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« ah, the joys of upgrading | Main | ch-ch-ch-changes » January 24, 2005i have spoke with the tongue of angelsThey say that when you have an audition, you have to walk in there like you don't give a shit. You walk in there like you don't give a shit, and you walk out with the part, because if you don't give a shit, that's when they want you. But you've read the script, and it is good. So good, in fact, you fall in love with it. You fall madly, passionately, crazy in love with the script, and you'll do anything to be one of the people chosen to bring the script to life. You think about it all the time. You wake up in the middle of the night, imagining what it would be like to spend ten weeks on location or four seasons on the set. You get lost on your way to the post office, because you're wondering who your competition is. You can't eat, you can't sleep, you can't focus on anything else . . . you are in love, after all. The day of the audition finally comes. Your first date. Your big date. Your only date. You spend too much time putting yourself together. You carefully choose your clothes and style your hair a minimum of three different times. Maybe you spray on some cologne, because it makes you feel attractive. Maybe. You drive to the studio, and hope your voice doesn't break when you tell the guard that you're going to Bungalow 15. You park, walk across the lot, and your palms sweat when you sign in. You wait for what seems like an eternity, surrounded by actors who are younger, taller, better looking than you. Actors who clearly don't give a shit because they don't have to. You know that they don't love The Script like you do, haven't put in the time that you have . . . but it doesn't matter. You've been here before and you'll be here again, long after they've left for location. Your heart throbs in your chest when they call your name. You smile, take a deep breath, and stand up. And then you walk into the room, and you're supposed to act like you don't give a shit. Yeah. Right. Trackback Pings TrackBack URL for this entry: Listed below are links to weblogs that reference i have spoke with the tongue of angels: » Blog vs. Audioblog from brainwagon Comments
*crossing my fingers for you* Posted by: ronnie at January 24, 2005 10:39 PMwow.. jez kiddin man.. i get the same way before i show a client my designs i'm sending mega mojo in your direction dude.. cheers man So um like... I don't know... I could really care less... but um... yeah... WHAT HAPPENS NEXT. I'm about to fall off my chair. Nice work on that entry! I like it. Posted by: Stephen at January 24, 2005 10:44 PMI'm glad you do give a shit wil, because the world needs more people like you! Thanks! I wish I could write as well too! john Posted by: john at January 24, 2005 10:44 PMYou just made us all know what it's like to give a shit. Put this into the next book. For reals, yo. Posted by: Kathleen at January 24, 2005 10:45 PM*fingers crossed, now with the power of Typekey* Hope I"m not posting this twice...Anyway good luck! Posted by: blackunicorn at January 24, 2005 10:46 PMYou just made me understand what it's like to give a shit. Put this in the next book. Posted by: Kathleen at January 24, 2005 10:46 PM*fingers crossed, now with the power of Typekey* Hope I"m not posting this twice...Anyway good luck! Posted by: blackunicorn at January 24, 2005 10:47 PMI'm glad you do give a shit Wil. The world needs more people like you! Thanks. I wish I could write as well as you do too. john Posted by: John at January 24, 2005 10:48 PMGood luck, Wil! Posted by: Jason Cryer at January 24, 2005 10:51 PMGood luck, Wil! Posted by: Jason at January 24, 2005 10:52 PMAhh to be an actor ;) This will be the one! Posted by: Cat at January 24, 2005 10:52 PMIt sucks having your heart ripped out of your chest so many times. Why can't they ever fall in love with the one who loves them? I only hope the best things for you. Posted by: Abbie at January 24, 2005 10:54 PMI've never read your blog before tonight, but I certainly will read it again. Beautifully written. Posted by: R.J. at January 24, 2005 10:58 PMso.... the audition went good or bad? and I'm not talking about end results, just whether or not you blew them out of the water like you're so good at doing and we know you can do! Posted by: Nicci at January 24, 2005 11:00 PMIt just doesn't get any easier does it Wil? I missed you Wil.. just back from 3 wks I'll have to hunt through the history find up what Hrm... comments probably not working. But hey, all my good thoughts your way wether you get this or not. Posted by: Clay at January 24, 2005 11:04 PMIf there's one thing that keeps alot of WWdN readers enthralled, it's your descriptions of the audition process; how you feel before, during and after. The rest of us (except for Keith, who knows first hand himself) rarely ever hear about this side of Hollywood. Wil's version of "The Trenches," as it were. Hope the audition went well. You seem to have quite a few of these lately... Posted by: Eric in PA at January 24, 2005 11:06 PMWow. That's the sound of my heart breaking, right there. -hedge Posted by: hedgie at January 24, 2005 11:09 PMI think you captured the essence perfectly Wil. Posted by: =^) at January 24, 2005 11:10 PMWow. That's the sound of my heart breaking, right there. -hedge Posted by: hedgie at January 24, 2005 11:10 PMWil, that just completely rocked my world. You are an amazing person. I ... just, wow. Thank you. Posted by: Jeremy at January 24, 2005 11:41 PMSo.. Is this a good post about good things to come, or a good post about bad things to come? Not giving a shit when you really do reminds me an awful bit like being broken up with. Posted by: Rachel at January 24, 2005 11:45 PMBad audition Wil? :( Posted by: Mitch at January 25, 2005 02:04 AMHang in there Wil you should have no problem getting the part. Have Faith Posted by: Tammy at January 25, 2005 02:26 AMAre we to assume the audition didn't go so well? Chin up hun. Posted by: Jen at January 25, 2005 03:43 AMGood luck Wil. Blog later on and let us know how it turns out. Posted by: Mel Grubb at January 25, 2005 05:31 AMBeautifully written. I'm sorry you sound somewhat upset though. =/ I don't know what I can say or do to help, so... here: *good vibes* Posted by: Kristan at January 25, 2005 05:42 AMGod damn you! Get me going only to leave me revving to high that i might blow my engine. Bastard! I haven't done that many auditions, unfortunately, but those feeling that I know all so well came rushing back as I read this. Amazing piece as usual! Posted by: Tim at January 25, 2005 06:17 AMSo.. did you get the part? :P Posted by: Chris Bergstrom at January 25, 2005 06:36 AMGood luck Wil! I think I felt that way when I had my first interview for my first faculty job. Posted by: Ethan Watrall at January 25, 2005 06:55 AMI very much hope you get this part! I remember your post about auditioning for Alias and was disappointed to hear that didn't work out. Actors should have the same passion for the script that you describe. Posted by: Clancy at January 25, 2005 07:16 AMI've been in love like this... I know this feeling all too well. I once wanted a job so much that I had an anxiety attack waiting to hear back from the interviewer. FWIW: I got the job. Posted by: Corky at January 25, 2005 07:35 AMI think this is the first time you've gotten more comments in LiveJournal (here) than in your actual blog. Posted by: Sara at January 25, 2005 08:12 AMgood luck wil, hope you get the part, they might want to guy who cares. Posted by: daniel at January 25, 2005 09:18 AMThat was beautiful. Posted by: Rebecca JJ at January 25, 2005 09:39 AMMad mojo coming your way Wil. Posted by: Paul at January 25, 2005 09:41 AMI haven't commented in a while. But that one really touched me. So well written and from the heart. Wonderful. I hope, hope, hope you get it! Btw, I wrote you an email that VH1 is doing a show in my town of Cottage Grove,OR about Stand By Me and other movies filmed here. They want people involved with the film, and our local paper said "contact anyone you know who worked on these films". You should get involved, it would be fun. Posted by: Laura Lynne at January 25, 2005 09:44 AMI really felt like I knew for a second what it was like to be you auditioning for a part... then I woke up to my geeky little existence. Thanks for taking me away for a bit. Good luck BTW, I hope you get it. PS, where is the howto information on the site to learn how to write and be an actor like you? And once you learn how do you break into the bizz? :) Woah. Those are some ugly styles. I need to work that out. In other news, TypeKey users should be able to comment without any difficulties now. Yay! Posted by: Wil at January 25, 2005 11:12 AM
Good luck! Sounds like you are really into the part, and *that* makes for a good show! Posted by: Glyn at January 25, 2005 11:19 AMI can't wait to hear how this one ends. Best of luck Wil Greg Posted by: Greg at January 25, 2005 11:29 AMWil... I read your site often, but never really comment. I just wanted to say I happened to read your latest entry a half hour before I have to leave for rehearsal for Chekov's "Three Sisters". Anyway, I understand the passion, and I understand the heartbreak...the loss of opportunity for those that need it. You take the chance in order to have one. It's obvious that similar to most cases, the love may not work out, but it's always there. That's what's important. I was glad to see that. In my own way, I understand the love. It may sound odd, but similar to most cases, the heartbreak makes the love stronger. Keep up. Posted by: Mike at January 25, 2005 11:31 AMYou just know how to write so wonderfully. You are a good looking guy and will land a part perfect for you soon!!! Lots of Mojo coming your way!! Posted by: Susanne at January 25, 2005 11:39 AMWell best of luck to you. It sounds like you fell in love with the character and story, and *that* is what really makes a show worth seeing!!! Posted by: Glyn at January 25, 2005 11:44 AMWow. I was there with you. I had a miraculous first date last week, and it reminded me of that day. I heard the AUDIOBLOG, and I am BELIEVING and SEEING this for you after the table read/2nd audition. I have been so inspired by reading your blog, that I started my own . . . mostly motivated by my desire to motivate people to keep giving what they can to Tsunami Aid. Your UNICEF link rocks. (See www.ohblahdah.blogspot.com) Here's hoping for a miraculous 2005 for all of us -- Wil and wilheads alike. Posted by: Geri at January 25, 2005 11:49 AMWil- Wow. Exactly. (Everything except the cologne.) :) Posted by: shane at January 25, 2005 11:54 AMScrew them Wil Small consolation, but you have achieved here, in 7 paragraphs, what most actors seem to only dream about with a lifetime of work. You've transported your audience into the world you've created, held us there spellbound, and then left us aching for more. You are an amazing writer. Good mojo being wafted your way, indeed. Posted by: Ignatz at January 25, 2005 12:12 PMWow. That was awesome. Posted by: Kethrim at January 25, 2005 12:22 PMDon,t Know whether to say good luck or keep your head up but they both work good.:) Posted by: Dan L at January 25, 2005 12:24 PMi know you don't want to jinx anything, but how'd it go?? i'm sending really, really good thoughts for you.... Posted by: jenn at January 25, 2005 12:32 PMI just read the blog entry referenced above, and once again I was compelled to write you about it. I don't know quite what to say, but I am feeling so much right now. I recently was laid off from my job which was devestating, and being that I am single all the financial responcibility falls on me. I am stressed beyond belief right now. (Much like you are I guess) OK, heres the point. I went on an interview two weeks ago and came out of the office LONGING for this job, as this job would fit me so well. (My laid back and professional attitude, and the "beat" of the work enviornment is a perfect fit with me) I was called back to meet with the boss last week for a second interview, which is obviously a good thing. I was so happy! I went to meet with the boss and he was amazing as well. He talked to me in more detail about the job and it is EXACTLY what I have been looking for the last few years. My friend Andrew e-mailed me last night, and asked if this was a "good" entry, or a "bad" entry. I told him that I wasn't sure . . . but it was an accurate reflection of where I am right now. Posted by: wil at January 25, 2005 01:00 PMYou know Wil, It is an AMAZING entry! What I, and other WWDN readers, love the most is your candor and willingness to get close and let us in a bit! You're the bestest! :) Posted by: Quincey at January 25, 2005 01:13 PMThanks for leaving us hanging. ;) I keep crossing my fingers for you. I'm a huge fan and would love to see you in...well...pretty much anything! Posted by: sleepingmommy at January 25, 2005 01:15 PMI just listened to your audioblog about this audition and the movie--and more than ever I want you to get this part. I just had to post a comment again--to really say again. What an incredible opportunity this would be for you and your fans! I'm sending major good vibes and well wishes your way. Posted by: sleepingmommy at January 25, 2005 01:24 PMI enjoy reading your blog, and especially liked Monday's post. I'm eager to hear how you did in the audition, and especially eager to hear more about this fantastic part! Break a leg. Posted by: reverse_vampyr at January 25, 2005 01:25 PMThat is simply, truely and exactly how it feels. I die a little each time I audition for a project that is actually worthwhile. Posted by: Jessica at January 25, 2005 02:00 PMWow! Best wishes Wil! Sounds like you deserve that part! Here's hoping you nailed it! Posted by: Sue at January 25, 2005 02:23 PMOk, I was going to quit my job, move to LA, and instantly find work .... now I'm too depressed. The therapy business must be killing! Posted by: Anthony at January 25, 2005 02:32 PMThis is the reason I check this site every week or so. Gold Jerry, GOLD! Posted by: JimCognito at January 25, 2005 02:32 PMGood luck, Wil! I'm sending out some good vibes for ya! Posted by: Jordan at January 25, 2005 02:36 PMI haven't been reading long, but I have a feeling that it's almost "your time". I'm not completely sure what that means. Maybe this is the part, maybe it isn't. I pray for you as only an atheist can. Posted by: Meeker128 at January 25, 2005 02:51 PMIt's all a matter of knowing when to give a shit, and what to give a shit about. Hell...I've even been known to give two shits on occasion, though it's been pretty rare. Whatever you do, don't let the shit get you down. You're better than this shit, and you can deal with this shit, 'cuz you're the shit.... Neh? Posted by: JSc at January 25, 2005 02:53 PMArrrggghhhh!!! The story was supposed to end with you telling us that you'd just gotten this fantastic part. Now I'm stuck being even more excited for you and still being in limbo. Do tell the producers to let you know quickly, if not for you, then for your thousands of adoring fans. Posted by: Scott at January 25, 2005 03:13 PMWe need more people like you in this world at January 25, 2005 03:13 PM
I've been lurking for a while, reading and thinking, laughing. :) I had to comment on this. I know the feeling all too well from too many auditions and job interviews.. I hope things went well so we can see ya again :D Also, after reading this.. I really must get to the bookstore.. ;) Posted by: Gretchen at January 25, 2005 03:17 PMpost- mojomojomojomojomojomojo Posted by: Jessie at January 25, 2005 03:39 PMpassion is a good thing I hope soon you write something you love that you can use yourself. You have the gift, maybe time to reach out. Posted by: Mike at January 25, 2005 03:44 PMHi there Wil, I just listened to your audioblog of "Wanting" and read your post. I will send an earnest prayer Heavenward on your behalf in hope that you get your hearts desire. I have to believe that you will get the part that will give you the fullfillment as an actor you want so much. A renewed acting career has come to many other actors NOT NEARLY AS GOOD AS YOU ARE(yes I am yelling)so it must come to you. Posted by: Jeanine at January 25, 2005 04:16 PMAh, now it's working! Let me add my little share to the good mojo flowing your way. I dont say "Good Luck" because your getting hte park won't be some fluke of good fortune. I say, I want you to get it. I want you to be a part of it. And my will is driving you in that direction. That and five bucks, of course, will get you a small coffee at Starbuck's. Posted by: Leviathan at January 25, 2005 04:28 PMI thought you would say you had this one by the end. Posted by: anc at January 25, 2005 04:37 PMFirst time commenter and reader here. That was a real intriguing entry. I'd like to see how this one turns out. Posted by: Beau McClelland at January 25, 2005 04:50 PMWhen I was looking for a job, I would get ready for each interview exactly as if it were a first date. Get all nervous, go to the interview, totally bomb. Then I got unemployment and HAD to apply for jobs, but didn't really care if I got them or not. I went to one job interview without even brushing my hair, no hose on my legs, not even any makeup. I didn't give a hot damn if I got the job or not. In the interview, she began to describe the absolute perfect job for me. I couldn't believe it when I heard the pay was the same as my previous position. And they had told me I would never make as much money anywhere else! They hired me. Not because I didn't give a damn, but because I was finally relaxed enough in an interview for them to get to know me instead of my resume. It's the best job I've ever had and I love doing it every day. Thanks for sharing that. It definitely brought the whole "actor" thing into a perspective of humanity instead of fantasy. Posted by: Tawny Leona at January 25, 2005 04:51 PM
You're a writer, Wil! Screw acting. You don't need it. You've got a great family, an awesome group of fans, and a terrific book. Sure, you can go on auditions. But they don't mean much. Either they like you, or they don't. Either you're right for the part, or you're not. Big deal. Acting's just a hobby now, anyway. As a writer, you are yourself. And that's pretty cool. Much better than any character you could ever play. Posted by: Grant at January 25, 2005 05:37 PMtesting 1 2 3 Posted by: Freeman_in_Louisiana at January 25, 2005 06:04 PMWil Wil, you've done it again: written what many of us wish we could say but don't know how to say as eloquently as you do. I hope this episode ends with you getting this role. But if it doesn't, we all know it won't be because you didn't do a damn fine job with the auditions, callbacks, etc. Hey, I think I have a few more bags of mojo lying around here, so have another round. ***MOJO*** Posted by: Dave Westbay at January 25, 2005 06:30 PM
Ack! *falls out of chair from suspense* Now I'm going to be wondering how this went for the next few days... Well, if misery loves company, suspense should too, so now you've got all us sharing in you suspense! Hee hee. Wow! That was a good despriction, I have a school play audition Sunday, I know that's not as big as yours. But, I feel that way, like everytime I try out, I mean I really want the part and it's like you hate to see it go to someone else. Posted by: Heather at January 25, 2005 06:51 PMWil, I hope this works because I haven't commented in quite some time but wanted you to know I'm sending heaps of good mojo your way! I hope hope hope you get the part! You're an awesome actor, writer, and human being. Tracey Posted by: Tracey at January 25, 2005 06:52 PMWil, FG Posted by: Fabian at January 25, 2005 07:25 PMwhat Ignatz said. Posted by: seasnail at January 25, 2005 07:56 PMloved the audiopost Posted by: seasnail at January 25, 2005 08:05 PMGod. Auditions. They're an addiction, don't you think? Even the ones that really don't have any part for your type...you still want to go. I work. I go to school. I have a demanding schedule of hockey games I enjoy watching. But still, I audition. I audition and know I have no time for a part, should one actually be offered. There is actually a major audition coming up next weekend that I am trying my hardest to ignore. I'm just sitting here like "OK, Virginia. You work 35 hours a week. You're taking 15 hours this semester. You CAN'T do a show. CAN'T!" But it's not working out too well. Enough steam of consciousness. Break a leg, Wil! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you. Posted by: Virginia at January 25, 2005 08:18 PMBrilliant blog. As a fellow blogger I have to say your writing is entrancing as always Wil. Yes, you truly rawk like the amazing blogger you are!!!Now swallow your heart and pull up your boot straps, the audition is yours if you grab it by the balls. And for god sakes, stop giving a crap. Posted by: Heathyr at January 25, 2005 08:31 PMGreat entry, as per usual, you bring new meaning to "personal" I'm crossing my fingers for you, as I am sure we all are. Posted by: Evilpoptart at January 25, 2005 09:30 PMWow. That was one of the most compelling posts you've written in a long time. Way to go Wil Posted by: Pezzini at January 25, 2005 09:47 PMWith you a good movie would only be better. Did you ever explain the blue hair? Did you lose a bet? Posted by: Joann Landers at January 25, 2005 10:31 PMThe best of luck to you!!!!! Posted by: Cat at January 25, 2005 10:54 PMWil: :) Break a leg! Scott Good to hear you're still getting the auditions, at least. By the way, it's pushing 2 months since Slashdot's "Ask Wil Wheaton Anything" thread - when are we going to see the responses? Posted by: mabman at January 25, 2005 11:36 PMWil, it is 100% guaranteed that every person auditioning gives a shit. Good luck to you, Wil - but, regardless...that was a good fucking piece of writing. Posted by: fat free milk at January 26, 2005 02:33 AMA kiss from Italy ;) Posted by: BimbaMaledetta at January 26, 2005 03:55 AM
Incredible writing, Wil. Your exposing and sharing the emotion of an audition in this post was wonderful to read. I have to admit that you are the reason I started my own blog and you are an inspiration for me in pursuing acting (even if I have no hope of making a living at it). Break a leg, Wil. S Posted by: Scott Ganyo at January 26, 2005 10:21 AM
My grandmother used to say: if it's "bescherkt" it will happen. In other words, if it's meant to be. But I'm crossing my fingers for you anyway. Whatever it is, I'm sure you'll be great in it. at January 26, 2005 03:51 PM
I'm really liking the U2 titles you do. Keep that up, it's very catchy. I swear I think I'm the only person who picks up on it. Posted by: heyjude at January 26, 2005 09:38 PM
It's unfortunate that the script doesn't have a say in the matter. Posted by: maille at January 27, 2005 12:09 PM
I try to imagine that I've gone ahead in time and already gotten whatever job I'm auditioning for. I try to keep remembering how smoothly it went when I was in there. I try. Good luck, Wil. Posted by: chaoticset at January 27, 2005 11:34 PM
Any news? Garrrrr... I hope it works out :) Posted by: Glyn Evans at January 28, 2005 08:01 AM
*pokes typekey thing* at January 28, 2005 10:26 AM
When you first posted this and I couldn't comment- I wanted to say- I know the feeling. Had an audition for my uni's showcase. Nothing major, nothing important really- no one ever gets an agent from it anyway. Now have the fun about panicing about drama school apps. I'm a few stages behind you in the profession, you see. ;) Posted by: Ta-Yu at January 28, 2005 11:06 AM
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