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As an actor and writer, husband and father, I have two often-conflicting monkeys on my back: Monkey number one is Creative Monkey. He occasionally digs his claws into my brains, and refuses to let go until something wonderful comes out. I love him. Monkey number two is Pragmatic Monkey. He regularly wraps his prehensile tail around my neck and only eases his grip when I'm doing the things I need to do to support my family. I don't necessarily love him, but I'm glad he's here. From time to time, I can satiate both monkeys, like writing Games of Our Lives, working on CSI, or touring with Earnest Borg9. More often than not, though, I can only satisfy one monkey at a time, and when push comes to shove, Pragmatic Monkey always wins; with a family to support, I just don't have the luxury of turning my back on him. For the last few years, I've been luckily enough to to strike a Balance that makes both Monkeys happy . . . but for most of this year, Pragmatic Monkey has been squeezing the everlivingfuck out of me, and in an effort to make him happy, I've ended up taking on far too many responsibilities, and given away way far too much of myself to other people. I've rarely seen Creative Monkey, let alone felt his wonderful claws in my brains, and that's got to change. I miss him.
I believe that everything happens for a reason, and I believe that I didn't come down with a crippling case of mono that forced me to bring my life to a complete halt just because The Universe hit a two-outer on the River to take me down. So over the last couple of weeks, I've taken a very hard look at my life, and looked for The Lesson. After a lot of soul-searching, and long talks with the two most important women in my life (my wife and my mother) I've come to the following conclusion: I'm tired. Really, really tired. I guess it's appropriate that I got mono, because my body physically manifested what I've felt emotionally for a long time.
Call it what you want: over-extended, spread too thin, burned-out . . . the bottom line is, in an effort to put lots of irons in the fire, help some people out, and increase my opportunities to retire in style at the age of 25, I've given too much of myself to other people, and there hasn't been enough left over for me and the people I love. The scary thing is, if I hadn't had to cancel the Red Hat Summit appearance, I may not have realized it until it was too late. When I had to cancel the Red Hat Summit, I was shocked, that, rather than expressing compassion and understanding, I was called "unprofessional," and a lot of people got very upset with me, because my health prevented me from speaking at their precious conference, and it made them "look bad." I felt like I wasn't even a person anymore. I felt like I was an object, a commodity, a number. For months, something had been bothering me, and I couldn't put my finger on it. It was like seeing something out of the corner of my eye that vanished whenever I tried to look directly at it, but it suddenly came into focus: I have felt, for a very long time, like people wanted a piece of me, and I'd willingly given it up. I was filled with empty spaces. I had to take a step back, and redraw my boundaries. To quote my favorite TV show of all time: "I am not a number, I am a person."
There are so many things I want to do, and I haven't had time to do them. I want to plant a garden. I want to walk my dog every morning. I want to write fiction. I want to finish the two books I'm working on, so I can get into the third. I want to play more poker. I want to take my wife out on dates. Mostly, though, I don't want to miss out on what little time I have left with my stepkids before they fly right out of the nest in a couple of years. I was working my ass off to provide enough financial security to do all those things, but I had hardly anything to show for it. I was undervaluing myself and my work, and at the end of each day, I was emotionally exhausted and I couldn't even think about enjoying time with my family. All the while, these people who had gotten a small piece of me — some of them business associates, many of them random Internet readers — kept demanding more and more and more.
When I was so sick about ten days ago, I had a fever-induced epiphany: I needed to make several changes in my life. I needed to redefine some boundaries, and re-organize my priorities.
So let's get to it. The first thing I have to do is refocus my creative energy, which brings the following changes:
- I have written my last column for Dungeon. When I started, I was under the impression that I could write whatever I wanted, as long as it was related to gaming. So I wrote about games I love, like Illuminati and Car Wars. I wrote about playing Magic with Nolan, convention gaming, and playing True Dungeon at SoCal GenCon last year. I really enjoyed writing the columns, but the feedback I got was largely negative (it's really time to just get the fuck over Star Trek, nerds), so Erik Mona, my editor at Dungeon, asked me to write columns that were focused purely on D&D. I tried my best, but my life was just too full to put in the time that running or participating in a campaign requires. It was very hard to write a column about D&D when I couldn't play at least once a week, so I told Erik last week that I felt that I couldn't provide the quality and consistency that he and Dungeon readers deserve, and he graciously accepted my resignation. I loved working for Erik, who is a fantastic editor, and I will continue to read both Dungeon and Dragon, which I feel have improved tremendously under his leadership. I'm sad that I can't be part of it any longer.
- I've resigned from igrep. I like the people who created it very much, and I completely believe in their technology — if you're a developer, and you're not using igrep, you're wasting a lot of time — but it's clear to me that I can't provide the services that they need from a spokesman, and it's best for everyone if I invest my time and energy somewhere else.
- I am not doing any more conventions this year. I don't have anything new to offer in terms of creative content right now, and I'm not going to go out and rehash the same old shit. It's boring for me, and the audience deserves something better. So I'm taking the rest of the year off to work on new material.
I also need to make some fairly significant changes to my blog. I have to keep perspective and focus: I write this blog because it's fun and enjoyable, and ultimately I have to write it for me, and I have to write in a way that keeps me comfortable. There's this guy named Paul Phillips, who the poker pros call "Dot Com," because he made a megatillion quatloos during the dotcom boom. He retired in style, and became a seriously good poker player. He also writes one of the greatest blogs (actually a live journal) that I have ever read, and I don't say that with any hyperbole. He writes about poker, other players, technology, geeky things, and his baby girl with wonderful, honest, prose. But he's got his boundaries, which he makes very clear. His Live Journal helped me come to the conclusion that I could redefine my boundaries and still have a blog worth reading and writing. For example, his FAQ is unambiguous and makes it clear that he's not interested in any bullshit. It doesn't mean he's a dick, it just means that he knows what his boundaries are and that he'll defend them. I respect that more than I can possibly put into words, and I intend to follow his example. (Though I probably wouldn't have folded that Queen-high flush to TJ Cloutier at the Bike, when only two cards in the deck beat me ;). I've also read and thought about another blogger I respect, Tony Pierce. Tony recently wrote a great post about what happens when bloggers experience blogger burnout. At one time or another, I have been guilty of every single entry on his list, right up until today. Starting right now, I will change that. I don't think everyone is going to be happy with these changes, but I think that will say more about the individual than it does about me. In fact, if you see me as a fellow blogger, writer, stepparent, privacy advocate, spouse, pet owner, poker player, [whatever] aficionado, geek, or human being, I'm pretty sure you're going to understand all of these things. As a matter of fact, if these changes upset or offend you, you should probably not be reading WWdN in the first place, and I hope you'll leave.
- I hate Reality TV, and I feel like my blog is dangerously close to crossing the line from " this interesting thing happened to me" to "come with me while I take a shit in the woods." I need to tell more stories, and bear less soul. You know what I've learned about The Internets? It's full of freaks, and if a high-profile person bears too much soul, they really come out of the woodwork and latch on. It's a little creepy. So, I need to reclaim a lot of myself for myself and my friends and family. If that means people stop reading WWdN, I'm really okay with that. In fact, I hope it has a bit of a Darwin effect.
- When I get the redesign launched, there will be minimal advertising. I'm doing this because I believe I've found a tasteful and non-intrusive way to help support my family. I will never allow WWdN to become a billboard, and I will never allow my writing to be influenced by, or secondary to advertising or sponsorship. I do plan to enter a few affiliate programs, and if I ever link to something that could go through one of those programs, I'll do it. Again, I'm sure this won't sit well with everyone. Deal.
- As my blog has grown out of my control in the last year, and taken on a life of its own, I have self-censored several times. Mostly, it's when I want to rage about what a colossal fucking liar George W. Bush is, what a disgrace he is to my country, and how the mainstream corporate media have completely failed to hold him and his administration accountable for countless lies. I'm a passionate person, and I'm passionate about politics. I'm going to write about it, and I'm not going to pull any punches. It won't be my primary focus, and I will never be as great a political blog as The Moderate Voice, Josh Marshall or Atrios, but I've turned away from political posts for too long. If the world were a bar, America would currently be the angry drunk waving around a loaded gun. Yeah, the other people in the bar may be afraid of him, but they sure as hell don't respect him. And as soon as he drops that gun, he's going to get his ass handed to him. I'd rather my country be respected than feared, and I'm going to do whatever I can, however small, to make that happen.
- I will move most of my Los Angeles-specific content to blogging.la, including news about local readings, ACME performances, and the like. I estimate that there are less than one hundred local readers, so it makes more sense to put local stuff on a local site.
- Because I make my living by writing, I'm going to focus most of my time and energy on completing the books I've got in production, even if that means I write fewer blogs (though I have noticed that it's almost axiomatic that when a blogger says, "I'm going to blog less" that they actually blog more). However, I'm not going to keep material off my blog because I'm planning on including it in a future book. I've already written a successful book, Dancing Barefoot, that was entirely composed of previously-published material, and Just A Geek would have been even more successful if O'Reilly hadn't mis-marketed it so badly, against my wishes and advice. I'm not worried about losing book sales because some, most, or even all of the material is available on my blog. I believe 100% in the Long Tail, and I owe much of my success to it.
- For the month of June, I am guest-editing the Technology section of the SuicideGirls newswire. (Newswire is Safe For Work, the rest of the site is not.) I will be putting up about three new technology stories every day this month.
- I'm also guest-blogging for the poker blog pPlayer.com this month. I haven't posted anything at pPlayer, yet, but I plan on running some book reviews, as well as some interviews with well-known pros, poker bloggers, and authors. Both of these gigs allow the two Monkeys on my back to happily intersect: I get to write about things I love, and I get to support my family a little bit by doing it.
- I'm putting the finishing touches on a podcast. I'm not going to go into any details, because several things are up in the air, but I think it's going to be pretty damn cool.
I'd like to close with a little blast from the past . . . a thought for the day:
A small leak will sink a great ship
-Anonymous
Thanks for reading. :)
Comments
Good for you! Do what you need to take care of you and the rest of the world will respect you for it. If anyone seems not to, then they shouldn't be part of your world anyway.
Oh, and with respect to #3, ROCK ON. I love reading (and writing) about the injustices going on. It means the word is getting around instead of being hidden by The Press/The Corporation.
Rest easy.
Posted by: jslicer | June 7, 2005 05:20 PM
Good for you Wil. You need to focus on what is best for you and your family. I look forward to reading more of your books. (Except poker, I don't do poker) It sounds like you feel better.
Lorraine
Posted by: Lorraine | June 7, 2005 05:21 PM
Wil,
You should know that the true "Friends of WWDNtm" are always behind your decisions, and we come here because we like the writing. Not because we are sitting in dark rooms in our underpants looking for ways to put down a character from a distant show we once worshipped solely to make ourselves feel better about our pathetic lives. Rather, we read because we like, we read because you write, and we read because you inspire us to experience our own tribulations as we share, however reservedly, in yours.
And remember: Those who hate, who spam, who demand, they are pitiable. They have to live with themselves 24-7
Posted by: DaFahq | June 7, 2005 05:26 PM
"I believe that everything happens for a reason" that's pretty cool. me and my friend wrote a book called "everything happens for a reason" (we didn't publish it yet) but the theme is that no matter what happens, everything happens for a reason. just thought i'd mention that because i thought it was cool.
Posted by: *Jamie* | June 7, 2005 05:29 PM
Fine... I like your writing. If you stay the same we will all get board. Good artists of all forms must evolve and change either in style, format or content. I am interested in your life as you seem to experience things in a similar way. (Our ages are close) Do what you need to do, I will read, anyone who doesn’t.... well, they can do whatever they want.
Posted by: kellyc | June 7, 2005 05:33 PM
Congrats Wil. I like the sound of all the changes. I've stopped by your blog a few times over the last couple of years but this post really connected with me.
Looking forward to hearing some political rantings. Take care,
Connor
Posted by: Connor | June 7, 2005 05:33 PM
If people give you crap for your decision, I say let them get a life! What do most celebrities give to their fans? Faces hid from papparazzi, and their work- nothing else. Whatever you write, it's more than most everyone else and I say a huge THANK YOU that you take so much time to blog what you do. Personal- that's your choice to tell what you want. I enjoy any insight into living in California and the craziness of getting acting gigs and the frustration/joy of the writing process.
THANK YOU, WIL, FOR SHARING WHAT YOU DO! Don't worry about the creeps who demand more; they need to get a life!
Posted by: miskaffon | June 7, 2005 05:34 PM
If people give you crap for your decision, I say let them get a life! What do most celebrities give to their fans? Faces hid from papparazzi, and their work- nothing else. Whatever you write, it's more than most everyone else and I say a huge THANK YOU that you take so much time to blog what you do. Personal- that's your choice to tell what you want. I enjoy any insight into living in California and the craziness of getting acting gigs and the frustration/joy of the writing process.
THANK YOU, WIL, FOR SHARING WHAT YOU DO! Don't worry about the creeps who demand more; they need to get a life!
Posted by: miskaffon | June 7, 2005 05:36 PM
This is an excellent post, there's a lot here that will probably be helpful to other ambitious people who need to prioritize and get control of their obligations & personal strength.
Posted by: Alicia | June 7, 2005 05:37 PM
Wil, let me say that I *read* this blog because it's fun and enjoyable, and because you write it for you, about you. If you break "you" in the process of writing it, then no-one wins.
Example: I know nothing about Poker, and it is not an area I've ever been interested in, but from your writing I saw that there was something to it, so I had a go. Lost, of course, but I enjoyed losing. So learning poker goes on my "Someday/Maybe" list. Could you have done that as well if you'd been writing about something because you felt you had to?
Now, go write that next book, 99.99% 'cos you are a good writer and want to, and 0.01% 'cos I'll feel cheap if you ever come over to the UK and I have to ask you to sign my copies of JAG and DB without buying something new.
Posted by: BigLig | June 7, 2005 05:38 PM
It's only right that you keep something of yourself for you and for your family - i'm only sorry you had to find out the hard way. I know you SAY that you don't care what the maniacs will say when they read about the changes, but i have a sneaking suspision that you will mind, just a little. well, let me be the first to say *expletive* them up the *expletive epxpletive*. you have been an inspiration to me as as a writer since i started reading your blog a year ago and espcially since i read Just a Geek. oh, and a brother in arms as an actor :-)...i find myself crossing my fingers for you whenever you go to an audition and yeah, quite probably as an act of good karma! your true fans will support you in this new endeavor because, you see, we are not crazy and don't believe you belong to us because we read a damn blog. we're your on-line very distant and in no way related family of fellow artists, poker players and work dodgers. we'll love you no matter what. no, i take that back. i'd leave you in disgust if you turned out to be a closet Bushie, but i gather from the bit about no longer holding back on political opinions that probably isn't the case. ;-)
Posted by: Ellephant | June 7, 2005 05:39 PM
Wil, glad to know I'm not the only one who's had a similar epiphany. I used to work for an international IT company in a big city. Like you, I realized I was giving far too much of myself to the company and not getting enough in return - neither financially or on a professional or personal level. The final straw was when management asked me to attend an important meeting and a training session - at the same time. I quit a few months later, and I haven't looked back. The irony is that I'm more financially secure (and happier) in my new "smaller" job than I was in my old one.
Good luck with your new endeavours, and I look forward to seeing more of your work in the future.
Posted by: Spacehamster | June 7, 2005 05:40 PM
Wil,
Your entry and plans are spot on! Your post could have been mine about five years ago when I found myself in a similar situation and needed to make things right in my life. I'm proud of you (for what it's worth) and happy you've come to this point with such wonderful resolve. I can't wait to see what you do next!
Be well and my best to Anne and the boys.
spacewriter
Posted by: spacewriter | June 7, 2005 05:44 PM
Wil,
I am glad your making these changes because it sounds like your posts will become more interesting. As for those who rant about being a loser, unprofessional, etc...criticising what you say in a rational fashion is acceptable and should at least be looked at but being insulted and put down, especially when you're sick, need only be ignored. Regarding politics and the behavior of our gubbimint I can't wait to read what you have to say. (If I was a right wing knee jerk I'm sure I would disagree but if they don't like it they can change the URL)
Posted by: ikalvan | June 7, 2005 05:44 PM
I've been reading your blog for a few years now and just wanted to comment on how much your writing has meant to me. My life has been on somewhat of a rollercoaster over the last few years and I've gone through some bad times and seemed to have sacrificed a lot in order to pursue a 'dream' of what I want to do in life. Anyway, in 2 weeks time I have an interview with a prestigious film school in London, and I truly believe that this will be an important turning point in my life, and will make all the hard work and dreaming pay off. Reading your blog has helped me, and so I, for one, wish to thank you for the contribution you have made to my life, and to the lives of thousands of readers across the world. Thank you.
Posted by: doc2005 | June 7, 2005 05:45 PM
The changes to your blog sound great. I'm excited that you're going to censor yourself less, and honestly I'm glad that there will be less LA stuff since I'm on the other coast. I look forward to reading many more great posts of yours!
Posted by: lauralaylin | June 7, 2005 05:47 PM
Two years ago I had a massive kidney hiccup that left me virtually comatose for about half a year. Hurt like hell, kept me from doing anything productive, and I re-thought life. Your list is completely different than mine, but the gist is the same. All I can say is: you're dead-on, and don't doubt it. About a month after I started to recover, I had trouble sleeping at night because I was sure I'd buggered my entire life up, and I started putting useless energy into trying to fix mistakes that didn't exist. Keep your post like a mission statement and don't second guess yourself.
Furthermore: write fiction, cause I really want to know what kind of fiction comes out of a mind like yours...
Posted by: mrandrews | June 7, 2005 05:48 PM
I pretty much enjoy reading whatever you write here, so write whatever you want. :)
And definitely play more poker. Just don't play like I have been lately.
Posted by: alan | June 7, 2005 05:50 PM
"To thine own self be true." wrote that immortal bard dude so very long ago... and no more succinct or truer words have ever been written.
Doing anything outside the boundries of that statement is pretty much cow pats.
Good for you, Wil.
Don't ever let the cow pats take over your field of dreams.
Posted by: Nyarl | June 7, 2005 05:51 PM
doc2005: I hope you come back and read this. I've learned something about auditions like the one you're about to have: you should do everything you can to ENJOY the experience. You'll be focused on every moment, rather than the hoped-for outcome, and no matter what happens, it will be a memorable experience.
Break a leg :)
Posted by: Wil | June 7, 2005 05:56 PM
Wil,
I read your blog because you're an excellent writer - the same reason I bought your books. I'm hanging around.
And I agree with Connor. I can't wait to read more political postings.
Posted by: frecklebeach | June 7, 2005 05:57 PM
Hey Wil,
So glad to have you back writing. Your blog actually inspired me to blog, I know not as great as retiring at 25 but I'm glad I came across your site.
I think it's awesome that you're a gamer (me too, and yet we both manage to have significant others!) and I wish I'd been aware that you were a writer for Dungeon! I guess I'll have to order a few back issues!
Well it seems you have chosen a path that will bring you peace and I'm glad you aren't dropping the blog as I feared a few days ago.
Thanks for the inspiration,
Jeremy
Posted by: jhjanuary | June 7, 2005 05:57 PM
Wil,
I think all the changes listed above are outstanding if you think its what's best for you. I've been an avid reader of your site for a couple of years and hope that it will continue for years to come. Your site has inspired me to attempt a blog of my own, and I always look to WWdN as an example of a successful blog. Glad to hear your illness led to something positive and glad to hear you're feeling better.
Posted by: Tony Santos | June 7, 2005 06:00 PM
Bravo, Wil. It takes a strong, intelligent person to realize-- and make changes-- when they have over-extended themself. I admire and applaud your dedication to your family. I've found that in this day and age it is sadly a rare thing.
Good luck with your personal re-org. Have fun in your garden. Time on this Earth is much too short and before you know it we look back and say "Man, I wish I would have spent more time..."
From a self-imposed stay-at-home Mom who knows...
Posted by: KimAbshire | June 7, 2005 06:02 PM
Good luck, Wil. I do fear for where you say you'll bear less soul -- although you write well, the uniqueness of your posts has often been the courage you've displayed in sharing your emotions through moments of joy and moments of tragedy in your life. It's what pulled me in and made me pay attention to you, frankly. At the same time, I do understand and respect that you don't like making yourself vulnerable to unbalanced people out there on the 'Net. I just hope you'll be able to strike a happy medium between the two. But despite my trepidations, it sounds like you've charted yourself a course for the future in expert fashion, and I wish you luck for it.
Posted by: Mike | June 7, 2005 06:03 PM
I read your blog for your writing, I love it (though not always understand - I read the poker stuff with a dictionary open ;), so whatever you want to write is fine with me. It's a *gift* to us anyway, so fuck anyone who tries to demand anything. Take your life back. Live it. Be happy. Anything else can wait.
Posted by: Jessica | June 7, 2005 06:07 PM
Hi Wil, I'm glad that you are feeling a bit better. I think that the reorganization of your life is a great idea. There are so many beautiful things in our lives that quickly slip away...like spending time with family. Best of luck in your new path. I'm looking forward to the changes!
Posted by: Aylanah | June 7, 2005 06:09 PM
To Wil:
Rock on. I didn't come here to live vicariously through you, relive my past by reading about 'that actor who used to play Crusher', or because its what the cool geeks do. I read what you write because I enjoy that you aren't some mouthpiece, that even though I dont agree with you on a lot, that you seem to have a firm grasp that America isn't about agreeing, its about discourse and, yeah, some arguments if need be.
That further confirmed it. Suh weet.
Respectfully,
Sarah C
Posted by: Solsra | June 7, 2005 06:10 PM
Wil -- I can certainly understand the need to reevaluate one's life. We all do it, regularly if we're lucky, or when circumstances force us to do so (Remember: The unexamined life is not worth living).
I hope you link the LA blog to your main site. I'm not really 'local' since I'm from San Diego, but I've been tempted to drive up, and trying to keep track of 2 blogs may be taxing. maybe not.
best of luck, and I think we're all glad you're feeling better. People who claim illness is unprofessional deserve respect (we all deserve that) but should not be taken seriously. Illness is not a moral failing, though American culture treats it as such.
Posted by: Margaret | June 7, 2005 06:14 PM
Isn't the quote:
"I am not a number, I am a free man"?
Posted by: medge | June 7, 2005 06:15 PM
Good onya, mate!
There's a fine line between helping folks out, and having the marrow sucked from your bones.
Be seeing you.
(a Prisoner ref, not some psycho stalker bullshit)
(It's sad I needed to explain that, but there you go.)
Posted by: h3adlin3 | June 7, 2005 06:24 PM
When I first opened the plastic of the Stand By Me Deluxe Edition DVD, I wondered to myself, why in the world does Wil Wheaton get top billing for this movie? Wasn't he just that hack kid on one of those Star Trek shows? Isn't he just a joke? Why would he be billed over acting greats like Dreyfuss, Keifer Sutherland, and John Cusack?
For years I had heard about your website, but had ignored it, continuing to separate myself from anything related to Star Trek, having despised both the original and cartoon. I never watched your series, and dismissed you for the only thing I had ever known you to do. How wrong I was.
After watching Stand By Me, I've come to the realization that you are more than just "some kid on Star Trek." In that movie, you did more than act, you brought Gordie to life. Stephen King may have created the character, but you personalized him. When Gordie laughed, I laughed. When Gordie winced, I winced. When Gordie fainted, I thought that I was going to. And when Gordie cried, I cried, too.
I cannot say why I had been so quick to judge you, especially upon unfounded notions. For that, I apologize (though I never did so in a way that could have discredited you). Now, I know better than to form an opinion of you based upon one movie, as I had done so based upon one television show; instead, I am going to make up my own mind based upon fact.
I find it ironic that I would watch your movie and first visit your site on a day when you have come forward to express your decision to change a few things about your life and your blog. I, too, have been in a state of contemplation since November and I still haven't figured everything out. I'm glad that you are on that path, and can agree one hundred percent that your family is the most important thing in your life. I applaud you for loving your stepkids like you do. Few people in this world are graced with an outstanding father, and those who have the chance to be one often do not realize their riches.
You are a lucky person. You have a family, you have a broad career, and you have the opportunity to make your dreams come true. Isn't it also ironic that the little boy who played the aspiring writer would grow up to be one himself? I hope that you make the most of the opportunities afforded you and wish you the best of success. It might be a little late for you to retire at 25, but then again, who wants to retire anyway? Retired people go to Florida and never find the Fountain of Youth; working people have a reason to live. If the only work you do from now until the end is write, then maybe you will succeed in making yourself a happy person. Take a page from Stephen King's book and write yourself into old age. Don't care whether you make a fortune off of it or not. Remember, some authors have written shelves full of books never meant to see print, though they are now held up as classics and taught in school as examples of the craft.
Whatever you do, whether it is writing, or blogging, acting, or simply horsing around in the backyard with your kids, do it for the one true purpose in life -- to bring pleasure to yourself and those around you. If you are appreciated for it in your lifetime, then the world has recognized your talent and work; if you are appreciated for it posthumously, then those who come after us are wiser than we were; and if you are never appreciated for it, then it is a loss suffered by society, but not you.
I hope you do not mind my attempts at offering advice. I'm just a guy with a few too many words to fit in his size seven-and-three-quarters head, and I often look for creative places to deposit them. I hope you understand that I am only posting in support of your career, past and present, and your choices, present and future.
Posted by: Brad Johnson | June 7, 2005 06:30 PM
Wil,
You probably won't read this post since there are so many that have similar or identical content, however...
If you need to do something just do it, don't let anyone but you and the people you love influence your life. I'm ecstatic that you are going to make the changes in your professional, personal, and online life to help make yourself not only happy mentally but physically. Not to mention make your family happy since they will actually have you around every now and again ^_^.
I have been reading your blog for about 5 months now and have come to enjoy your down to earth presence despite most people's immediate associaton with you and your "shadow." And to think you've been actually censoring your own posts is sorta shocking too, however, I'm very happy that you aren't going to censor yourself anymore. This is your blog, say what you want and feel.
With your comments on the Media/Bush/Congress etc. I have actually been motivated to push my congressmen/women as well as my states senators to oppose everything that the Bush Administration and their political "kneecapping" have done or will continue to do to our country.
In your sick and somewhat feverish state know this one thing, you are influencing people. And I hope that it means as much to you as it does to me that you speak your mind.
Keep up the wonderful work, keep getting better.
Humble Regards,
Sean
Posted by: SeanSands | June 7, 2005 06:31 PM
Good for you! I grew up watching Trek in all forms. I began to visit this site for that reason. I stayed around because of your progressive political views since I am very much a grassroots progressive.
I hope to read many more of your political views in the future. I am anticipating rational, well-researched blogs about the fate of our country and ways that we, as common citizens (unless you are a multimillionaire, a corporate CEO or a politician you are a common citizen) can promote a better future. Good luck to you and I look forward to reading a blog that I hope can be passed on to other political forums.
Posted by: xmas74 | June 7, 2005 06:31 PM
Wil-
Wow.... I've been "lurking" here for awhile, but I'm now moved to post. I found your website while researching Los Angeles happenings, culture, etc. I'm planning on moving to LA in the next couple of months, primarily to be closer to family, but also for career considerations (film/TV editor).
Your post has really helped me put my anxieties into perspective, and I'm inspired to remain true to myself, whatever the obstacles may be.
I'm officially a fan, Wil. You're a gifted writer, and I'm going to buy your books (although perhaps not the future poker books - I'm a chessplayer).
Thank you.
Posted by: svpchris@yahoo.com | June 7, 2005 06:36 PM
good choices, thanks for sharing and thanks for everything. You're OK.
Posted by: TerryH | June 7, 2005 06:36 PM
You know we love you.
And those of us who care about you as a person are going to understand, and those who don't understand...fuck 'em. You have all the love and support you need right there in your happy home. The rest of us are just gravy. :-)
But you know that. And that's what makes you cool.
So fret not, we still love you.
Posted by: Saraphina | June 7, 2005 06:37 PM
All I have to say is: Good for you Wil. I'll still be a loyal reader regardless and I think you're making a move in the right direction.
Posted by: =^) | June 7, 2005 06:39 PM
i've been reading for a long time, and i know that i for one simply enjoy your writing, not necessarily what you write about. thanks so much for everything that you do, and know that i'll not be leaving anytime soon.
i'm one of those kids who was watching Star Trek when we were even younger than Wesley, and trust me, a lot of us look up to you. you're a great guy, and i'm glad you've had one of those 'what's it all mean?!' moments - after all, it makes us college kids (who do it every other week) feel a lot better. ^^
Posted by: la joie simple de soleil | June 7, 2005 06:42 PM
Wil,
I'll jump on the "We heart Wil" bandwagon, and add that in the end, only YOU know what's best for you: not your agent, your clients, or your fans. I think the majority of your readers will support you in whatever you try to do, just as you support your family and friends. I wish you the best of luck in your retrenching.
Posted by: muddgirl | June 7, 2005 06:52 PM
Good for you, Wil. Glad you're feeling better.
Posted by: Evan | June 7, 2005 06:55 PM
Do whatever you feel is best for your family and for yourself. Don't worry about what other people think--if they don't like what you have to say then they don't have to read it. I hope your feeling better.
Posted by: Tamara | June 7, 2005 06:59 PM
I have been reading your blog so long now I don't even remember how long it has been. I don't comment often, but always have enjoyed your blog whether or not I always agree, but usually I do. I sincerely RESPECT your choice to pull back some. And for whatever strange reason that made me more emotional in a good way than any other blog entry I have read. I have always enjoyed your acting even when you didn't believe in the final project sometimes I still did, and now I have come to enjoy your blog, so whatever you write about and no matter how often, I will still be here as I imagine a lot of other people will.
Posted by: Marie A. | June 7, 2005 07:00 PM
First of all, Brad Johnson, welcome! I've been reading this blog for almost three years. It's my homepage, and has been almost ever since I found out about WWDN. You're in for a treat!
Wil- Whew! I was really worried that you were going to pull the plug on WWDN. I should have known better. I have always appreciated your candor and openness here, and I continue to do so even as you say you are going to pull back a little.
Regarding politics, it's about freakin' time, man! With the lack of fair and balanced political newscoverage in mainstream American media, the internet has turned into the only source for any real news. Because of this self-imposed gag order by the corporate media, we all have a responsibility to talk about what the Bush administration is and has been doing. Americans must politicize their thoughts and take action now if they want to avoid another Vietnam, not to mention the continued loss of our personal liberties. Strangely, I find myself a strong supporter of states' rights nowadays.
Wil, I look forward to hearing what you have to say. I hope you get some people to think, just think, about what's going on in our country.
Take care, and continue to get healthy.
Posted by: Keri | June 7, 2005 07:02 PM
Wil:
So glad to see you are feeling better. Everyone must evaluate their priorities from time to time. Sometimes, we do it willingly, and other times, well, we get smacked upside the head. If we're lucky, we can say, "Ah-HA! I get it now." :)
Your honesty, passion, and integrity are only three of the qualities that have lead so many people to follow your work. And we will continue to follow your career because you do have an undeniable talent. Making the changes to your life and career that are necessary only reinforce those qualities which we admire in you. Best of luck!
- MollyB
Posted by: MollyB | June 7, 2005 07:03 PM
Wil,
I'm Glad your feeling better. The most important thing is Your Love... For family, friends, and ever in what you do. Love To You and From you makes the human spirit soar!! Spread your wings! And don't worry about a few ruffled feathers.
I'm new to blogs and found yours interesting to follow thru the archives...sheesh I didn't know you had a book out nevermind 2! I better get on the ball here!!
It's your site Its Your Style DUDE..ITS YOU!
All My Love to You and your family.
(ps. I'm sorry for your recent loss of your belove pet. In your heart never forgotten.)
Posted by: namrog | June 7, 2005 07:07 PM
Glad you're feeling better. Being sick (especially THAT sick), sucks. And I'm going to keep reading. I read your stuff because I think you're an extraordinary person, pretending to be just one of the regularfolks. :)
Posted by: Uriel | June 7, 2005 07:14 PM
More political posts? Right on, it's about friggin' time (even though I don't always agree with their content). Fewer weird creepy stalker types would also be very cool. All in all, I suspect that I will like the changes you implement on your blog (I don't read Dungeon, I'm not a developer, and I usually avoid conventions because of Smelly Gamer Syndrome, so the other things you're cutting out don't really affect me).
Posted by: Kevin M. | June 7, 2005 07:20 PM
Great post, Wil. This post is an excellent example of current practices of blog etiquette and guidelines. Thank you for leading.
Is 'driver 8' a reference to Dale Earnhardt, Jr?
Posted by: applecore | June 7, 2005 07:22 PM
*Enthusiastic and emphatic applause* for the re-focussing; I think you're wise.
Also: Thank you for your decision to be more open with your political opinions. Way too many high-profile people are keeping their disgust and dismay to themselves when we all need to stand up and shout our horrow at what that unelected moron is doing to our world.
Posted by: Marsha M | June 7, 2005 07:25 PM
Wil,
I will miss the family stories, as it has made you more of a "real" person in my eyes, but I am dying to read some of your political rantings.
Go get em' brother, and always, ALWAYS, do what is best for you and your family. Bugger the discontents they suck anyway.
Posted by: Eric | June 7, 2005 07:27 PM
applecore: It's an REM song. It came on while I was writing this post, and I felt it was especially (and eerily) appropriate:
And the train conductor says
"Take a break Driver 8, Driver 8 take a break
We can reach our destination, but we're still a ways away"
But we're still a ways away
Posted by: Wil | June 7, 2005 07:28 PM
I read your blog thru a feed on live journal. This is the first time I have come to your page to comment had to join typekey. I felt it was important enough to do so I could comment. I applaud your bluntness and the desire to refocus your life. I was appalled at the way you described being treated because of having to cancel an engagement because you got mono. I have had mono and it is not fun.
-A new commenter and fairly new reader-
Denise/ Demariana on LJ
Posted by: Demariana | June 7, 2005 07:32 PM
Wil, it's always a good thing to find the important things and focus on them, and put the rest in proper perspective. I'll wager that your physical health will benefit from these adjustments as much as your mental and spiritual health will.
I have one concern, though. After such a well-thought-out and (let's face it) LONG post, you must be exhausted. Be sure and get plenty of rest now so you can be fully charged for your newly prioritized agenda. You still need to take good care of yourself, for your sake and your family's.
Posted by: Dave Westbay | June 7, 2005 07:37 PM
Wil, I have enjoyed your acting, your blog and your books. What I say to myself with remarkable frequency is that I hope you write novels. Your gift for descriptive prose would make nearly anything interesting.
To write well (or really, any creative activity) you need need to do these things. Do them.
Posted by: Byron | June 7, 2005 07:46 PM
Hi Wil,
This was well written, and it makes a lot of sense.
This place and this industry are all about boundaries. Noone is going to set them for you, and whether they show it or not, the way you get respect is to set them and hold them.
Looking forward to reading more, as always. Glad you're feeling better. :)
Cheers,
Liz
Posted by: lizriz | June 7, 2005 07:48 PM
I almost didn't comment because everyone else has said such wonderful things, but then I remembered that it takes like ten compliments to erase one insult and since I don't know what is being emailed directly to you, I decided to err on the side of safety.
While I won't agree with everything you write about politics and don't really care reading about poker, I enjoy your writing. I am glad that you are taking steps to protect yourself. I'm looking forward to reading more stories from you. I don't attend conventions, so it doesn't bother me at all that you aren't going to anymore this year.
Write what you need to write. I know of other WWdN readers who like reading your blog even when they don't agree with you politically. I seriously doubt any of them will stop reading you. You're entitled to your own opinion. Doesn't take much effort to scroll past a rant and you write too much good stuff to let that get in the way.
Also, there are many who do agree with you and that's cool too. We're not the Borg and I personally would be scared to hell if we all thought alike.
Hang in there and get well.
Posted by: MamaSlyth | June 7, 2005 07:51 PM
Best of luck to you Wil. You just need to remember that there are two different versions of Wil... there is a (for want of a better term) product called Wil, and it is supplied by the Person called Wil.
Wil the person has to come first, and only sign up to deliver so much of Wil the product during any time period.
Take the time you need to enjoy your life, and the people in it, and you will probably find that the work stuff is more enjoyable as well.
And I agree with what several others have said, if you feel the need to rant on your (no, I'm not American) president or his policies, then rant away...you have as much of a right to as anybody else.
A long time reader
Posted by: Calishar | June 7, 2005 07:53 PM
hey wil,
i'm happy you're happy with the switch. i love reading your posts. they always brighten my day because i know someone else is enjoying it... or at least seeing something i'm not seeing. while i won't always agree with your political posts (conservative republican and proud!), i always appreciate your point of view. besides, at the very least, maybe a post of something contrary to my opinion will challenge me, make me think about it instead of spouting pure rhetoric as we've all been trained to do. but of course you know that. i'm happy for you, wil, and i'm looking forward to more great and pesonal posts like this one.
Posted by: Lewis | June 7, 2005 07:54 PM
Oh, hey, and for what it's worth, I'm blogging because of you.
I LEARNED BY [reading] YOU!
LOL :D
Posted by: lizriz | June 7, 2005 08:01 PM
Bravo Wil! Sounds like you're back in the driver's seat. All your changes in focus sound wise and welcome - except the part about changing all your local posts to blogging.la. I live behind the Orange Curtain, but was still looking forward to catching one of your performances someday. Of course, someday may be very far away since I would have to convince the hubby to watch the 3 year-old so I could run off to LA and have a night on the town with friends. Ah well.
I really look forward to an increase in political posts, since a post to Daily Kos was what brought me to your blog in the first place, if I remember correctly.
I had to giggle at your description of the Internet freeks and how they latch on. Having been born without the celebrity worship gene that seems rampant in society these days, I find the whole thing, well, weird. I once worked at a store in Beverly Hills, and if I didn't know it when I started, I sure learned quick that celebrities of all kinds are just people, plain and simple. Some are wonderful, and some are c***suckers. So why get excited about a person just because you've seen them 10 feet tall on a screen at the movie theater? I appreciate and enjoy your talent as both a writer and an actor, but it's your perspective on the world and your humanity that I read your blog for.
Hope you find some more time for yourself with all the changes!
Posted by: rachel h | June 7, 2005 08:01 PM
Wil - it's your site, your journal, and your life. Write what you will, maintain your boundaries to keep your focus things that are important in your life, and screw anyone who has an issue with that.
Do what you need to do, and people who don't like it can find someone else to latch on to. In other words, joke 'em if they can't take a fsck.
I'll still be here.
-yet another LJ feed reader
Posted by: Toni | June 7, 2005 08:09 PM
Hey Wil-
I'm rethinking my goals as well. Your post made me think of Naomi Wolf's new book The Treehouse
http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/0743249771/qid=1118199810/sr=8-1/ref=pd_csp_1/102-6644653-1608102?v=glance&s=books&n=507846
which describes the imperative of nurturing each person's unique creative impulse. I think all of your changes will actually strengthen your voice.
Take care.
Posted by: claire | June 7, 2005 08:09 PM
Wil Wheaton,
You have been a role model for me over my years of being a student. It all started with my mother’s obsession of Star Trek The Next Generation. I looked at Wesley Crusher as a young boy like myself striving for excellence. No matter what sacrifices needed to be mad he did what needed to be done when needed to be done. I have strive over the years to do what I could when I could no matter the sacrifice. I’ve realized through reading your blog that you are doing the same. You do what needs to be done when you can do it. Rather that be for your family and friends and the fans who have stuck with you over they years. You Wil Wheaton have also been a role model for me. Though Wesley was a created character you and him both have inspired me to do the things that I’ve done in life along with other role models. I don’t care what decisions you decide to make for the better of yourself and your family because honestly your family come first. Hell Wil some actors wouldn’t even have the courage to stand up and tell his fans what he needs to do for his family. That’s what I admire most about you is your honesty, and ability to talk to everyone instead of some of those actors who walk around like their shit don’t stink and could give a rats ass about the other people. I just want you to know Wil that I will continue you to read your blog because, it not only inspires me but, because it’s fun to read. Do what you have to do Wil. I am sure your true fans understand what you need to do.
Posted by: Siggy | June 7, 2005 08:14 PM
Good for you, Wil. I know it's hard to admit to yourself that you can't do everything. I think you're doing exactly the right things to make you and your family happier and healthier.
I'll keep reading your blog and whatever else you write, as long as you keep writing them.
Posted by: cerebus19 | June 7, 2005 08:15 PM
After that preamble, I expected to hear read some pretty drastic things! Instead I read nothing but completely sensible, logical, and completely understandable things. [thumbs up]
Posted by: Heath Allyn | June 7, 2005 08:18 PM
Well, it's great to see all the support for your future plans - no more than I expected from the "Friends of Wil" who post here. One thing that popped up over and over was the wish to read a full length work of fiction from the mighty Wheaton pen, and I realized I wanted to add my voice (and vote) for that. And if that means blogging less, well I guess I can live with that. Just keep us posted on the general state of your little family (furry members included). You all kinda feel like family now. Not like "Wow, celeb guy" but "Our neighbors across the street, the Wheatons". And I'm sure we ALL feel that way!
Posted by: Momcat | June 7, 2005 08:18 PM
Well, it's great to see all the support for your future plans - no more than I expected from the "Friends of Wil" who post here. One thing that popped up over and over was the wish to read a full length work of fiction from the mighty Wheaton pen, and I realized I wanted to add my voice (and vote) for that. And if that means blogging less, well I guess I can live with that. Just keep us posted on the general state of your little family (furry members included). You all kinda feel like family now. Not like "Wow, celeb guy" but "Our neighbors across the street, the Wheatons". And I'm sure we ALL feel that way!
Posted by: Momcat | June 7, 2005 08:19 PM
Hi Wil,
Long time reader, second time commenter.
They say, and I believe it true, that everything, good or bad, happens for a reason. I wish you didn't get mono, but this has given you the chance to make positive changes in your life that will be for the better. Congratulations!
Write all the attacks on GWB that you want. He has to go, and as a Canadian, I hope it happens. Difficult, but not impossible. He should be impeached and tried for war crimes.
Posted by: Stephen | June 7, 2005 08:33 PM
Wil,
I must admit that I started reading WWdN in large part because I knew who you were beforehand. Wait, that's not entirely true. I started reading because I had seen an actor named Wil Wheaton playing characters with whom I could identify. (I hate to admit just how close I was to the character of Wesley Crusher, though I was not nearly as bright!)
I continued reading not because you were SuperWil, defender of all that is good, but because you are a person who has to deal with many of the same issues as I do. No, I am not an actor/writer, though I did once play an angst-ridden hedge. Rather, I am a married father of two, approaching middle age (38 and holding), and I'll be damned if anyone is going to tell me that they take priority over my family!
You do what you need to do to feel good about yourself. We don't own you. I thank you for sharing your rationale for the changes but, quite frankly, you don't owe us anything. You have already given us something more important: you have shared your life with us.
To quote the great philosopher Viv Savage: "Have a Good Time, All the Time!"
Posted by: Jason | June 7, 2005 08:36 PM
When I was a kid, my dad taught school, went to grad school and served in the National Guard. He did all that to provide for us. What's funny is that I don't remember the "stuff" he provided, I just remember things like...he wasn't home for my 9th birthday. Nor my 11th. The providing thing is important, but being there...really being there in the moment with your wife and kids- that's the payoff.
As for less intimate blogging, well, good for you. I admit that I first wandered in because it was a name I recognized. What I found, however, was something entirely unpretentious and totally cool. I've had a great time reading so far, and I'm sure that the changes aren't gonna make it suck, so don't worry about it. And I'm glad you're feeling better.
Posted by: TheSingah | June 7, 2005 08:38 PM
I'm a long-time reader who has only posted a couple of comments previously.
Wil, I'm very happy to hear about the changes going on in your life. I was shocked to read that some people reacted so disgustingly to your illness, saying that you're unprofessional and the like. Remove them from your life like the festering cancer they are.
I'm also surprised you thought your post would rub some people the wrong way. There are a lot of people who, despite knowing you only through your blog, like and respect you tremendously, including myself. You should never have to feel the need to self-censor here. Everyone has haters and enemies, but know that you have friends here; many of whom you've never met and never will.
I'm overjoyed for you that you're making positive changes in your life and your blog, and I look forward to reading it for years to come.
Posted by: Matt | June 7, 2005 08:39 PM
i am looking forward to whatever new things will soon be happening in this place.
i have wondered for quite some time now how long you would keep WWDN going...i'm pleased to hear it's not ending now...but do i understand the inevitability of change...alot of what you were seeking here you have found...and who knows what direction your heart will point you in the future?...whatever happens...i'd just like to thank you...for sharing with all of us...this documentation of some of the most interesting days of your life...i think the future will be far more interesting than this...all of these troubles that have come before are the cornerstone of whatever future we're bound for...here's hoping your time is well spent...in a way that has meaning for you and your family.
Posted by: d. burr | June 7, 2005 08:42 PM
Hazzah! applause! ovation!!!
HOW are you ever going to know the seeds you plant here? Causual comments played in passing?
For instance, soties you shared about your impact with your step children - influenced me to take on step children (ie highschoolers) for a safety class taught on adult dimentions. For 28 years, only teaching adults, YOUR stories moved to to take a deep breath and accept the challenge offered to make a difference to them in future work environments.
Everything had to be restrucured in the program - everything. They have no work experience to speak of so I speak of events, of losses that are close and personal to them... look for that light in their eye that says they "get it", they'll make a different choice, the sadness of a grief and the trust to share. You planted the seeds that showed me a way to reach that with them. For what they carry forth from my seeds , will they keep an eye? Will They leave a workplace that treats them like one more piece of meat? Will they say something to a friend, a sibling or even a grandparent that will keep an accident from happening? Was it your first story you told? ~ the fifth or tenth that finially put the pieces together for me clearly enough for correct action, which in turn has changed so many other lives that YOU will never know?
Today, I fight with every tool I can find to shift the tide for both my furbabies with cancers, spending evry spare moment with them thanking god for each hourly gift I get and the chance to make a diffence in their lives. More inspired by your own efforts with your furbabies to just try, in the face of the inevidable.
Today, I said to my mentor who just went through cancer surgery, that the only things that mattered were relationships. I gave up a chance to be named nationally recognized trainer to sit with him during the process, something years ago I would have done about anything for. and it doesnt matter - because NOthing is as important as relationships and the moments to cherish them.
Today he said how sad he was that no one from his family was there for him. I asked him - how did they know how to? All these years and he has always given given given and never let anyone give back to him in any meaningful ways.
For example 4 years ago, I was terrified to pay a house bill because Dad had only medicare with no drug coverage. So how could I pay a bill if tomorrow he needed medication that would cost $800 just to stay alive? Lon made work for me to do at home so I could keep an eye on Dad, get some cash, then he would walk the bill though the city (terrible payers - they DONT care) and drive it over to me to deposit that day.
One of the things I had said to him when he shared with me the discover of his tumor, was to ask if he really wanted to live or was this his honorable out. The only thing we really own is our live and I feel stronly that one one else has the right to decide for us when it is enough.(No comments on this necessary, group)
I said that if he was really done, then we could help him live the rest of his limited days the best way he could, but if there was more, then he needed to decide what it was and get off the pot, no more denial! I shared my own insight that at 50 - I have done everything I have ever wanted to do, manifested anything - as an individual. So for the second half, the ONLY thing that would generate interest or passion would be doing this with others, in relationships. (Not that I wouldnt get up each day if I had to wake up, meant people still had to be taught, chores to be done and would be with a smile until released by the guy upstairs).
This was my chance to payback (or on), to help open doors, to show his family how they could come in. But ~
Do you understand that YOUR blog planted the seeds I passed on to him? He got it-hard, he saw it clear - because YOU set the stage - I just stepped into the part~ People dont know how to give, unless you show them how by being willing to recieve, and be willing to ask for needs and desires!
So, Johnnie Appleseed, keep on, keepen on! As my gypsie niece says - "just kick the trash to the curb cause there is plenty of good just Waitin' to come on in!
Ya on de right track and the relationships ya care about are showin ya if ya'll listen! Remember, ya goota breathing in (be receptive) before you can breath out (get active!)
Posted by: Kirimaku | June 7, 2005 08:48 PM
So glad to see you're feeling better. And glad to hear of the positive changes you're making in your life. Although this means slightly less Wil for the WWdN monkeys, it's all good in the long run.
No worries! :D Take care.
Posted by: lomara | June 7, 2005 08:53 PM
Phew. What a load off. I was worried about you, Wil. You were sounding more tired and sick and drained with every post. I hope these major changes will let you become a fulfilled, happy, healthy person again! Your posse is still behind you!
Posted by: Code Pirate | June 7, 2005 08:53 PM
Y'know, Wil, when ST:TNG first came out, I loved it.
I kinda grooved on the fact that I shared a name with one of the characters.
It was only later I found out about the Wesley haters. Fools and ne'er-do-wells, if'n ya ask me.
I've grooved on the blog from the day I discovered it.
Do whatever you have to do to keep yourself in the game. You have a unique and exciting voice as a writer, and you should never let go of that.
And don't back down from the political stuff for one second. It's your right, and we appreciate it.
WF
Posted by: Wes F in Cincinnati | June 7, 2005 08:56 PM
Hey Wil,
It's your blog, do whatever the hell you want.
Though I do like hearing about your cats. Best for you and yours,
Mike
Posted by: Michael B. | June 7, 2005 08:57 PM
Well, everyone has said it before me but I'll add my little voice to the pile.
I haven't commented on a post in forever but I feel moved to comment. I know I keep coming back for the writing and because I respect you as a writer/everything else you are and not because I get a creepy fix. So many of us do. So if you need to pull back somethings because that's best for you then by all means do it. We understand.
Yes, do tell more stories. Not that getting the uber intimate look into your life hasn't been... interesting. But you're right, perhaps sometimes we don't need to know everything. We know you care about the readers/fans. =)
Aw, sad that you aren't doing more conventions this year but we all totally totally understand. Perhaps you'll have to plan a big tour someday. =)
I now go back to general WWdN lurking.
cheers!
Posted by: angie k | June 7, 2005 09:00 PM
We all do what we have to do to get by in this crazy game called life!
Those who "get" it will stay with you and continue to read whatever you decide to share...those who don't?...That is their choice....
I choose to stay...
By the way...glad you are feeling better!
Posted by: rileymom | June 7, 2005 09:03 PM
Wil, you have my complete respect. My wife and I would love to hear you read from your work some day, but by all means do it on your own terms. If that takes a year, or two, or five -- that's just going to mean that you've been able to spend the most important time with family (and by family I include your precious animals and closest true friends), and you will be an even better person for it.
Neil Young may have said "It's better to burn out than to fade away", but the notion of burnout of the last few decades has been much more akin to brutal family-rending overwork that grinds you down to dust. And that's no good; no good at all (to quote Lou Reed).
You'll get nothing but positive vibes from this corner, man.
Posted by: Dan | June 7, 2005 09:03 PM
Just a side comment, really .. I have been enjoying your postings as a lurker for a while now....
~~~~~~~~~~~~
To quote my favorite TV show of all time: "I am not a number, I am a person."
~~~~~~~~~~~~
Actually, the quote was ..
"I am not a number, I am a free man"
I used to love that show. Even though I am a 1963 model, I remember it wasn't until the mid-80's when I ~was allowed to stay up after my bedtime~ to watch the shows. And, I believe it was at something like 3am on CBC LateNight. Naturally, I would stay up to watch each show even though I was recording each episode on .... BETA!
Yah. I'll have to add that DVD to my wish list. Thanks for the suggestion! :-D
Hey! Take care, eh?
HART
Posted by: HART | June 7, 2005 09:03 PM
We're always here for you, Wil. Feel better and do what is necessary for you and your family. We're not going anywhere :-)
Posted by: tim | June 7, 2005 09:07 PM
Well, in the opening of The Prisoner, Number Six yells, "I am not a number, I am a free man!" Number Two asnwers by laughing.
But in the first episode, Arrival, when Number 2 is interrogating Number 6, Number 6 tells him, "I am not a number, I am a person." Right before he says, "I've resigned. I will not be pushed, filed, stamped, briefed, debriefed, or numbered! My life is my own."
Trust me. I'm a über nerd for The Prisoner. I quoted all that from memory. Nyahh.
Posted by: Wil | June 7, 2005 09:12 PM
Hi Wil. I hope you feel better soon. I had mono my first year of university, and it was not much fun. It was the complete opposite of fun, especially falling asleep in classes all the time. I agree that it might be a 'sign' to literally slow down. I'm annoyed that people think you can't get sick or have a private life. Like, wtf. Makes them 'look bad?' Sometimes, people suck.
This is your blog. Write whatever you want. Or post stupid pictures drawn badly. Or stupid pictures of sidewalks or clouds or feet or garbage cans.
It's not necessary to defend how or what you want to write, although I think I understand why you feel defensive ... because the next freakazoid who latches on is going to get it, right? Yeah. Be careful on these here internets. There are some spooky people floating about. Amost every blogger I know has gone through similar drama where some readers get too pushy and expect too much and it gets stupid and/or ugly. Don't explain anything. Be sarcastic. Enjoy writing, as long as it's for you, not for an audience. If people like it, they will come back. If they don't, then whatever. Page hits/comment counts don't matter, at all.
Oh, and enjoy the family, while they are all still at home. I'm sure you'll figure out the angles. I'd say random hug attacks are good for a start.
Take care, and feel better!
Posted by: nalathil | June 7, 2005 09:13 PM
Oh, and I think he may say "indexed" in there, too. And I realize that I misspelled "answers."
But I'm actually having a nice evening, catching up on poker blogs, seeing that Paul Phillips mentioned me in his Live Journal, and watching the Dodgers blow a lead to the Tigers.
The Tigers! For Fuck's Sake!
Posted by: Wil | June 7, 2005 09:15 PM
Well done. Remember to stay strong