sorry! My deepest to you and your family Wil! It brought tears to my eyes to read this post because it reminded me when my cat marla died. I can remember comming home and wondering where my cat was because usually she would greet me when I walked in the house but, one day she did not come to the door and I automatically knew something was wrong. So I searched my home and I finaly found her in the basement behind some boxes and she was really sick and had thrown up in the area she was in. It was late at night so I told myself that I would take her to the vet the next morning and I was living with my parents at the time. I layed my cat in the bed with me and we slept next to eachother and sometime during the middle of the night marla got up and went into the bathroom and layed on the floor and my mother happened to wake up and see her there so my mother sat beside her and rubbed her silky furr and my mom said the last thing she did was look up and meowed at her and that was the last time my kitty was alive. I couldn't go to school I was so heart broken. I wish there was some way that we all could make your pain vanish but, the reality is we can't but you have to be strong for you and your family and you know that. I hope you feel better soon Wil and that goes for Anne and the boys also.

My condolences, Wil, on your loss. I know how hard it is, I've been in your shoes before. My family is thinking of your family in this difficult time.

Wil, I'm sorry to hear of your loss. Felix was well loved, that's for sure, and there are tons of us out here in the blogosphere who will miss him, too. Much love to you and Anne! Your public will anxiously await your return!

I feel your pain Wil. The story of my Fuzzyman parallels The Bear's tale right to the end. He was ready, we were not but they do let you know it is time. I've seen my share of sadness in this life but nothing made me cry more than the moment the Fuzzyman received the injection that stopped his heart. A mix of relief in easing his pain, the hurt of letting him go and guilt that I could have done more for him. I loved that cat and to this day wake up in the night wishing his furry body was laid across head and neck, purring loudly. I feel your pain Wil. Thank you for sharing.

I am so sorry for the loss to your family, Wil. The whole that has been left will never filled by another because there will never be another Bear. However, he will live on within you and within the hearts of those who knew him and of him. Keep the good memories with you, baby. Let them and Bear's memory comfort you.

In time, you will stop looking for him or thinking you hear him. Instead, you will see him favorite napping place and smile at the memory of the tummy rubs and quiet talks.

You are not alone in your loss or your mourning, Wil.

*hugs*

I just read this and your previous entry and they've reduced me to tears.

I am so sorry for your loss, Wil (and family).

Take your time. Do what you need to do. We're all here for you when you need us.

*hugs*

First time reading your blog, and sorry to say it was under these circumstances. Have faith, and it time it all should get better.

Morris
http://www.crazypromofun.com (free advice over any subject)

Hang in there, Wil. Time heals all, we'll be here when you get back.
-L

(found your blog in such a strange way ~ you're probably aware there's a meme going around called 'who's your famous blogger twin?' apparently you're mine ... anway)

I am so sorry to hear of this :( Today would have been the birthday of my Bear~like love (Buddha) that passed away in 2003

They are such sweet souls. Peace to you & yours

Wheatons
aka Felix' Faithful Staff:

Deepest sympathy and condolences to you. My lil buddy Scooter disappeared last August and I still miss her dearly, and I still look for her as I pass her favorite hangouts... and I swear I still hear her coming into the room to hang out with me as I watch TV.

Rob

Wil, I'm so sorry to hear that Felix couldn't stay any longer. When you're ready for it, dig up some photos and relish the memories.

His spirit is probably lingering in those places he loved best -- that's why you keep seeing him out of the corner of your eye.

My heart goes out to all of you. Best wishes.

Will, man, I'm thinking about you, and your family, and your absent friend.

It will always suck... But it will get easier.

I can't call what I'm sending your way anything as light-hearted as "Mojo," but I've been where you are, and I grok. So what support I can lend, I'm sending you through the aether.

Wil,

I was thinking about you and your family while I was at the vet today with our cat and one of the dogs. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Mycondolences.

Man. I've never had, and hence never lost, a pet, so I can't really imagine how this must feel for you, but I think I get the idea. My thoughts are with you guys.

Don't feel bad about taking time out from writing here; I'm sure when you're back, we'll all still be here reading.

*hug*

We're with you, Wil.

hey wil,

i'm so sorry about felix! i know how devastating it can be, i had to put down my black lab a few years ago. as difficult as it is, keep in mind that felix knew well that he was dearly loved. i know he went very peacefully being surrounded by his family or as you say, "staff". :)

mucho hugs to you, anne, and the boys.

Oh Wil,

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know that it is hard and I hope you feel better soon. The Bear was loved and had a grand life. He'll be missed.

Hey buddy,

A lot of hugs and a gentle shoulder for you and your family. Most words right now will not make any of this easier. Everytime you think of Felix always remember his purrs, his snuggles, and his love.

Wil,
I'm so sorry for you and your family and the loss of Felix. I wish I could make it better for you all but of course only time will help ease some of the pain you feel now. Sending good mojo and love your way. Take your time Wil your adoring audience will be here when you are ready to return.

Oh God, Wil.
I'm so sorry.

Wil and Anne,

I have been praying for you guys every chance I get!! Even though this probably does not help, I can't say how sorry I am for you both and your family. I know this is a hard time, and words don't seem to help. Wil, you take all the time you need from posting and what not. We will be here waiting to hear from you. If you think I'm leaving, yeah well, not happening!!!! I wish you all the best that can be right now.

Different people grieve in different ways. Take all the time you need, Wil. We'll wait as long as it takes. We send our condolences to you and your family.

Love and Hugs from the Sisterhood of Shes (PA Division),

Analee Harriman (shewhobeatsass)
Madeline Kimmel (shewhokicksass)
Angela Stevanus (shewhowhupsass)
Wendy Harriman (shewhoistooyoungtostayuplate)

Wil, Anne and the Boys,

I can not begin to express my sorrow at your lose. I recently had to put my cat Sandy to sleep and I cried for 30 minutes in the parking lot. Sandy was suffering from cancer and I felt so shitty because I could do nothing to help her. I understand the feeling of lose and I want you to know that I am praying for you and Felix. Remember the good times and he will never be gone. I truly wish that there was sonething we your loyal friends and fans could do for you. Always remember how much he loved you even if you (and all cat owners) were just his servents.

Mike

Remember you have only lost in in the physical world but at night when you dream he will always be ready to join you to ease your mind

*hugs*

My cat Angel and I pass along our deepest sympathy.

So sorry, Wil.

Time is the best healer. You take all the time you need to adjust and grieve. The site is secondary at this point. Life comes first.

Scott

So sorry about that, Wil. :( Deepest sympathies to you and your family. Rest in peace, Felix.

Wil,

I am so sorry for your loss. Not everyone understands that our pets become a part of our families. I hope that in this time of sorrow you remeber that our loved ones go on to a better place and someday we will se them again.

I have two cats and one basset hound myself. They all loved my mom and she loved them. It was just two years ago in February 2003 when my mom passed away after four and a half months in the hospital because of cancer.

On Christmas Day 2002, the nurses at the hospital let my dad and I bring our basset, Barney. My mom had to have been blessed by St. Francis of Assisi, even though no one in my family is Catholic. (St. Francis was the patron saint of animals and was always kind to them)

I got pictures of my mom in her hospital bed with us holding Barney beside her. Even two years later, I still cannot look at those pictures without crying, and it's made me cry even now just writing this. It probably doiesn't help that I'm watching MSNBC trying to find any news on the condition of Pope John Paul II.

Maybe if Hunter Thompson had just waited a bit, all this news of this week from Johnnie Cochran, Terri Schiavo and now the Pope, all that drama might have made him forget his own pain. But then again, being as crazy as he was, he'd probably still want to go out with a bang.

What was really scary was to see the Pope's appearance this past Wednesday. He clearly was not the Pope of just weeks ago. He looked to be in great pain. He almost looked like he had shrunken. When he put his hand to his head, it was like you could almost tell.

I almost wonder if I'm delving off-topic here, talking about the Pope. But then, perhaps it all fits. I might not have known Felix the Bear, but I feel your loss, Wil.

Dear Wil,
Thank you for the email back (he loved the scritch) and I'm really glad you liked the banner I made to remember Felix THE BEAR by. Charlie and I give you (and the rest of the family) lots of love and hugs. Iime heals all wounds. I once had an argument with someone about how an animal could be considered part of the family and this person said that it's not right to do that. I asked if they had any pets and they said, "no" and you know what I said? "Then you have no idea what you're talking about, cause if you had a pet and loved that pet alot, then you would probably feel that the pet is part of the family." They shut up right away. Charlie The Cat maybe a cat, but like you, I love Charlie so much that I wouldn't know what I'd do without him. I've had him for 14 years already. Don't worry Wil, it gets easier as time goes by. Charlie and I may not know you or your family personally, but we understand the bond that you (and the family) had with Felix THE BEAR.
With love,
Morgan and Charlie The Cat

hey wil,
many condolences to you and the family. We'll all still be here when you get back, you have much more important things to think about right now.

take care,
from rach

My husband has been gently mocking me for following this blog for years, but apparently he has also been reading it, because he emailed me a link to yesterday's article. He later amitted it gave him a lump in his throat, adding "he's a good writer."

If you knew my husband, you'd realize what high praise this is.

Sorry about The Bear, Wil, but keep writing.

Very few, that are not cat owners, understand that cats are more than just a pet...they are a member of the family. They mean as much to you as a child. Losing such a valued member of your family is a difficult and painful process. It helps to remember the little things that made you laugh and smile. There is never a shame in crying and in time the pain will fade, but the good memories never will. So cheer up family, you beloved Felix is never more than a memory away. It will be alright.

I read your blog for the first time in about a year yesterday. I have stumbled across it a few times in the past few years and always enjoy reading, just hadn't become a loyal reader. Not for the lack of your writing skills however.

When we are in pain, sometimes it's nice to know we're not alone. Judging by the comments posted here, you have truly touched the lives of many people.. and you Mr. Wil Wheaton are definitely not alone.

I lost my "boo-boo kitty" Friskey, about ten years ago to kidney failure. Actually, it was probably due more to old age.. he was nearly 18. I'd had him since I was ten and I loved that cat as much as I loved any human; he was a part of my family.

The night we had to let him go, was one of the most difficult things I ever had to go through. As I recounted your story of Felix to my boyfriend last night, I became overwhelmed with grief at the memory and loss of Friskey. It's been ten years.. and I still miss the little guy. He will always be in my memories.

Your story of Felix really touched me and I wanted you to know that there's one more person out here thinking about you and grieving with you.

I only mean this as a comfort,not to "preach" to anyone, but when I lost my dog and best freind at 14, my mom took my grief seroisly. She was talking to a Jewish friend and he told her the Jews believe that pets that you love become friends and have a special place in heaven because they learn to love you and you love tham. I was blessed to have my parents around for another 20 or so years, I can tell you (in the short, to the point version), that there is a VERY REAL hole left when a loved one dies, pet or human. They say the one who passed takes a part of you with them and they keep it for you until you see them again. I hope it's a comfort to know that The Bear has a special place because of your family and will always be there for you. All any of are probably saying is all you can say when one passes, "We're sorry for your loss and we're here." God's Blessings and comfort to all of you.

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss, Wil. I almost couldn't read some of the earlier posts when Felix was ill, as I had just lost the second of two of my beautiful cats around that time (Max and Tiff were brothers I raised and they died within three months of each other, at age 13). I know how hard it is when an animal you love is really gone. I actually went to a pet loss support group last month, and you know, it helped. Too many people don't realize the impact pets have on our lives - they are part of our families. Again, I am sorry to hear about your family's loss - in time you will remember the good parts and not the last part. Take care - Deborah

Wil and Family

As everyone who has ever lost a pet knows - it is perhaps one of the hardest things that can ever happen. As they will also know things do get easier with time. Hang in there. Thinking of you.

Dude, that sucks. Nothing else for it. I hope the best for you and your family. I love my cat :( I know one day the saem will happen... Argh.

Wil and Family,

I finally broke down and registered. I wish I had something more profound to say other than I am sorry for your loss. Anyone who has done all they can for a treasured pet and come to the end of that time together understands the hurt you are now feeling. Even though I have only relatively recently started reading your website I feel like I know Bear and all your extended four legged family. I hope through sharing with us it eases the pain in some small way.

Best wishes to you and the whole family.

Don't let your blog get to feeling like an obligation. Do what you need to do. Blog fans, like Start Trek fans, shouldn't have sway over you in times like this. We're big kids; we can take care of ourselves until you find yourself with the clear headspace and a hankering to write. Heh, if you're worried about traffic numbers for your advertisers, we're still clicking and checking.

Having a candid, open, peek-inside-your-head, keeping-it-real blog is great, but there are sometimes when it's all too real to share, and, y'know, that's OK. You know we're all behind you guys. These kinds of times are hard for a family, but real. (Sometimes I wonder what it must be like for Anne to share your life with all these readers...)

Even more well-wishes to you guys. With her (Anne's) open heart, and the number of needy animals yet to cross your path, I know that you guys will find another outlet for your kindness and compassion. They'll never replace this one, but somehow they'll add to the experience, too.

*mojo*

The last few entries have been a true testament to your loving nature. Felix was very lucky to have known you.
I'll admit I originally came here because I was looking for comfort for my grief. My younger sister had a crush on you as you played Wesley Crusher. She passed away twelve years ago from cystic fibrosis. She spent the last few years of her live in bed constantly circled by Ernie and Bert, two black stray cats that had adopted her years before.
I know this isn't any great solace to you right now, but your honest style of writing has allowed my family to recall those moments, alternately laughing and crying.
Memories we get to keep and may yours last forever.
Thank you.

*hugs*

:(

Aww, I'm SO sorry that happened, Wil! That really sucks. :(
But at least he went peacefully ya know? Better then a hard grueling last minute.
He knows peace now, and where ever he is, he's happy. Just never forget him, and he'll live as long as you remember him...

Wil,

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I know it's hard losing an animal. I hate to use this analogy, but it's like losing a beloved family member or friend. It hurts like hell. Just reading your logs makes me sad for you. I hope to God that you will find some solace in the fact that your cat is in a better place now. If you need someone to talk to over the phone, signal for me in your blog sometime, and I'll e-mail you and give you my information. Again, I'm sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you.

I'm sure that Felix is off in that big ol' catnip patch in the sky, and is very happy. You should be happy that you gave him such a good, loving home, and remember the good experiences that he provided.
You have my condolences (still).

Itll get better. Even two years after having to let Mike go, Ill still break down occasionaly at some random moment cuz somethings happened and I really wouldve liked to have my best friend around. But, yes. It gets better, as I smile sadly looking through a picture album thats dedicated to my two former cats. As I remember snoozing on the very edge of my bed, cuz he's in the middle, and Im not one to make him move just so i dont fall out of the bed.
Itll be okay.

I'm thinking of a scene in the movie "What Dreams May Come" when the recently disceased father begins to realize his own heaven. His dog, whom he had to put to sleep years earlier, was there in his heaven to greet him.
My point is that I beleve that in our exsistance anything is possible. You might be suprised. After you die, Felix may put you on his rotation again some day.
Sorry for your loss. What a cool cat.

Wil

I can't pretend to have as strong a bond with animals as you and your family do (or the huge number of people who relate) but I do thank you for giving the rest of us a window into how deep those ties can run. You have a gift in your ability to feel deeply and to portray such feeling. My condolences.

I'm sorry about your kitty. I've been through similar things with several ferrets. There's something especially difficult in losing a furry family member.

You have my deepest sympathy and my condolences.

Be well.

Rest in Peace, Felix The Bear.

--Mary S.

As many of your posters here, I have gone thru the hell of losing my best baby angel kitty. Mine died slowly over the course of two months, starting with a seizure and ending with complications due to Toxoplasmosis. It affected her brain to the point that she was barely my Casey-kitty when I had to put her to sleep. It was just last October, and she went from being the toughest little thing to the weakest; but even at the end, she put up a fight when we gave her an injection to relax her prior to the euthanasia solution. My best memory of the ordeal was that, because I work at my vet clinic, I got to spend my last few hours with her tucked on my lap, wrapped in a blanket. The worst memory was going home and thinking I would never sleep again, without her purring so hard that it felt like