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« WFS on KNRK | Main | I see another hurdle approaching » August 27, 2002Reflections- Artificial SweetenerSometimes we know in our bones what we really need to do, but we're afraid to do it. Taking a chance, and stepping beyond the safety of the world we've always known is the only way to grow, though, and without risk there is no reward. Thoughts like this have weighed heavily on me for the last year or so, as I look around and reassess my life. This past year has involved more self-discovery and more change than any so far in my life. It's been tumultuous, scary, exhilarating, depressing, thrilling, joyful. I've realized recently that I have changed dramatically since I started this website. When it began just over a year ago, I was very adrift, terrified that the Internet would tear me apart. Well, it did, and it turns out that was a great thing. The Internet kicked my ass, and it forced me to find strength within myself, and to not derive my sense of self-worth from the opinions of others. This website has introduced me to amazing people, weird people, scary people. This website, and many people who read it, has also helped me figure out what is important to me in my life, what makes me happy. I guess the feeling has been building for a long time, and I knew it was there, but I wasn't willing to acknowledge it. It was --is-- scary. It's a major change in my life, but I can't ignore it, and to ignore it is to ignore myself, and cheat myself out of what I think my real potential is. Back in the middle of May, I was asked to do this commercial. Well, not just a commercial, more of an infomercial, really. My first reaction was, "No way. Infomercials are death to an actor's career." But then I thought about the last few years of my life as an actor. The daily frustrations. Losing jobs for stupid, capricious, unfair reasons. I looked back and saw that it really started when my friend Roger promised me a role in Rules of Attraction, then yanked it away from me without so much as a phonecall or email or anything. Then there was the roller coaster of Win Ben Stein's Money, and missing family vacations so I could stay home and go on auditions that all ended up being a huge waste of my time. Throughout this time, this painful, frustrating Trial, I began to write more and more. It's all here on WWDN. I can see my writing style change, as I find my voice, and figure out what I want to say, and how I want to say it. The emails changed, too. People stopped asking me to do interviews for them about Star Trek, and started asking me if I'd conrtibute to their magazines, or weblogs, or books. When this phonecall came for the infomercial, I took a long walk, and assessed my life. The bottom line was: They were offering to pay me enough to support my family for the rest of this year. I wouldn't have to worry about bills anymore. I wouldn't have to view each audition as This One Big Chance That I Can't Screw Up. Accepting it would mean some security for me and my family. It was also a really cool computer-oriented product (which I'll get to later, don't worry). It's not like I would be hawking "The Ab-Master 5000" or "Miracle Stain Transmogrifier X!" It would also mean, to me at least, the end of any chance I had of ever being a really major actor again. That elusive chance to do a film as good as, or better than Stand By Me or a TV series as widely-watched as TNG would finally fall away. I thought of all these things, walking Ferris through my neighborhood. It was a long walk. I thought of Donald Crowhurst. I thought about why actors --and by actors I mean working, struggling actors like myself, not Big Time Celebrities like I was 15 years ago-- suffer the indignities of auditions and the whims of Hollywood. I remembered something I said to a group of Drama students just before their graduation: "If you want to be a professional actor, you have to love the acting, the performing, the thrill of creating a character and giving it life. You have to love all of that more than you hate how unfair the industry is, more than the constant rejection --and it is constant-- hurts. You must have a passion within you that makes it worthwhile to struggle for years while pretty boys and pretty girls take your parts away from you again and again and again." I listened to my words, echoing off the linoleum floor of that High School auditorium, and realized that those words, spoken long ago were as much for me as they were for them. I listened to my words and I realized: I don't have that passion any more. I simply isn't there. I am no longer willing to miss a family vacation, or a birthday, or a recital, for an audition. I am no longer willing to humiliate myself for some casting director who refuses to accept the fact that I'm pretty good with comedy. I am no longer willing to ignore what I'm best at, and what I love the most, because I've spent the bulk of my life trying to succeed at something else. So I walked back to my house, picked up the phone, and accepted the offer. It was tumultuous, scary, exhilarating, depressing, thrilling, joyful. I would spend the next three weeks wondering if I'd made the right decision. I would question and doubt it over and over again. Was it the right decision? I don't know. Things have certainly changed for me, though. I have had 3 auditions since May. A year ago that would have killed me, but I'm really not bothered by it now. I've made my family my top priority, and decided to focus on what I love: downloading porn. Just kidding. I've decided to focus on what I really love, what is fulfilling, maybe even what I am meant to do, in the great cosmic sense: I am writing. I write every day, and I see the faint outlines of something really cool. I occasionally catch glimpses of an ability, unrefined, long-ignored, coming to life. Sometimes we know in our bones what we really need to do, but we're afraid to do it. Taking a chance, and stepping beyond the safety of the world we've always known is the only way to grow, though, and without risk there is no reward. Risk was always one of my favorite games. Tomorrow: Why Creation Cut Me From The 15th Anniversary of TNG Convention, and Why It's a Good Thing. Comments
Sounds like a good choice. You get the money you need and the freedom to do what you want! Wow! That was inspiring. Go for it! Posted by: LN at August 27, 2002 09:31 AMWELL SAID, WIL!! I wish I was as brave as you to take that leap and "risk everything" (seeing here in NY there's NOTHING, but I'm just a coward) --- I'd really like to hear some of your "hobo" stories --- I read on your site you rode the rails for a while? What the world needs is a really twisted set of changes... where's Q when you need him ;) Posted by: The Silent Strider at August 27, 2002 09:32 AM
Wow. Excellent thoughts. Thank you for sharing them. You aren't the only one going through a reassessment and resettling of priorities right now. Thanks for putting into words some thoughts that have been sitting on MY mental back burner for some time now! Posted by: spacewriter at August 27, 2002 09:32 AM Wil, I've been reading this weblog for a couple of months now, and I've got to tell you that I have tremendous respect for you. The internet is an amazing thing - thanks for writing. Wow, you've got me hooked. I need to see that informercial! How come you get all the cool, free stuff! Argh...sounds like you have been doing a lot of self reflection. Can be depressing, but good. Seems like life sometimes takes you in many directions. You just have to go with it & make the best decisions for you & your family. I know this sounds extremely cliche but it does all work out in the end & I believe things happen for a reason. Hope you find a lot of cool, super freaky porn. I think besides web journals that's the second most interesting thing. Posted by: Eyeno at August 27, 2002 09:35 AMwow, big stuff Wil. Stay centered. keep working on the spiritual Wil. He see you through it all. ALoha Posted by: Mikaele at August 27, 2002 09:38 AMDamn, I need an offer like that! Good luck, Wil! Posted by: Rich at August 27, 2002 09:38 AMGood luck to you Wil. I hated Wesley when you were on TNG, but you, Wil, are a beautiful person. Godspeed. Posted by: raven at August 27, 2002 09:41 AMBeing able to play someone else is called acting; being able to be yourself is an art. Posted by: Lynn at August 27, 2002 09:41 AMPS - I, for one, am very interested in reading what you're going to write. Let 'er rip. Wil, It seems like you've found what is truly important. As we all grow older, our lives change as do our perspectives. Remember, you'll always have your talents. The door is never closed. It is never disgraceful to find work to support yourself and your family. The key word is integrity. It defines the measure of a man. You have it. Posted by: A friend at August 27, 2002 09:46 AMThat was a very inspiring piece.I just let my cigarette burn that whole time I was reading it!(I know bad for my health)When will I see a Novel that you will write? Yes I know you are an wonderful actor but when will I see your beautiful words come out in an inspiring book! Most people form there books on other books EVERYONE has seen before...but you have that ability to do MORE from that! You are inspiring! I am not saying to write a book from your life(which is quite interesting) I am saying to write a BOOK period about anything! Good luck to you! Posted by: Candace at August 27, 2002 09:47 AMHoly crap! Wil's life is beginning to parallel the life of the writer at the end of Stand by Me. Will, whenever your first published work comes out, I am buying ten copies. Guaranteed. Your web site is a great testament to your talent, and a welcome read to me everyday. My wife thinks I am weird, but poopy on her. Peace and love from the Philadelphia Contigent, Leo Romero I've been reading your site since you were on Weakest Link. I think I've seen your writing change as well, and I like it very much recently. More than once I've told friends and family members to read your latest entry. I lauged out loud at the downloading porn joke, and the last line is perfect. Good luck. Posted by: Carlos at August 27, 2002 09:52 AMWil, sounds like you are on your way. As for never having a big acting job again, I say Bull. As an example look at John Travolta. And I am dying to know why Creation turfed you. I was quite excited for you when I saw you listed. I am going through exactly what you have gone through with regards to career choices. The only difference is I don't have a dog. But I have a family and they are the number one priority too, but before I do anything rash I want to make sure they are taken care of. So, best of luck Wil. Success is what you want it to be. Posted by: Nyarl at August 27, 2002 09:52 AMwell, good luck wil. Hope it all works out well. You can still do comedy (downloading porn! lol, i really thought you meant it!) i take it there is some more news to come (hence the counting down in the forum). good luck wil. J Posted by: FatJustinB at August 27, 2002 09:52 AMI like the post. Business is like dating, if you go for it with the feeling that 'this is that Big One that my life hangs on' it has that smell of deperation that turns people off. I've had worse problems, than not getting work - getting it and getting scewed because I was too deperate and I only got work with people who were looking to for someone they could mess with.. At times, I've been forced to find work outside my chosen profession so I could be more objective and less suseptable to those sorts. You seem to be finding your strength, which means the future will always be wide open. I still say, I hope to see someday: Wil Wheaton's Politics Zone (or some other name for a PI knock off) Your pilot show could have Michael Moore, Tom Tomorrow, a Buckley and Ann Coulter and the audience would be stacked with your posse. :-) Posted by: that's cool at August 27, 2002 09:54 AMHoney, it hurts to hear you say you are no longer interested in acting since you are so fucking GOOD at it. I've always maintained that you were one of the best actors I'd ever seen, and I haven't even SEEN "Stand By Me." But I'm at a similar place in my life where I'm really wondering why I continue to do things that are hard. Okay, that's not the right way to put it, but it's complicated. When you are reading and doing math at the high school level in first grade, you sort of are expected to do science. I've got an MS in Physics that I wish I didn't have. Oh, it's fun, but I would have been a lot happier in archaeology or something "softer" like that. But when you're Smart™, you do Science™. Hence, I got stuck doing something I didn't like for a long time. Doesn't matter that I'm good at it -- I DON'T FUCKING LIKE IT. And here I am learning how to read hieroglyphs out of the Gardiner Grammar and the deBuck reader at 36. You're a fantastic actor -- but go do what you love. Do what you want to do. Be what you are, honey, and live a wonderful life while you do it. Posted by: Janis Cortese at August 27, 2002 10:01 AMGood for you! I have been visiting you website for the past year. I have enjoyed not only you stories and insight, buy I have enjoyed watching you grow as a writer. You have evolved from a "today I will do..." type of entry, to an insightful glimpse into you soul. Very brave. And making any carreer change takes alot of guts too. I am currently an an art director, but am in the process of starting my own business. Check out my website and let me know if you would like me to illustrate anything for you. Amazing piece today. Your take is that an infommercial is the death of your acting career; most of us are sitting here thinking "Yay! We get to see Wil on TV!" Transitions are wonderful things; scary as hell, but wonderful. Priorities shift. Important things come into focus. Family, life, love... So maybe you won't be That Actor again. Maybe you will, at some point. But there's all those possibilities out there - your comedy, your growing tech skills, and dammit, if you don't write a book, you're depriving the world of a truly wonderful writing voice. Who knows, buy the time you write it maybe I'll have my publishing company up and running. I'll give ya top royalties. Honest I will ;) Posted by: Thumper at August 27, 2002 10:04 AMAyo, More power to ya, buddy. Posted by: Courtney at August 27, 2002 10:06 AMWelcome to thirty, Wheaton! That glorious age of life reassessment, questions and the search for answers. It's called growing up. =o) It sounds to me like you've gone through what about 95% of artists of any kind go through, the big "realization" that you've peaked. (Now, I say this sincerely hoping that you HAVEN'T and that Wesley Crusher, Borg Queen will one day be a major motion picture for you) It's that realization that ballplayers have that they're never gonna be Derek Jeter or Terry Bradshaw or Larry Bird or Wayne Gretzsky. Or the artist who realizes that they are never gonna be Andy Warhol, or the writer who will never be Poe or even Stephen King, the musician who will never be Bob Dylan or Public Enemy. Or the actor who realizes he will never be Tom Cruise. Then it all boils down to one thing. How much do you love it? And in most cases, I think you'll find people making the same decisions you did. Family matters more. Friends. So you look to be able to make money, ANY amount of money doing something you love. Just to justify it. Ball players go to the minors, or coach. Artists teach art. Writers freelance articles, or maybe write just for themselves and their friends. Or, perhaps, like a friend of ours, they become a playwright. Me, I'm a musician. I gave up on the dream of "making it" about three years ago. But, now I play almost every weekend in a mostly cover band. I make pretty decent money doing this. It is helping to support my family while my wife is interning this year. You (quite rightly) took an acting gig to help support your family. You're making money doing something you love. Now, some people (mostly, those who haven't gotten to 30 yet, I assume) might say, "Hey Wheaton, you sold out, you bitch!" Hell, I've had people say that to me about being in a cover band. But you know what? Fuck'em. If they don't want you to sell out, tell THEM to paying your frikkin' bills. You're doing something you enjoy and you're getting PAID to do it. This is a dream to most people! Anyone with a problem with you doing so, is probably jealous. And real quick, I've noticed something about the big "realization..." It has an odd way of making things happen. In the last two years, my band has recorded two cds (one covers and one all original), gotten gigs in Hoboken (the hottest town for bands to play in in Jersey), AND been played on the radio. I decided to "grow up" and stop chasing the brass ring, and oddly enough, in a small way, it instead rolled right on up to me. I may never be a big rock star, but I am already further along than I ever dreamed. Maybe, in making the same decision, the same will happen to you, Wil. Anyway you slice it, you got a pretty loyal bunch of us who will come on out and see whatever you DO appear in. Peace, dude! Posted by: Potch at August 27, 2002 10:09 AMWhatever happens, YOU finally made a choice. You grabbed life by the balls and that takes courage. It's not about letting yourself float with the whims of anyone else's expectations. Your writing voice has been maturating more and more with each post you make. It's as if you are growing up. You "Get It". You Fucking "GET IT"!! Man that is worth so much. Some people NEVER "GET IT". You are a wonderful writer with a voice that is intelligent, reasonable and funny. I can't wait to see what you continue to create. The path that is before you is being decided everyday by these choices you make. I'm glad to see you are ready to handle it. I'm glad you "get it". Don't lose it, YOU OWN IT!! FUCKING RAWK ON WIL!!!!!!!! You should watch Cher: Behind the Music. She did that one infomercial and people made fun of her for awhile but now she is back and cool again or something! So it may not necessarily be the Kiss of Death (tm). However, it sounds like even if it is, you have found something awesome to do instead so who cares about Cher. Oh but if you watched the Suzanne Sommers biography, you should learn from her that even if people will make fun of you, if you get the infomercial people to make you a partial owner of the product like she did with ThighMaster, you can get all rich if it gets huge like she did. I watch too much TV. Way to go, Wil! Posted by: Leah at August 27, 2002 10:12 AMWith age comes wisdom, someone once wrote. And everyone eventually must be forced to review their life; where they've been and where are they going. I've been reading this site on and off for the last few months, though I've only recently added my voice to this site. And Wil you appear to have discovered that the key to life is not money and parties. Life is, and always, has been family. Do WHAT you want to do, but never give up your soul to get it. Hollywood has a history of using people, and the only ones who've stayed on top, are the ones who know how to say yes (which explains Brannon Braga's career as a writer for Trek. Yes, master Viacom). Wil, you have proven to us -your fans and friends -that you have more humanity and compassion than most who entertain us. Please continue to shine. Please continue to love your family. Please continue to write and above all, please continue to act when you want too. But don't ever do something that will take your soul away. The 30's will be better for you than the 20's. Peace, EM Posted by: Electric Monk at August 27, 2002 10:14 AMWIL!!! You don't have to change your entire life direction because you are doing an infomercial. look at some of the schtick travolta has done and he made a huge comeback. you can't keep walking on eggshells afraid to destroy your career at every turn. i think writing is great, but what makes your writing so interesting is your pop-culture-icon status and your ability to twist that into something so real and honest people are compelled to listen to you. i hope you continue to audition and pursue acting because you have so much invested in it, and it's such a big part of who you are. nothing that comes easy is ever worth having (and other trite-yet-true cliches). and, i saw you on tech tv and you were really funny. by the way that picture of you on the walk a thon page, is that supposed to be a joke? it's kind of a wil-wheaton-caricature-photo. you looked way WAY better on tech tv with your hair kinda spikey. Wil becomes the next Cher: The New Wil Wheaton Grill! It is great that you took the job; just dont give up on your comedy or Arena; if its not seducing Faye Dunaway, fine. Posted by: ze-mag at August 27, 2002 10:18 AMIs it the George Foreman Grill? Do tell... Posted by: Woody at August 27, 2002 10:23 AMWil, Congrats on getting a gig that will not only support your family, but your healty writing habit. I suspect your best stuff is gonna come out of you this year. Posted by: Rob Matsushita at August 27, 2002 10:26 AMChange is difficult, yet necessary. Good to see you've found Wil Wheaton 3.0. I'll bet it's a significant improvement over 1.5 and even 2.0. :-) Posted by: MrsVeteran at August 27, 2002 10:28 AMWil, "It's all here on WWDN. I can see my writing style change, as I find my voice, and figure out what I want to say, and how I want to say it. The emails changed, too." Yeah. But back when you started WWDN, you actually responded to them. Oh, don't get me wrong; I understand that you do get so much email that you literally don't have the time to answer even a fraction of the ones you receive. At least not if you want to have a life away from the computer. But if someone offers you something, and you take the time to go look at it on their Web site, would it kill you just to write back a "No thanks" if you weren't interested? Instead of leaving the person hanging there, KNOWING (thanks to referrer logs) that you read the email and looked at what was being offered, but getting no reply? Wondering if perhaps you thought you were too good to send a measly two-word answer? What Would Darin Say? Posted by: John Small Berries at August 27, 2002 10:31 AMUpon reflection, I don't see why an infomercial means the end of the Big Time. Infomercials have helped re-ignite a lot of once-great careers. What about Suzanne Somm.. err, Chuck Nor... no wait... Christie Brink... umm, there's gotta be somebody. Victoria Principle? No, that's not it... Victoria Jackson! That's the one. What was the question again? Posted by: Woody at August 27, 2002 10:33 AMOh, shit. I better start sending out stories, huh? Damn, Wil, you should get some gigs as an inspirational speaker. Posted by: Harley at August 27, 2002 10:34 AMDo you think you can get some of that honesty in there? "Hi! I'm Wil Wheaton and I'm here to tell you about this great new product because they pay me well!" "When I tried the product I thought: Hey this is great! Now it's gathering dust in the closet. Only used it once!" Just kidding! What even balences the checkbook. I'm one of those quiet ones who comes and reads and goes about the day without commenting on much around here, but I have to add something to this. The first thing that came to me when I read this was Why be an actor, forced to play someone else's creation with someone else's words when you have so much to say on your own. I don't know if that makes sense or not, but it's what I thought. You have experienced things that most people will never have the oportunity to do, and dealt with the good and bad as a result. It's those combined actions and reactions that have made you who you are now. Personally, I would rather read about what you did on your time off because I know the words and the feelings behind them are yours, and they mean alot more in the long run. You have a great gift in your writing, and yes I've been around long enough to see it change. The beauty of it is that it is yours totally. You have created something that no one else could have, and captured a unique view that is all your own. Go with it, enjoy family time and doing what you love, because it is the most important part of life. Posted by: elfchick at August 27, 2002 10:42 AMWhen I first started reading this entry, I thought that perhaps the Big Decision was going to be to take down the website. I was a little worried there for a few. Not only was I glad to see you're *not* taking down your site, but you're following your true passion for your family. Thirty-ish is that Saturn Return time and we all go through that period of reassessment. Change is scary but good. Best of luck to you. Posted by: sandra at August 27, 2002 10:45 AMCongratulations Wil on the way you came to your choice. When I was young,a very old and wise lady gave a very precious piece of wisdom,which I have held onto to this day. The wisdom is this... "NEVER MAKE A LIFE CHANGING [ALTERING] DECISION Im glad to see you take a season of time to decide whats best for your family and you. Posted by: redrhinox at August 27, 2002 10:46 AMFine piece o' writing today. Do what makes you happy. You harm no one, and help the ones who mean the world to you. (If DTG ever gets back to me, we wouldn't be discussing auditions, we could be discussing working around your schedule) Whatever you do, you'll do it with your whole heart, and that is always it's own reward. Enjoy it. Posted by: Radiate at August 27, 2002 10:48 AM"Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness, concerning all acts of initiative (and creation). There is one elementary truth the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too, all sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occured. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favour all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now."
avoiding doing this infomercial out of actors pride would benifit no one...especially you...you having a comics mind have no doubt lampooned...at least in your mind, informercials...(set it and forget it!)...but somebody's gotta do it...and it may as well be you...and alot of the major stars outh there now have done commercials...who knows what might happen if you deliver results with your informercial!...but if you wanna be a writer...write on!...today's as good a day as any to really commit yourself to this course. Posted by: d. burr at August 27, 2002 10:52 AMLike many others who have commented today, I have been reading your site for quite a while now - arrived at it by one of those internet coincidences and decided to stay. It has been interesting to see the changes in Wil Wheaton, at least those reflected in his writing, but it seems that today's post reflects the feelings that many people refuse to acknowledge - we are not here forever and need to make the most of what we've got, without wondering whether the grass really is greener. I spent many of my formative years [dim and distant memory now] thinking 'Next time I'll ...'; but had a sudden realisation that this is it - 'Life is not a rehearsal' as they say. I haven't needed to make any major changes to my life [tedious but steady employment] simply a change of attitude. So what if I didn't do it right - at least I did it. Keep smiling Wil - you've just reached the Undiscovered Country. So you've finally figured out that you're a damn good writer eh? It is not possible to write as well as you do without loving it. We've known it for quite awhile - good luck with your future endeavors. -Rook I don't know why exactly (of course I do, but I can't find the words), but I've been reduced to tears with this one. Good luck, Wil. Christy Posted by: christy at August 27, 2002 11:11 AMHello I live in Italy. Here such stars as Harrison Ford and Robert De Niro usually do commercials as long as they are not broadcast outside good old Europe. It's a risk you will have to take. You do need to support you and your family, and that is the main thing. So what if it stalls your career. You have other skills besides acting (downloading porn). Hell Cher did those hair spray comercials, and she came back. You will to. SAG President M Gilbert has done them, why cant you. Maybe you will become king of the movies of the week. Posted by: Terry at August 27, 2002 11:14 AMI trust you - do what you have to do for your family and the rest will take care of itself. Donald Crowhurst!!! Yess!!! Voyage for Madmen was a great book and the reference actually applies. Good Luck, I think you are more a Bernard Moitessier type guy myself. Posted by: John B. at August 27, 2002 11:17 AM"This above all; to thine own self be true."
When we walk to the edge There will be something -Patrick Overton Posted by: the 101st monkey at August 27, 2002 11:18 AMThat's exciting news! I'm just at the rumbly beginnings of that kind of change (just a smell in the wind, but persistent), so I understand the fear and the elation. As always, I wish you the absolute very best in your endeavours. Screw Shatner; you're a farkin' hero. :) (P.S. But let's not be hasty and stop downloading pr0n. One step at a time 'n whatnot.) Posted by: Gwalchmai at August 27, 2002 11:26 AMDo you like this infomercial product? If so, take a look at what's happening here: Somebody wants to give you a LOT OF MONEY to be HONEST on TELEVISION. Breaking it down: Making money = good DOING INFOMERCIAL = Danged good. When I see Tony Little at 3 a.m., he always looks like he's having the time of his life, and damn the torpedoes. Tally ho infomercial! Posted by: Matthew Shepherd at August 27, 2002 11:26 AMWil, F.G. Posted by: Fabian at August 27, 2002 11:28 AMWil, Re writing: Go for it! and whatever you come up with count me amoung those who will buy multiple copies. Re life change: I hope that I have as much guts as you do when I make my own choice. Re Infomercial: That's a great opportunity, do want to need to do to be able to enjoy life and relax with your family. Re Acting: I will be sad if you don't do it anymore, but hey it's your life and you've already shared so much of yourself with us by your previous roles and by creating this site. p.s. Please tell us you'll keep up the comedy, it sounds like you are really good at it. Posted by: Gaea at August 27, 2002 11:31 AMYou should totally put a book together (if you're not already). Look at all these people who are dying to read it! And look at Ethan Hawke. He's got two books out, and you're way funnier than he is .... Posted by: Secret Agent Dragonfly at August 27, 2002 11:34 AMWow. I applaud you Wil Wheaton. I love you as an actor, but the past 7 months or so, I've come to enjoy you even more as a writer. You have an amazing talent, whether you're writing seriously or writing satirically. I look forward to seeing more and more from you. As for the infomercial - good for you. As long as they don't make you wear one of those Cosby sweaters and act all excited like the Orange Glo guy. Again, congrats on this decision. I think it's been a long time coming (well, from what I've been reading on your site). I'm a firm believer in the idea that things happen for a reason and that the universe doesn't give us more than we can handle. And when you're ready for it, watch out world, here comes Wil Wheaton! Posted by: Sarcastic Cheese at August 27, 2002 11:35 AMWil, To be able to come here and learn about the real you and know that you have fears, doubts, and joys just like the rest of us is so cool. The real deal is so much better than glossy Hollywood. Good luck with your commericals. They don't have to signal the end of your acting career. So many people have made comebacks that I never thought would and they don't have half your talent. I hope your writing career takes off. You definitely have a gift. Posted by: Ness at August 27, 2002 11:38 AMI've been reading your weblog for a couple of months, and I have really enjoyed it. I seem to have many of the same opinions and tastes as you, so that helps keep me interested. You seem to be a person of integrity; a person who really tries to do the right thing, and I respect that. I also think you're a realist - you aren't afraid of the truth. No great artist ever became great without struggle. I have to tell you - the infomercial is going to kill your legitimate acting career. It's not a sure thing, but it's pretty likely. But that's NO REASON TO QUIT. Keep trying. Keep going to the auditions. I can't tell you how many stories I've heard of actors or writers being rejected time and time again, only to FINALLY get their break. I'm sure you've heard the same. Keep fighting the good fight. You have a lot of people who like you and are willing to support you. For now, you've done what you had to do, and that's understandable. Maybe you've hit bottom in your career. But there's only one way to go when you're on the bottom. And the harder you work, the faster it will go. Best of luck. Posted by: Carl at August 27, 2002 11:40 AMJohn B said: "Donald Crowhurst!!! Yess!!! Voyage for Madmen was a great book and the reference actually applies. Good Luck, I think you are more a Bernard Moitessier type guy myself." When I started reading that book, I wanted to be Robin Knox-Johnston. As the book unfolded, I realized that I was at a crossroads in my life, and I could be Donald Crowhurst, or Bernard Moitessier. Hence, the decision was made. My heart aches for Donald Crowhurst. I *know* him. Wil, As a Trekkie (and damnit I can't help but be one) I am reminded of the episode The Measure Of A Man Take care Wil, and do not get discouraged you will be just fine. Until your next post...... Matt...... Posted by: Matt at August 27, 2002 11:48 AMA very brave, but wise choice! *Good Luck with this new direction you have chosen* Posted by: Nephratari at August 27, 2002 11:49 AMSounds like you made a good choice. You've done pretty well - you're happy, you enjoy what you're doing, and you're not starving or struggling. It beats being dead like River Phoenix or burned out like Corey Feldman. If you like doing comedy, maybe you should work on a stand-up routine. If it does well, it could be your way back to a TV series :) Posted by: Mike C at August 27, 2002 11:50 AMI now have a little tear in my eye from reading that last post. It's so nice to see you finally acknowledging what a wonderful writer you are. You ever write a book, Wil, and I swear, I'll be first in line at the local Borders to buy five or six hundred copies. Posted by: Caroline at August 27, 2002 11:56 AMWil, I don't think that doing an informercial will be the end of your acting career. I mean CHER even did one ... and look where SHE is today, STILL a Mega star. You NEVER know what life will bring you around the very next corner. It COULD be a movie like the one that restarted John Travolta's career a few years back, and it COULD be because someone SAW you in the Informercial that you get that part in a turn around movie.
I mean you were part of the show for at least 4 years! Sheesh! Posted by: Cincygal at August 27, 2002 11:59 AMI've been reading WWDN for several months now, and I too have seen the change or evolution of your thinking and this post really hit home. I, at the age of 32 and nearing a crossroad of my career, have been asking similar questions. Priorities need re-evaluation from time to time. Family, spirituality, self, job, money, all these things need to fall into the proper order. I believe that God is with me in my search for answers as long as I don't exclude Him, and everything will work out according to His plan. Wil, YOU GO GIRL^H^H^H^H WIL! Posted by: Craig at August 27, 2002 12:04 PM"...decided to focus on what I love: downloading porn. Anyone else think he wasn't kidding? We know you too well now, Wil. ;) But seriously, you're not the only one who's noticed and been impressed by the changes your blog has documented. I'm glad we've all been able to do our little bit here to encourage you. You've had some *amazing* experiences and there are loads of people out there who are really interested in seeing how they've affected your view of the world. The people who come to realise what you've realised are by far the happiest. Okay, they'll never become multi-millionaires, but who said money buys you happiness? Attaboy, Wil! Posted by: NickW at August 27, 2002 12:05 PMGood for you! I'm happy for you that you've reached that pointin your life where you can re-assess... realize that something needs to change... and go for the change without really looking back. Change can be a scary thing, especially if it involves letting go of something that's been a part of your life for a very long time. Take it and run with it! Posted by: kendoka at August 27, 2002 12:05 PMRight there with you man. I went through a similar period a couple of years ago in my own life when trying to determine whether I should take an offer leading to BIG TIME CAREER in software R&D. I ended up moving to the country in small town USA, took a job option that balanced personal time and set out to becoming my family's hero. Best choice I ever made. Because when you come down to it, who are you really trying to prove yourself to? Posted by: breid at August 27, 2002 12:14 PMI really wish I could do what your doing. It's not out of lack of trying but I jut can not find the sort of job I want to do in the location I want, I'll keep on trying though. As long as I breathe in my body I won't give up. Well done on being able to follow your heart, there should be more people like you in the world. Posted by: Beastly Spike at August 27, 2002 12:17 PMNote to self: Take more risks. I know that personally I have never put myself out there as much as you have. I'm very happy for you! Posted by: belinda at August 27, 2002 12:21 PMWil;(I'm sorry this is so long but I just had to share this with you.) I have so been there done that. When I was 28 I had a major wake up call. I had been living in L.A. for about 8 months (this time around anyway...) trying to make the whole acting thing happen (again...) when I knew I was facing The Big Decision i.e. what do I want to be when (if) I grow up? Anyway, I was living in some crap apartment in West Hollywood and working at The Argyle hotel on Sunset and the whole thing was making me miserable. I made some ludicrous salary of ten bucks an hour, had no couch, a T.V. that sat on the living room floor and slept on a box spring while my roommate and I took turns sleeping on the mattress. Things were sucking big time. All day long at work I catered to people like Matt Dillon, Cameron Diaz or even the illustrious Scott Baio (no comment) and I was starting to resent them. There they were asking me to make them reservations to House of Blues when I was too poor to see a movie. I couldn't even think of acting because I was too busy making pennies to pay for my crap apartment. I never had time to audition for anything. Such is the rat race of a struggling actor in L.A. I was really having a crisis. I was so far away from who and where I wanted to be and I wasn't getting any younger. Then it hit me. I wasn't getting any younger!! I had a friend who was 45 at the time. She was still living in a Beverly Hills studio apartment, taking a bus to work production jobs and getting stabbed in the back by younger, prettier versions of herself. She was still struggling after 27 years in L.A. But she would never leave , never quit acting. Man, she loved it! Anytime a role, or production job came her way this woman lit up like a Christmas tree. God, she become so happy. I knew she loved it more than couches, or T.V. stands, or vacations to see family back home. And I knew I didn't. I wanted a damn bed with a mattress AND box spring more than I wanted to stay and struggle for what might never happen. I knew I couldn’t guarantee I’d "make it" as an actress or even a stupid P.A. but I could guarantee I'd be 45 years old someday. I also knew I didn't want to be 45 and live the life my friend was living. It wasn't enough for me. It just wasn't in my blood anymore and whatever love I’d had for the craft was not enough to keep me in that life. I went home within a week. I remember driving over the Rocky Mountains almost back to Denver thinking about the choice I had made. To be honest I freaked a bit. I started thinking "Oh, my God, I'm not an actor anymore. What am I now?" Then I remembered my first love; writing, and I felt safe again. The panic attack stopped immediately and I no longer thought of the dream I was leaving behind. I focused only on writing. The dream I was coming home to. It was a tough decision but I have a couch, and a few small writing successes here and there. And an art form I love enough to keep practicing. One that doesn't require sacrificing my entire life like acting did and I'm happy and you will be too. There is nothing wrong with your decision. If you don't have the love and commitment anymore you'd just end up soulless and miserable. Acting demands all or nothing and allows no room for those of us who want families, vacations or even couches. Congratulations, Wil and best of luck. wil, Wow, EVERYBODY on the WHOLE INTERNET is behind you in this! Infomercials are frikkin' AWESOME! I can't WAIT to see your face at 2 AM talking EXUBERANTLY for half an hour about some overpriced doohickey! Yay! People are comparing you to CHER! Career high! I'm proud to be the sole negative comment in this touchy-feely craptasticon. You sold out for money. If you're ok with it, I'm ok with it, but wrapping it in sentimentality and introspection just adds another flavor of reek to the stink of maudlinity that all-too-often infests your writing. I dig your stuff on Arena, and loved Stand By Me, and you got to make out with Ashley Judd so good for you, but this post and the comments above are making me nauseous. Posted by: A1phab3t at August 27, 2002 12:26 PMFor a select few, as they grow old, they gain wisdom. I would have to say your are in that group. For an even more select few, life is more than just going to work, making money, taking out the trash and making decisions about what bill's get paid. Its an adventure and an experience not to be taken for granted. I think you are starting to see life for what it really is. Decisions we make sometimes lead to either success,or education, not failure. Posted by: Chris at August 27, 2002 12:37 PMMr Wheaton: My post is going to be way way way down the list, but here goes: You've hit a patch of illumination, congrats. 23. Could be the right move - look what giving up acting did for Ron Howard. You write well, so maybe you should incorporate it into your profession. Write a part YOU want to play and then just do it yourself. That's how musicians get out of gawdawful cover bands and away from playing weddings, bar mitzvahs, bris' (how do you pluralize THAT word), frat parties (although the free beer is kinda kool) and biker bars. This one I know personally. Well, sort of, but I'm older and have already made that leap myself (and don't you just LOOOOOOVE advice from older schmucks - egads, I'm going to be 40 in a few years!).... Once you make that decision (which it seems you have) jump in with both feet and leave the life preserver for Kate Winslet. And don't look back, baby, never look back. And informercials aren't so bad really. And quite frankly, as the days go by I'd rather look at you than Suzanne Sommers. But most of all, do what almost everyone up there has said - do what you want to do, for whom it matters, and screw everyone else (let's put THAT at the end of the Pledge of Allegience). Majority rule telling you to be yourself - I like that. By the way, love the pimp suit (posting from a while ago with a photo. very cool). If you really don't give a damn anymore wear that to your next audition that you know is between you "and one other" guy. End result might still be the same but you might have more fun. Okay, I'm an ass for writing that previous paragraph, but I've adjusted to it. Enjoy life Wil! That's job number one. Everything else is just background noise. Posted by: animeraider at August 27, 2002 12:44 PMHeya Wil, Long time reader, infrequent poster. Well, I can't speak for anyone else, but by seeing the bits of yourself you've seen fit to share with us, I can say that I at least do not find this at all surprising. I mean, your posts have moved from "damnit, I need this part!" to "I've just started this writing gig--ain't that rich?" to "I just finished some killer writing--I can't wait to show it off". And all the while expounding of the joys of your increased family time. I mean, really--it's fantastic! My advice to the dear reader--do what you love. Don't get stuck doing things you hate. You have control over your life, and if you're doing something that's no fun because you always have, you should probably take another look. Hey--you only live once and you have an astonishing amount of control over your destiny. Thanks for the read, Wil. -Rich Posted by: Rich at August 27, 2002 12:48 PMIt is disturbing to read these posts and find so many people saying "Gee, Wil, I'm at the same crossroads you are." I don't think you people really are. I think that most of you are kissing Wil's ass. When was the last time any of you were invited to be part of an informercial? Or, what was the last major movie your were in? And, who kicked Barney's ass at an event hundreds of people tuned into? Wil's life is still about being a celebrity, about people being more interested in what happens to him than paying attention to their own lives. Wil is very fortunate to be living this life, true, but I for one am proud to be living my own life without a posse of well-wishers. It is enough to just be. If you have people that love you for being who you honestly are, you will be envied by those of us without true friends. If you have a roof over your head and food on the table, you will be loved by your spouse and children for being a good provider. If you stay true to your instincts, you will not have guilt. Enjoy life, like Wil, but do it like yourself. Posted by: bigd at August 27, 2002 01:13 PMwil- i'm only 13 and all i could ever want is to be an actress. you have been one of few to inspire me to want to do so. however, i do know how hard it is to be something like an actor/tress no matter how good looking or talented you may be. so i wanted to congratulate you on your successes, which many of us may never be able to experience, and although your career may not be, now, as up-beat as it has been, you should be proud of what you have accomplished in your life, so far, and also know that you have much more you have yet to accomplish. Can I kick wills ass? He made a tear come to my eye. Not because his story was sad or anything, but because it touched something in me. A realisation if you like. One we all probably had after reading that x Posted by: S'Becks at August 27, 2002 01:22 PMWow Wil! That was fantastic, you have really good thoughts! It was something what I cant write down in this moment (and maybe I can not sleep for long becouse this)...it's really touches me. Screw em'. Do what "feels" right. More than anything I have to give you a pat on the back for putting family first. After all, that is what's really important. Also, if you are meant to make another great piece of work in the acting department, it WILL happen. Lastly, while reading this, I was hoping you were going to say you were focusing on writing. I like your style. I like the flow you have when you really get going. Please, nobody smack me too hard, but have you considered writing a Star Trek story? And will you be writing fiction, scripts, piece work newspapers and magazines? Whatever it is, use your built in audience. Those that care will support you. Hey! How about you grab one of your artsy friends and do an indie comic. You can do a thousand copies of a 22 page black and white for $1500.00 bucks. Shit! You could sell a thousand copies through your website for $2.00-$2.50 a pop in a week! Not much profit I know, but it would get your name out there in the writing circles and be cool for me...uhh, I mean us, to own a Wil Wheaton comic. Posted by: Cerebus at August 27, 2002 01:33 PMWil, "WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF ME... ...is none of my business. if i had really considered all of the praise or all of the criticism that i?ve received throughout my life, i wouldn?t have been able to maneuver myself to this point. what guides and sustains me is an inner voice that becomes more clear everyday, fuck all that other static. " I find a lot of comfort in this. Granted, he's no Wil Wheaton. But the love is all the same. I'm so honored to visit your site everyday and even though we don't know each other, I love rooting for you. Cheers, Its cool to see all the response wil's blog gets. It is also fun to read about the actor who having the same problems as anyone in our age. (30) It feels like I know wil after reading his website. He is almost a friend :c)
Stop making epiphanies. They're catching. :) Little Wil is growing up before our eyes. ::sniff:: Posted by: KJB at August 27, 2002 01:52 PMSomebody needs to write "Wil Wheaton: the Opera." Seriously. The whole "Succumbs to the Temptation of Infomercial" would make a kick-ass musical extravaganza to end Act II. In Act III, TVsWW builds a laser beam which he uses to blackmail the nations of the world from his impregnable off-shore fortress near Easter Island. This shit is just getting good. I can't turn away! Posted by: Spudnuts at August 27, 2002 01:54 PMHey Wil, This infomercial gig is like a prison sentence where you enter as Malcolm Little, but emerge as Malcolm X. Posted by: Spudnuts at August 27, 2002 02:02 PMAs Potch said (somewhere WAY up there) ... welcome to 30. I'm less than two months away from it and I've already had the most life-changing year yet (including the years my kids were born). Must be something about the age that makes you change your priorities. I don't have the same dilemma you do ... but we DID move across the country (from CA to VA) to try to make a change for the better. You always have to take a step back in order to move forward, eh? Also as Potch said, you have a loyal group of readers and cyber-friends who will watch whatever you're on! Posted by: tj at August 27, 2002 02:03 PMOK, here we go... I have never been able to comprehend the actor/actress mentality. (Odd since I am happily married to a theatre major) What i can't see is only finding worth in yourself if your convincingly being someone else. The ability to portray a character does not define you. For example: I hated Wesley. He was the wimpiest little crap in space. I was glad to see him go. That same sentiment carried over to you until I read your postings from this site. Develop who you are and to hell with the world. Take WFS as an example, here is a cult hero bordering on god-like status who could probably get large sums of people to drink tainted Kool-aid just by telling them to. This is the same crappy actor who spoke words to "Lucy In The Sky With Diamonds". The same guy who did everything from lounge-lizard Priceline stuff to horrid B movies to the Iron Chef USA. (This guy could even get away with selling pool cleaning products) Why? Because he never feels he needs a "come-back" from anything. He is always him, not a part, not a character. He is as durable and eternal as his Rayon hairpiece. He loves who he is and no other opinion matters. Write if you enjoy it more, but write for yourself and your family. Do an infomercial if you want. Hell, sell serated knives at a both at the state fair if you want. As long as your wife and children can look at you with respect and love, you have success. Posted by: pixelBoy0 at August 27, 2002 02:05 PMGood for you. And I don't think you're over yet. Not by a longshot. Posted by: beth at August 27, 2002 02:16 PMDonald Crowhurst? You are not going to think you are Christ and drown yourself in the Atlantic are you? Good luck to you. I feel you have made the right decision. Fame is fleeting but family is love and life. Posted by: greg at August 27, 2002 02:18 PMIt amazes me, as life goes along, how each member of the Stand By Me gang becomes like the character he played. this would be inspiring if it wasnt the same thing that wil says every month or so. Hey Wil, I think you should ABSOLUTELY go for it. Do your best, grab the dough, and make a run for the door and don't look back! -- unless they call you back for another session, in which case, REPEAT AS OFTEN AS NECESSARY! If you gotta do any kind of product testing (applying flame, smacking with a sledgehammer, dropping from a 30-story building), make sure you got your safety glasses on... and remember, everything in life is THEATRE. Just promise us one thing. Don't wear one of those funky colourful sweaters like that geek... ps. RUN to the bank to cash the cheque. pps. "Don't pay any attention to critics; don't even ignore them." --Samuel Goldwyn Posted by: Dave at August 27, 2002 02:34 PMHey Wil, Don't try to fit this decision into a matter of right or wrong. It's simply taking you down a path, perhaps one you didn't expect. Embrace that. If you find you don't like it, there are many others to try. Actors have come back from far worse. I think as long as you keep your integrity in regards to the product, you'll be fine. Good luck with your future endeavors. Posted by: DeadCat at August 27, 2002 02:36 PMWil, I just wanted to say good luck with everything. Life is short and we should do what makes us happy. Good for you, Wil. Posted by: Michelle at August 27, 2002 02:43 PMGreat decision Wil! Although NO ONE's opinion of it ultimately matters, remember that the only people who will ridicule it are those so pathetic that they need to make "washed up" pronouncements as often as possible to keep their minds off their own lack of significance. Posted by: Joseph at August 27, 2002 02:52 PMWil, there is a point where we need to look at what we want to do with our life. To focus on things that are important to us and our family. My wife always says “Your born, you choose and you die. It’s the choices you make in life that will determine the quality of life.” Good words to think about. PS: I always liked you in TNG. Im 56 and never having had kids, but if I did... I would have liked to have had a kid just like you. Keep your options open. Posted by: Larry at August 27, 2002 02:52 PMWhat thighmaster, cookware, Ron Popiel thing will you be selling Wil? Do tell we would love to know. I for one can't say I followed you whole career through STTNG, I pretty much quit watching when they killed of Tasha Yar.. how can you boot the woman with the biggist boobies off the show? -- Ludicrous. Posted by: shaterslovechild at August 27, 2002 02:59 PMI'm glad to see an actor finally taking his family before himself. Something I always believed is that if you were meant to do, or have, something, it didn't matter what happened between points A & B, you'd end up there anyways. It may be scary (i know, i'm doing it myself right now), but making the choice that's best for your future is better than making the choice that's best for right now. You kick ass Wil, and I love your site. Posted by: Ryan_w at August 27, 2002 03:02 PMYou go Wil! Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. More power to you! Posted by: Mir at August 27, 2002 03:02 PMWil, your words moved me. I know you'll do well in your future endeavors, whatever you choose that they are. Posted by: redhaiku at August 27, 2002 03:11 PMWow. That entry was so good. As Shakespeare wrote in Hamlet, "And this above all, to thine own self be true." Keep listening to your intuition and taking those meditative walks and fate will continue to lead you where you're supposed to go. Congratulations on your self-discovery. Enjoy the road ahead. Posted by: delphine at August 27, 2002 03:27 PMNice one Wil. Posted by: Nick C at August 27, 2002 03:33 PMY'know, I have to wonder if Wil isn't suddenly going to get some acting jobs. Seriously. Now that he's not sweating it, he's going to take an occasional audition for shits and grins, go in with a "Hire me or not, I don't give a fuck," attitude, and he's going to find himself getting things. It's going to happen. Posted by: Janis Cortese at August 27, 2002 03:37 PMJust what I thought, Janis. Things tend to work out like that. Posted by: NickW at August 27, 2002 03:47 PMWil, I'm glad that you've found out what's really important to you in life. Good for you! Can't wait to hear what happened with Creation. Those bastards. Posted by: galestorm at August 27, 2002 03:49 PMbtw, what was the infomercial for??? Posted by: Ryan_w at August 27, 2002 03:54 PMThis may be a strange analogy, but this most recent post reminds me of Margaret Cho's "I'm the One that I Want." In a nutshell, it's about how Hollywood tried to turn her into someone else, and how she failed at being someone else. But it's a triumphant tale. She took a good look at who she really is and came back swinging, better than ever. It seems to me that she's now at the top of her game --- with no apologies about who she is. And she's really, really funny. Watching you "find your voice" here at WWDN is kinda like that. Exciting, triumphant and funny. Go for it. You're an excellent writer with a great sense of humor and experiences beyond your years that you can draw from. Speaking of San Francisco (Margaret Cho is a hometown girl), it was fun watching you whip the purple dinosaur at DNA last week. Keep fighting the good fight and you can go as far as you want. (Please excuse my boxing metaphors. I was at a celebrity boxing match recently. Hee, hee.) Posted by: Lobsterick at August 27, 2002 04:15 PMWil, I'm sorry to here that it hasn't been a good year and when the money's good you have to put your pride a side and take teh job that been offered even ifit's something you really don't want to do. Hopefully you can have a come back, it's possible. look at Cher of all people she did those terrible informercials but was able to come back from it. The worst that will happen will be that SNL will parody you and you have to have a sense of humor about such things. Good luck ! Matt J Posted by: Matt at August 27, 2002 04:16 PMWil, Have you ever heard the advice that if you really want something, you need to let go of your overwhelming desire for it and let it just come to you? I think that you will find that letting go of your attachment to being the "next-next big thing" and focusing on your wonderful family will open more doors to your success than you could ever imagine! :) Just let go...do what you have to do, do what you want to do, follow your head for awhile and let your heart follow a little behind and just see what happens. You are making an awesome decision and you should be proud of yourself for doing it. I know it took a huge amount of soul-searching, but I know that I'm not the only one here who will tell you that your career is definitely NOT over! You are at the beginning....relax and enjoy it and do what you truely feel is the right thing to do. Good luck, not that you need it! Good karma finds people like you, trust me. Jen :) Posted by: Jen at August 27, 2002 04:17 PMIt is never wrong to put family first. You truly have a gift for writing, not just because so many of us enjoy reading it, but because you enjoy doing it. I always look forward to your new entries because you make your everyday life sound so interesting. Good luck on your new endeavor. Posted by: zandra at August 27, 2002 04:19 PMWil, no matter the results of your decision, you can be sure that it was made for the right reasons. You're way ahead of a lot of 30 year-olds who don't realize what's important to them in life. You may not have any more acting roles for your audience, but I'll bet you've got a book or two in you. If you ever choose to go whole hog as a writer, I'll be lining up at the bookstore to buy anything you write. Posted by: ladyejayne at August 27, 2002 04:20 PMYes!! More writing from Wil! Wil, your style and sense of humour are such a pleasure to read that I am greedily looking forward Wil, babe, You've got balls! I thought that diving into a dream was one of the hardest things to do... until I read this. I admire your courage, and I admire that you can be honest with yourself about your changing lifestyle and priorities. I think you're a good actor, but I like you more for your writing than you acting. :o) Posted by: Antika at August 27, 2002 04:23 PMI have been visiting your site for about three months now and I have to say your that your writtings have made me look at my own life in a different way. You are a very talented writer and a gifted actor. On more than one occasion you have made me laugh and even brought tears to my eyes. If you have decided that acting is not for you who am I to say otherwise. Life is too short spend it with the ones you love the most. Enjoy everyday to the fullest and above all be happy. Posted by: Donna at August 27, 2002 05:08 PMYay, I respect you so much now. Being able to make and carryout the decision to concentrate on what is important to you (your family) over everything else. I think that just great. Cookie Posted by: Cookiemo at August 27, 2002 05:14 PMWell done Man!! Now you'll have some free time to write that Book!!! *hint hint* ;) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ %&(*&O((_)_)*^%$#@@%&*(_) Whoa, I'm so not furst d00D! You know what I like? I like the fact that you've totally ignored giving me the public thrashing that I deserve from our night out. Actually, now you know I'm taunting you to hear your side of the story. And, finally, I'll tell you and everyone else this: Your bowling shirts are mad-fly and you need to wear one on your damned show this Friday, because, Wil Wheaton, that fucking shirt is all about you. Tell that wardrobe bitch to bite my primary-colored ass and wear a fucking bowling shirt. The one with the chicks that mostly sit on mudflaps--after all, it's a network for VIDEO GAMES. Fucking video games. How serious should you be taking yourself? &*^*%^&(*&@(*&*#$(@)$$($*#@&$#( it shouldn't matter if you're a big hollywood star or a two-bit actor. as long as you are doing what you love, whether it be for an infomercial or a block buster, thank your blessings because some people don't even get the opportunity to have a career. Posted by: stargirl at August 27, 2002 05:54 PMDude, I say this a lot when I read your site, but that's the greatest thing I've ever read. I'm really glad you're continuing in your writing. It really is amazing. And any product you hawk, I'd actually consider buying. Posted by: BrendoMan at August 27, 2002 06:03 PMWil, My life has been shit lately. But reading your last column has inspired me. Be happy with the things you have: a wife, a family. Fuck Hollywood. You'll make a name for yourself yet. Posted by: wilreader at August 27, 2002 06:09 PMGood for you Wil. I don't know what else to say, I wish the best for you, i'm know you will prevail any way you can. All those rejections and the star trek cut-out could just mean it's not the time right now. Good luck to you and your family Posted by: stacey at August 27, 2002 06:15 PMWow, that was an amazing and insightful post. Soul searching, intimate. Wow. Posted by: chica at August 27, 2002 06:29 PMDude, you gonna write your pants off. And you gonna act your pants off too. That reason that you were in Stand By Me when Brent Spiner was a regular on Night Court: you damn fine actor. Infomercial? I wonder if I'll buy one. Whatever it is. Don't let them make you say "set it and forget it." I'll have to drive to LA and smack you, and I can't afford that much gas right now. Cheers, bud. Wil, I think its wonderful you are willing to take that leap of faith. Your writing is poignant, funny and honest and something I look forward to reading every few days. I may see you in a different light than the one I did when I was a teenager but I still respect you for the same reason. You are real and no matter how big you got you always were. Actor or writer you wll always be an important person to those who give a damn. Posted by: Toronto at August 27, 2002 06:31 PMThumper wrote: Your take is that an infommercial is the death of your acting career; most of us are sitting here thinking "Yay! We get to see Wil on TV!" Oh goodness Wil, that is *so* true! Do what pleases you and your family, and know that you have a bunch of people cheering you on. (Because with your journal entries -- though you may not realize it -- you are cheering *us* on. It's give-and-take, my friend.) Best wishes always.
supporting your family is always good. And this may be the finest peice of writing you've done yet. As for the infomercial? If there is a co-host make him say "act now" Posted by: jodilyn at August 27, 2002 06:53 PM"Taking a chance, and stepping beyond the safety of the world we've always known is the only way to grow, though, and without risk there is no reward." I've found myself thinking similar thoughts a lot lately as I struggle through med school. I know in my heart that I want to be doing nothing but this, but it's so hard! The long hours, feeling like an idiot all of the time because the residents know more than I do (even though they're supposed to), the fact that I am shy and need to make an effort to assert myself to do well. But as tired as I am and as frustrated as I get sometimes, I have to remind myself that the gain is worth it. I will be doing what I love. I will learn things and make a difference in people's lives. I need to go study, but I wanted to wish you good luck with your writing. And your infomercial for that matter. I guess I don't know enough about the film/television industry to understand why doing an infomercial makes you a less attractive casting choice, but I'll take your word for it and hope your wrong. Best of luck in achieving success in the things that really matter. :-) Posted by: Amalie at August 27, 2002 07:04 PMwil: you've done good. Posted by: d. burr at August 27, 2002 07:32 PMWil, You are an awesome writer- I'll definetly buy anything that you write, for I'm sure that it'll be awesome. Your short stories and essays leave me spellbound, and making me wish that I could have some of your talent. Don't worry- I am sure that everything will be a-ok (as cliche as that sounds). Posted by: Kate at August 27, 2002 07:41 PMOkay, reality check here. Everybody's saying "Look at Cher! She did an infomercial and she's doing okay!" Yeah, but look at Robert Urich. He did an infomercial too, and look where HE'S at--dead! Rotting! Despite that, I'm sure Wil will come out just fine. By the way, if anybody is in need of a director, I am a very fine director. Posted by: Chuck DeBus at August 27, 2002 07:44 PMCongrats on finding what could very possibly be your true calling Wil. Ever since I first starting visiting you site months ago I thought that you would make a great writer. I'm so glad that you've realized that too. Yes you will be missed by your film and tv fans (and we are legion) but I truly believe that you have a talent that should be shared with the world. Posted by: jamie at August 27, 2002 07:48 PMWil, you made the right choice. Informercial, schminfomercial, you are working and supporting your family. Ain't that what counts? Holy shit.. what is this the Ironic Week in my life? Ahem... So.. now reading this.. and remembering that... well most of that.. cringe you'll do just fine Also I need a new underground band to be crazy over stat. Soulcracker Like the blank page, the major choices in our lives are thrilling things, but there is no line between thrilling and frightening, only a subtle transition between shades of the same color. Hey honey... Do you believe in life after love? How about life after an Informercial? Gypsies, tramps, and informercial commercials, thieves. But everynight all the men would come around & lay their money down. Posted by: Cher at August 27, 2002 09:59 PMhang in there....sound like the right choice...especially if family is being put first...i know this may sound wierd but...i'm proud of you! :) Posted by: Plum at August 27, 2002 10:08 PMalways go with your gut, wil. it'll never let you down, no matter what. good luck. Posted by: river selkie at August 27, 2002 10:20 PMWil, You seem to grow in wisdom every day...and we along with you through the interaction and sharing of the WWDN community. Through your own, sometimes painful growth, many of us re-evaluate where we're headed. Clearly you know more about the TV/film business than most of the rest of us, but it's hard to imagine that any path you take now will ultimately limit your choices in the future. New doors always present themselves as others close. You may still have to put up with auditions, etc., but I would think your broadened horizon will end up making you more interesting to the powers that be. I'm sure you know by now that those of us who support, admire and respect you do so because of the man you have become and not the TV character you were. Best, Rob Posted by: Rob at August 27, 2002 10:32 PMHowdy Wil: Everyone needs to make choices: good or bad, right or You made the choice of doing informatials; and that's cool. Don't forget to write, though. You've got something special Ch'ers, Bish Posted by: Bish at August 27, 2002 10:35 PMWil: You rock. Posted by: Huh Bunny at August 27, 2002 11:05 PMWil, I've thought for quite a while now that you've got too much creative ability and potential to keep pigeon-holing yourself into the "I am an actor" paradigm. You're a terrific writer whose best works are ahead. You're a fun and funny guy. You're a geek destined for greatness. I'm elated to hear that you've chosen to break away from the conventional wisdom of the entertainment industry to toe your own course. I want to see the ultra low budget indie movie sensation written/directed and starring Wil Wheaton. I want to buy the self published novel Wil Wheaton has had rattling around in the back of his head for the last 10 years, that couldn't break out until now. But despite all that I'd simply settle for the occasional, sublimely inspirational, tragicomic weblog entry if you'd rather do that. Keep doing what makes you happy and everything will fall into place. Posted by: Jasonic at August 27, 2002 11:10 PMHey Wil: I think you're doing the right thing. What you certainly don't want to happen is end up wondering. The dreaded "what if" weighs in heavy, trust me. Recently I asked to be laid off from a very decent job (hey, a guy needs his severance package!) so I could spend some time assessing what I want to do and where I want to do it. The point you make about losing the passion for something is well understood here. Eventually money will become tight, but in the meantime the freedom is uncomparable. I feel like the sky's the limit, and I'm sure you will, too. Keep us all up to date. Nothing you do can't be reversed. -d Posted by: dennis at August 27, 2002 11:11 PMJonathan Frakes is the national spokesperson for Glacial Milk, a product he, according to the company's promotional video, "truly uses and believes in." Yet, his career seems to be doing OK. I'm not surprised that these web logs have changed your life. They are filled with people giving you encouragement. p.s. its my birthday on Saturday. Wish me a happy one? :) Posted by: danceaddict at August 27, 2002 11:43 PMOk, well, being this is some 150 comments down the list, no one will ever see it but I figure most of us are posting for ourselves anyway... Like Most everyone here, I am really excited that Wil is going to concentrate on writing and can't wait to see what comes of this. I also don't count you out from acting. I have to laugh at the person who posted about being excited to see you in something even if it is an infomercial, Hell I made my husband tape Screensavers, and watched it TWICE, then saw it was being re-broadcast at 12:30am, and watched it AGAIN! How lame am I?? Since I've been reading this site I have been trying to get my hands on everything you've done in the past and see the things I missed before and watching the things I loved and seeing them in a new light. There are some things that I don't know if I can get my hands on (Mr Stitch) but I'm damn well gonna try. Its funny, one of the things that struck me as I was watching the Screensavers thing, you SO remind me of a friend I've known since high school, and you and he are SO alike it makes me wonder if you were separated at birth or something! I know I'm rambling, but its late and today was a long day. hey, we can't all be brilliant. I have to comment on what Shatnerslovechild wrote, about Tasha Yar having the biggest boobies, D00d! That is so WRONG! she is so flatchested she made the walls jealous! Wesley had bigger boobs! I thing the biggest ones were actually on Deanna Troi. Not that its bad that she's flat, she was perky and all, but get your facts straight! Loveya, Meanit Posted by: AngelGypsy at August 27, 2002 11:50 PMWil, all this and only 30?? why don't you compete with Dr. Phil ? I'll call Oprah... and tell her she needs
Cash in, buddy. I'm not sure this the the best thing for your career, but ya gots to get paid Posted by: Bitch_Queen_of_the_Universe at August 28, 2002 12:43 AMWil, "No man succeeds without a good woman behind him. Wife or mother, if it is both, or, "Enjoy life. and... "I don't know the key to success, and finaly... "Live Long and Prosper." I can only add that there are very few people who have lived, that so many have looked to for some ther are many who have taken on the "Vulcan" then there are those who have taken on that of the I could break into a song by John Denver, but this "The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, later... Posted by: wade art at August 28, 2002 12:57 AMJesus, Wil, you have a lot of friends :-) Do infomercial? Good move! Write? GREAT move! Give up acting? Now let's not get carried away here... :-) As far as infomercials being the death of an acting career, you know the business best. But it has been my experience that success in any one domain leads to unexpected opportunities in other domains. Posted by: Bill Bekkenhuis at August 28, 2002 01:38 AMWil, hang in there Wil sound like the right choice to make especially for your family From Phil Posted by: Phil at August 28, 2002 01:52 AMWil.... I was just thinking... is that with done with the or was that just Corey Feldmen FINALLY!!!! Embrace your talent and you will be happy - you'll make others happy. Love ya Wil!
There comes a certain point in everyone's life where you have to reassess your priorities. I'm also approaching my thirties, and like you I'm finally starting to find my own voice. In a world where the increasing emphasis is on committment to career, rather than committment to family, I think your decision is the bravest and wisest one. At the end of our lives, the most important things that we'll ever have or ever leave behind is our family. Posted by: Space Hamster at August 28, 2002 03:19 AM"It was also a really cool computer-oriented product (which I'll get to later, don't worry)." Make sure it's supported by linux! Or you'll have to turn in your "#1 linux cheerleader" badge! :) Posted by: Bugs at August 28, 2002 05:12 AMForgive me if somebody already said this, but being in an infomercial isn't the kiss of death on an actor's career. Admittedly it's not considered the classiest thing to do, but look at Cher... or Robert Urich... they both did plenty of infomercials, and both worked a LOT afterwards. The truth is, most of the people in Hollywood probably won't even hear about the informercial. Leave it off the resume, and I don't imagine it will do you any damage at all. Oh, and it totally sucks that you got cut from the next Trek picture! I think a lot of Trekkies (like me!) were really looking forward to this big scene that would reunite all the old Next Gen characters, it would have made the whole darn movie. And now it's gone. Harrumph! Posted by: ursulahitler at August 28, 2002 06:06 AMAnthony is right. You should follow Jonathan Frakes' example. Somebody asked Jonathan Frakes why he'd done a guest appearance in a sitcom, and he smiled his great getting-away-with-it grin and replied: "I will do ANYTHING for money!" I'm looking forward to waking up in the middle of the night, turning on the TV and finding you on the air. Thank you Wil, for all you have done. Posted by: Shannon at August 28, 2002 06:25 AMJust started reading your site a few months ago...and soaking in this last entry, all I have to says is WHOOOOO!!!!! You GO! Posted by: floppygoth at August 28, 2002 06:37 AMI saw this on E!Online. Dear Marilyn: What has become of Wil Wheaton, the cute young boy who played Wesley Crusher on Star Trek: The Next Generation? Dear Patty: Wheaton told People magazine back in February that he'd given up acting 10 years ago at the age of 19 because, "I had left Star Trek: The Next Generation to do more things, and I was actually worse off, doing this awful movie [The Liars' Club]." He says he went on a soul-searching journey to Kansas, where he became a cybergeek and spent a year working with a Topeka computer company. He says he also made "a concerted effort" to be less "obnoxious and selfish." Wheaton is back in Los Angeles and has been teaching improv at the Acme Comedy Theater. He's married to a hairdresser named Anne and has two stepsons, Ryan, 12, and Nolan, 10. The actor, who landed his first TV spot at age 7, now says, "Being a child star was a pain, because I spent most of my childhood expected to act like an adult." Wow, it's scary how much this resonates with me. I recently chose to stop trying to finish a dissertation for a PhD that had dragged over the last seven years. I kept getting interrupted by real life: meeting and marrying my husband, the regrettable need to earn money through jobs, and finally the birth of my child this year. As part of that regrettable need for cash, I got a job teaching at an elementary school, 180º from the career I thought I wanted as a university professor. Know what? I love teaching the little ones. They have a thrill of discovery and thirst for learning that is well and thoroughly mashed out of the teenagers by the time they get to college. And my current position lets me spend more time with my little guy who just learned to crawl. As for that dissertation topic that used to intrigue me, I couldn't care less now. It's just another bit of specialized commentary in an increasingly specialized world. So I'm pulling the plug, finally making the decision to stop and go for what I really want. Kudos to you, Wil. I don't think you'll regret your choice. Posted by: Shannon at August 28, 2002 07:32 AMHey Wil. I just wanted to say that this post has really helped me a lot, so thanks. Also, you are so lucky that you have the talent to be both an actor *and* a writer. Not many people have the talent to do one really amazing thing, let alone two. And finally, you have touched countless thousands of people with what you have written on this site, and now so many people think of you as a great writer as well as an actor. You've connected with people now, so go for it. Posted by: Beth at August 28, 2002 07:49 AMporn! "...and sitting next to mr. frakes is a barely legal horny nympho..." Posted by: drow at August 28, 2002 07:50 AMA1phab3t spewed: "Wow, EVERYBODY on the WHOLE INTERNET is behind you in this! Infomercials are frikkin' AWESOME! I can't WAIT to see your face at 2 AM talking EXUBERANTLY for half an hour about some overpriced doohickey!" Alfie, does it give you some sort of perverse pleasure to mock people who are genuinely excited for the man? I may be four-hundred-and-forty-four shades of f*cked up on this, but I'd be willing to bet you'd quake like a li'l girl if you had to go before a tv cam | |||